Monday, December 31, 2012
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
When it (really) Counts - Ep 4
..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
Lots of things are going on around me. Need a time-out this Wednesday.
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Today I wanted to give it a try - an unplanned, last-minute attempt. I told myself, this is the last thing that I would do. And fairly enough, it didn't turn out to be the way I wanted it to.
So here I am, blogging again about some thoughts. To be honest, I felt as if I'm Tammy, at the same time Matt, but trying to be Justin.
Sometimes it really feelunjust sad to have awesome attractive friends around you, and no matter how much you want that chosen one to look at you, she looks at him instead. Sometimes this awesome friend might be too busy to hope that another girl will notice him - the exact feeling that you have about your chosen one.
Then again, there's this (perhaps these) other girl(s) who shares this feeling that you have; just that that feeling is for you.
I'm not bla-ing about how I feel now (though it is true). I just think that,
we all should cherish those who love you, and it's a privilege to have someone whom you love who loves you back as well.
I just want her to notice me, at least. It's impossible, nevertheless, when the other person is better in everything that you're good at.
Comparison is like vacuum cleaner ('cause it sucks) but that's how certain elements are being noticed. They don't use the term "alpha male" in vain. I just feel sorry for those betas. Including myself.
But, as much as I feel as if I'm the victim, there should be someone else who becomes victims because of me.
p/s: Just for the record, it turned out to be a more constructive day despite this disappointment.
Lots of things are going on around me. Need a time-out this Wednesday.
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Today I wanted to give it a try - an unplanned, last-minute attempt. I told myself, this is the last thing that I would do. And fairly enough, it didn't turn out to be the way I wanted it to.
So here I am, blogging again about some thoughts. To be honest, I felt as if I'm Tammy, at the same time Matt, but trying to be Justin.
Sometimes it really feel
Then again, there's this (perhaps these) other girl(s) who shares this feeling that you have; just that that feeling is for you.
I'm not bla-ing about how I feel now (though it is true). I just think that,
we all should cherish those who love you, and it's a privilege to have someone whom you love who loves you back as well.
I just want her to notice me, at least. It's impossible, nevertheless, when the other person is better in everything that you're good at.
Comparison is like vacuum cleaner ('cause it sucks) but that's how certain elements are being noticed. They don't use the term "alpha male" in vain. I just feel sorry for those betas. Including myself.
But, as much as I feel as if I'm the victim, there should be someone else who becomes victims because of me.
p/s: Just for the record, it turned out to be a more constructive day despite this disappointment.
Monday, December 10, 2012
Prophecy
..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
Instead of going to school, I stayed home. Instead of lying in bed because not feeling well, I decided to blog.
Hello "friend"!
This "friend" of mine went through lots of ups and downs in my life. For that I'm eternally in debt.
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People are wondering how I am doing in this new place. I must admit there're number times when I cried, (in fact, just yesterday night) some unhappy things happened and stuffs, but all I can say is, I am who I am and I insist not to live as who you think I should be.
And God is faithful. And He knows me way better than I know myself. I still think making the decision to come to Duisburg is the best decisions I have made in the past 3 years (sounds like some ungrateful kid huh?)
Clueless of what I'm talking about? I guess everyone deserves to know what happened. And so the story goes..
Once upon a time.. Nah I'm not gonna do that. Okay seriously, here goes.
I love my previous house church. But over the past one year I really do sense the urgency to really rise up and take up responsibility as a child of God. And I knew that wasn't just an urge by myself, because it kept coming to me. I knew, that it was the time to change season, after having the field completely empty because of the previous harvest, which one 5 years ago. I felt so comfortable in group, that I couldn't see the growth of myself. In short the curve was like a capacitor, and I was reaching the saturation point.
This wasn't right. I need to "step out of my comfort zone". A phrase that everyone says but only minors actually execute it. I couldn't remember how much or how long I started to pray to God, "God, I need to grow, I need to change, I need to discharge, I know it's time to change season.. but there's so so so many uncertainties in my life - Bachelor studies, what should I do after that, where am I, where am I heading to - and I just don't know where to start from. Lord, help me to choose, shut the doors that are not meant to be opened, and I will follow."
Simple prayer as that and God really showed His power: He shut off lots of chances, and slowly it was clearer and clearer that, Baden-Württemberg is not the place to change season. But stuffs happened: I know clearly, that the easiest and most comfortable door is to stay in Heilbronn. Nevertheless it was shut down: Hochschule Heilbronn rejected me (I couldn't believe it even until this point). I had to finish up my Bachelor-Thesis as soon as possible so that I could use the result to apply for universities.
