..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
Paris trip postponed. Wanted to write out my thoughts now.
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There are always these sometimes, when I really thank God for providing people to guide me, to walk with me, whenever I face troubles. There are always these sometimes, when I doubting myself, whether my studies are on the track - I felt so light and easy, when friends around me were burying their heads in books. I felt no pressure. Is it because Mechatronics and Microsystemtechnics in Hochschule Heilbronn is easy, or because I'm not on the path? Doubted.
As I'm thinking now, extracting my thoughts, time passed by. How long will I need to always depend on seniors? How long will I always asking helps from my mentor? How long will I need to be childish about my life?
In the end, I don't even know.
Telling myself to be better, but temptations conquered me. Wanting to study, but ended up playing DotA. Wanting to let God, but ended up strangled everything around my neck. Wanting to walk towards Him, but ended up backslid, the Holy Bible ignored. Wanting myself to live an ordered life, but ended up screwing everything up. Wanting to just-be-friend, ended up dreaming of her.
What is wrong with me? I asked myself.
In a year time my mentor might going away from here, what will I do by then? Am I ready to lead a fellowship in Heilbronn by then? Or it'll just die out somehow?
How much time left to have one-to-one session with him?
How much time left to be given answers, whenever I ask him?
How long will he be around to hear my complaints and bombard me with difficult questions so that I not just complain but able to find solutions?
How long will it be for me to be reminded to "try to overcome temptations and say 'yes! I've overcome you again!'?"
How long will the clutchers to be there for me? Will I stand when the plastercast is removed from my leg? Or will I fall?
Smile to myself. I want to be ready by then. After drifted so much away, I decided to come back to the heart of God. I will run into Your arms, once again.
I will ask Him. I will find him. And I will knock the door.
And I will receive; I will find; and the door will be opened to me.
Be strong, Vincent.
Vincent
Paris trip postponed. Wanted to write out my thoughts now.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
There are always these sometimes, when I really thank God for providing people to guide me, to walk with me, whenever I face troubles. There are always these sometimes, when I doubting myself, whether my studies are on the track - I felt so light and easy, when friends around me were burying their heads in books. I felt no pressure. Is it because Mechatronics and Microsystemtechnics in Hochschule Heilbronn is easy, or because I'm not on the path? Doubted.
As I'm thinking now, extracting my thoughts, time passed by. How long will I need to always depend on seniors? How long will I always asking helps from my mentor? How long will I need to be childish about my life?
In the end, I don't even know.
Telling myself to be better, but temptations conquered me. Wanting to study, but ended up playing DotA. Wanting to let God, but ended up strangled everything around my neck. Wanting to walk towards Him, but ended up backslid, the Holy Bible ignored. Wanting myself to live an ordered life, but ended up screwing everything up. Wanting to just-be-friend, ended up dreaming of her.
What is wrong with me? I asked myself.
In a year time my mentor might going away from here, what will I do by then? Am I ready to lead a fellowship in Heilbronn by then? Or it'll just die out somehow?
How much time left to have one-to-one session with him?
How much time left to be given answers, whenever I ask him?
How long will he be around to hear my complaints and bombard me with difficult questions so that I not just complain but able to find solutions?
How long will it be for me to be reminded to "try to overcome temptations and say 'yes! I've overcome you again!'?"
How long will the clutchers to be there for me? Will I stand when the plastercast is removed from my leg? Or will I fall?
Smile to myself. I want to be ready by then. After drifted so much away, I decided to come back to the heart of God. I will run into Your arms, once again.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who ask receives; he who seeks find; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8 NIV
I will ask Him. I will find him. And I will knock the door.
Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Matthew 6:33 NIV
And I will receive; I will find; and the door will be opened to me.
Be strong, Vincent.
Vincent
2 comments:
hi there... just a verse to encourage you:
James 1:5
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
=)
thanks jie jie, u're sweet. =)
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