God, however, is not a God who makes us to be His robots either: We all have our own free-will to choose. He granted me choices: both Universiti Kassel and Universiti Duisburg accepted me. But I knew clearly, Duisburg is the place because it is the place where the spiritual support and growth are the strongest.
Despite that, home is still where the heart is, and that time it was still belonged to Heilbronn. By then lots of things happened. Unforeseen circumstances happened, and I messed up quite a lot in terms of my relationship with people. I disappointed the trust and respect of a lot of people around me. And some of the mess I carried up to Duisburg.
But God convicted me during Regional Weekend. It was so hurting that I couldn't stop crying during a worship session, when God convicted me through the teaching before the worship. I couldn't take it anymore. I sensed that God said, "convictions and repentance start only when you start to let accountable people to share the load with you." And God sent people to me, to hear my problems, funny enough that they are two of the few people I felt comfortable with; people whom I've known for at least 2 years. It really felt that a heavy burden was lifted off from my shoulder.
By then I mixed into the new house church here under the lead by Jia Uei and I began to understand that, like how He led me to Christ over the past 18 years, He is leading me to His purpose and plan for me. I am convinced, that the Lord our God is changing the season - it is the time to sow seeds and start to grow. I began to see the bigger picture, and couldn't stop but to be amazed by how great God is.
God did not just put me around with passionate people. He stirred up this passion for His name within me - the passion to rise up.
Today I can say that I am thankful that our God is real and His ways are higher than anyone of us. He has plans and purpose to each and everyone of us.
It is such an encouragement to hear and to know and to understand and to be reassured that I am wonderfully and beautifully created and knitted together [by God]. I am His child; I am His household; I am His son and He loves me so much.
To be assured of His heart and His acceptance of who I am in His sight
To lift up my head, and to see His grace and love and mercy that flows in and through me
"I will cause there to be increase in pray in your life, compassion for others, because you begin to see people for who they are and you would not judge them but to come [to the Lord] to say 'God, I beg you to touch their lives'".
"if you would give yourself faithfully to this prayer and to be faithful and consistent surely you will see My mighty hands move."
"Do you not know that My Spirit is in You?" says the Lord Almighty.
God does forgive His people when they come before their feet, to be thoroughly honest and repent on their wrong doings. But God never say that they are free from the consequences that they have to bear because of that. There's an analogy to it:
There's this young man in his teenage life, and often he was angry on people who does wrong at him and condemned them. Realizing that that was wrong and he had to change, he came to his father. His father led him through the kitchen to the backdoor to their courtyard, and told him, "son, the next time when you feel angry at someone, instead of releasing anger on them, you take this nail and hammer it into the wooden doorframe. And every time you forgives someone, you plug on nail out from the door."
And the teenager followed his father's instruction. In the beginning there were so many nails hammered into the doorframe. But the teenager kept trying to forgive and up to a certain point, the number of nails started to decrease. Finally one day, he managed to not to have any more nails on the doorframe. He was so happy, and he brought his father to the doorframe and said, "look father, there're no more nails on the doorframe."
The father took at look at the doorframe and said, "yes son, it's good that you have forgiven them, but you see, son, the the doorframe is no longer as smooth and pretty as before. That's the consequence that one has to bear for every sin we committed."
I teared, knowing I'm exactly the sinning son. So, despite the fact that God promised that He will always forgive us, it doesn't mean we don't have any aftermath/consequences to bear. So the best way is, nevertheless, repent and stop sinning.
A lot of things in mind, but I will prepare myself well.
..::*+ Outro +*::..
Got my Google Nexus 7 3G. Tell you more next time, if you all still reading my blog ;)
Instead of going to school, I stayed home. Instead of lying in bed because not feeling well, I decided to blog.
Hello "friend"!
This "friend" of mine went through lots of ups and downs in my life. For that I'm eternally in debt.
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People are wondering how I am doing in this new place. I must admit there're number times when I cried, (in fact, just yesterday night) some unhappy things happened and stuffs, but all I can say is, I am who I am and I insist not to live as who you think I should be.
And God is faithful. And He knows me way better than I know myself. I still think making the decision to come to Duisburg is the best decisions I have made in the past 3 years (sounds like some ungrateful kid huh?)
Clueless of what I'm talking about? I guess everyone deserves to know what happened. And so the story goes..
Once upon a time.. Nah I'm not gonna do that. Okay seriously, here goes.
I love my previous house church. But over the past one year I really do sense the urgency to really rise up and take up responsibility as a child of God. And I knew that wasn't just an urge by myself, because it kept coming to me. I knew, that it was the time to change season, after having the field completely empty because of the previous harvest, which one 5 years ago. I felt so comfortable in group, that I couldn't see the growth of myself. In short the curve was like a capacitor, and I was reaching the saturation point.
This wasn't right. I need to "step out of my comfort zone". A phrase that everyone says but only minors actually execute it. I couldn't remember how much or how long I started to pray to God, "God, I need to grow, I need to change, I need to discharge, I know it's time to change season.. but there's so so so many uncertainties in my life - Bachelor studies, what should I do after that, where am I, where am I heading to - and I just don't know where to start from. Lord, help me to choose, shut the doors that are not meant to be opened, and I will follow."
Simple prayer as that and God really showed His power: He shut off lots of chances, and slowly it was clearer and clearer that, Baden-Württemberg is not the place to change season. But stuffs happened: I know clearly, that the easiest and most comfortable door is to stay in Heilbronn. Nevertheless it was shut down: Hochschule Heilbronn rejected me (I couldn't believe it even until this point). I had to finish up my Bachelor-Thesis as soon as possible so that I could use the result to apply for universities.
God, however, is not a God who makes us to be His robots either: We all have our own free-will to choose. He granted me choices: both Universiti Kassel and Universiti Duisburg accepted me. But I knew clearly, Duisburg is the place because it is the place where the spiritual support and growth are the strongest.
Despite that, home is still where the heart is, and that time it was still belonged to Heilbronn. By then lots of things happened. Unforeseen circumstances happened, and I messed up quite a lot in terms of my relationship with people. I disappointed the trust and respect of a lot of people around me. And some of the mess I carried up to Duisburg.
But God convicted me during Regional Weekend. It was so hurting that I couldn't stop crying during a worship session, when God convicted me through the teaching before the worship. I couldn't take it anymore. I sensed that God said, "convictions and repentance start only when you start to let accountable people to share the load with you." And God sent people to me, to hear my problems, funny enough that they are two of the few people I felt comfortable with; people whom I've known for at least 2 years. It really felt that a heavy burden was lifted off from my shoulder.
By then I mixed into the new house church here under the lead by Jia Uei and I began to understand that, like how He led me to Christ over the past 18 years, He is leading me to His purpose and plan for me. I am convinced, that the Lord our God is changing the season - it is the time to sow seeds and start to grow. I began to see the bigger picture, and couldn't stop but to be amazed by how great God is.
God did not just put me around with passionate people. He stirred up this passion for His name within me - the passion to rise up.
Today I can say that I am thankful that our God is real and His ways are higher than anyone of us. He has plans and purpose to each and everyone of us.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
It is such an encouragement to hear and to know and to understand and to be reassured that I am wonderfully and beautifully created and knitted together [by God]. I am His child; I am His household; I am His son and He loves me so much.
To be assured of His heart and His acceptance of who I am in His sight
To lift up my head, and to see His grace and love and mercy that flows in and through me
"I will cause there to be increase in pray in your life, compassion for others, because you begin to see people for who they are and you would not judge them but to come [to the Lord] to say 'God, I beg you to touch their lives'".
"if you would give yourself faithfully to this prayer and to be faithful and consistent surely you will see My mighty hands move."
"Do you not know that My Spirit is in You?" says the Lord Almighty.
God does forgive His people when they come before their feet, to be thoroughly honest and repent on their wrong doings. But God never say that they are free from the consequences that they have to bear because of that. There's an analogy to it:
There's this young man in his teenage life, and often he was angry on people who does wrong at him and condemned them. Realizing that that was wrong and he had to change, he came to his father. His father led him through the kitchen to the backdoor to their courtyard, and told him, "son, the next time when you feel angry at someone, instead of releasing anger on them, you take this nail and hammer it into the wooden doorframe. And every time you forgives someone, you plug on nail out from the door."
And the teenager followed his father's instruction. In the beginning there were so many nails hammered into the doorframe. But the teenager kept trying to forgive and up to a certain point, the number of nails started to decrease. Finally one day, he managed to not to have any more nails on the doorframe. He was so happy, and he brought his father to the doorframe and said, "look father, there're no more nails on the doorframe."
The father took at look at the doorframe and said, "yes son, it's good that you have forgiven them, but you see, son, the the doorframe is no longer as smooth and pretty as before. That's the consequence that one has to bear for every sin we committed."
I teared, knowing I'm exactly the sinning son. So, despite the fact that God promised that He will always forgive us, it doesn't mean we don't have any aftermath/consequences to bear. So the best way is, nevertheless, repent and stop sinning.
A lot of things in mind, but I will prepare myself well.
..::*+ Outro +*::..
Got my Google Nexus 7 3G. Tell you more next time, if you all still reading my blog ;)
The Lego House I wanted to build
I want to submit this area into His mighty hands; Give up, and follow Him only, knowing that my God is the God who provides. And I have confidence in His providence when the timing is, as usual, right.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Heilbronn :(
Goodbye, Heilbronn.
Farewell is so far the hardest thing for me to do. It's not because I'm too attached to people here, but rather it's a start where things will get worn out or worse: gone.
A lot of things had happened during my nearly 5 years of stay in Heilbronn. It'll be fun in Duisburg as well, I know.
But as said:
Once a Heilbronner, always a Heilbronner.
Take care, people. :)
Farewell is so far the hardest thing for me to do. It's not because I'm too attached to people here, but rather it's a start where things will get worn out or worse: gone.
A lot of things had happened during my nearly 5 years of stay in Heilbronn. It'll be fun in Duisburg as well, I know.
But as said:
Once a Heilbronner, always a Heilbronner.
Take care, people. :)
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
God
what that really counts...
is time.
is relationship with God.
I need more time. I need God.
How's your relationship with God? How's mine?
oh wells.
is time.
is relationship with God.
I need more time. I need God.
How's your relationship with God? How's mine?
oh wells.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
It'll guide you home
Light shines the brightest in the midst of darkness.
Somehow you're always the encouragement to me. Thank God. :)
Somehow you're always the encouragement to me. Thank God. :)
Wednesday, June 06, 2012
Friday, June 01, 2012
Wind - Akeboshi
Cultivate your hunger, before you idealize
Motivate your anger, to make them all realize
Climbing the mountain, never coming down
Break into the contents, never falling down
My knee is still shaking like i was twelve
Sneakin' out the classroom, by the back door
A man railed at me twice, though
But i didn't care
Waiting is wasting, for people like me
Don't try to look so wise,
Don't cry cause you're so all right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
Cause you will hate yourself in the end
Don't try to look so wise,
Don't cry cause you're so all right
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
Cause you will hate yourself in the end
You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."
Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.
You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.
Don't try to look so wise
Don't cry, cause you're so right
Don't dry, with fakes or fears
Cause you will hate yourself in the end
Don't try to look so wise
Don't cry cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
Cause you will hate yourself in the end
Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
Cause you will hate yourself in the end
Friday, May 04, 2012
你好嗎 - 周杰倫
时间啊时间...你好像越跑越快哦。
看看自己的 to-do-list, 真的觉得很没有时间。很多东西需要去做，很多东西也忘了去做。真的觉得有一本记录簿真好；这样才不会忘记许多东西。
很多问题...我真的很想知道答案。上帝啊上帝，什么原因让你觉得我还需要等待?
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其实应该感觉开心，因为她回答了我的简讯 =P
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看看自己的 to-do-list, 真的觉得很没有时间。很多东西需要去做，很多东西也忘了去做。真的觉得有一本记录簿真好；这样才不会忘记许多东西。
很多问题...我真的很想知道答案。上帝啊上帝，什么原因让你觉得我还需要等待?
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其实应该感觉开心，因为她回答了我的简讯 =P
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Sunday, April 15, 2012
Need the motivation
I don't like playing catching up game.
You're too far ahead.
Too good for me.
Too bad if only there's this element in you...
it is not euphoria.
it's Euphorie.
The smartypants.
The sunshine.
I want to catch up! I want to be side-by-side with you! Should this be the motivation I need, to grow?
time will tell.
You're too far ahead.
Too good for me.
Too bad if only there's this element in you...
it is not euphoria.
it's Euphorie.
The smartypants.
The sunshine.
I want to catch up! I want to be side-by-side with you! Should this be the motivation I need, to grow?
time will tell.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Friday, March 16, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Solo Player - Jason Chen (Official Music Video) ft. Jen Frmheadtotoe
[Verse1]
From the moment you walked into my life,
Everything felt so right.
From the moment I looked into your eyes,
I knew I had to make you mine.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
You drove a stake right through to my heart,
and left me bleeding for your love.
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried everything to prove I loved you,
Gave my all to make all of your dreams come true.
But I'm no longer blinded by your lies,
I know your heart was never mine.
[Chorus]
Why am I the solo player (in this game for two)
I'm the solo player (my love was never true)
I want the solo player (in this game for two)
I can be the solo player (love is a game for two)
[Verse2]
I saw the look at your smile and it makes me feel,
Everything will be all right (Oh yeah)
It's like I'm still in love with you,
Or maybe I'm just a fool.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
Oh you drove a stake right through to my heart,
But I will bleed for you no more.
[Bridge]
It doesn't matter how much I loved you,
Or how much I cared.
Even if you come crawling back girl,
Next time I won't be there.
I'm prepared to leave it all behind,
Oh no, you were never mine.
And even though it breaks my heart,
Girl I got to let you go.
[Outtro]
Why am I the solo player?
I can be the solo player...
Thursday, March 08, 2012
你不说?
不知不觉自己身在德国已四年了，很多东西都渐渐地改变。四年前感觉德国很生疏，现在反而觉得在德国生活也蛮不错的。
心中其实很羡慕那些已毕业的同辈们，但是脑里想的却是自责。我其实也是可以的，是自己选择放弃机会，就差那份爆发力、上进心。
我自己当然很不喜欢这种态度，但却没有那强硬的心去告诉自己；永远都无法狠下决心。老实说，我是真的真的很想改变——想学习自私一点、少犹豫自己、对自己有更大的信心。
就是有一天，当大家都在厨房里，人家就随便说说——说我不会弄饭、做菜。心中其实就是很不甘，却懒得去和他吵个死活。心里只是想，“莫非我做的一切并不清楚？”
默默地耕耘，程度是如何，我自己清楚，不必并报全世界，因为我就不是那种爱炫耀的人。
人家却把我当白痴。我叹。
来到这里，很庆幸的是：上帝赐给了我一群自信满满的伙儿们。有时候缺乏自信心的我，却是确实地被他们掩埋着。我真的很想向他们学习，但“自信”这种东西，应该是要靠自己去建筑吧？
到头来，我觉得我最大的缺点就是犹豫。来来去去都是“但是但是”这两个字。还记得当时在荷兰时，好友恩惠问了大家，“如果你能改变自己的一个缺点，那会是什么呢？” 我当然就说是“缺乏自信心” 的个性。其实我很想改掉这个坏习惯，但是真的是不知所措啊。
想做一个直率的人，却很顾及别人的感受。
想奋不顾身地追逐自己想要的梦想，却担心那想要的梦想不是自己真的很想要得到的心愿。
相对人凶一点，却担心得罪别人。
很多人都很想知道，那一次发生了什么事情——是不是发生了冷战。我不是要打冷战，而是为了保护自己。不是为了保护自己被再次受伤害，而是避免自己再次冲动。我选择避开、沉默、话不说。就是很想和她聊，却刻意的控制自己。那种辛苦，我自己懂得。心里不甘的是，自己也沉默，人家就越多问，甚至拿这个事情来开玩笑。心里被气的啼笑皆非，脸上却只能苦笑带过。所以到最后，只能在部落格发泄。
如果你问我：“你累了吗？” 我只能老实地说一句：“我是真的累坏了。”
好想搞个失踪，带着一本画画书，逃到无人的山上或葡萄园里去，画一幅日出、日落的绘画，毕竟自己也很久没有机会画画了。就像那一次激怒，买了一个白板发泄，然后把它抹个一干二净。^^
[Verse1]
舞鞋 穿了洞 裂了縫 預備迎接一個夢
OK繃 遮住痛 要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐 我要用哪一種
面對他 一百零一分笑容
[Verse2]
等待 的時空 有點重 重得時針走不動
無影蹤 他始終 不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂 誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊 依然長長的人龍
[Chorus]
想踮起腳尖找尋愛 遠遠的存在
我來不及 說聲嗨 影子就從人海暈開
才踮起腳尖的期待 只怕被虧待
我勾不著還微笑忍耐
woo~ 等你回過頭來
[Verse3]
哪天 撲了空 折了衷 祈禱終於起作用
一陣風 吹來夢 卻又敗在難溝通
我終於懂 怎麼人們的臉孔
想到愛 寂寞眼眶就轉紅
心中其实很羡慕那些已毕业的同辈们，但是脑里想的却是自责。我其实也是可以的，是自己选择放弃机会，就差那份爆发力、上进心。
我自己当然很不喜欢这种态度，但却没有那强硬的心去告诉自己；永远都无法狠下决心。老实说，我是真的真的很想改变——想学习自私一点、少犹豫自己、对自己有更大的信心。
就是有一天，当大家都在厨房里，人家就随便说说——说我不会弄饭、做菜。心中其实就是很不甘，却懒得去和他吵个死活。心里只是想，“莫非我做的一切并不清楚？”
默默地耕耘，程度是如何，我自己清楚，不必并报全世界，因为我就不是那种爱炫耀的人。
人家却把我当白痴。我叹。
来到这里，很庆幸的是：上帝赐给了我一群自信满满的伙儿们。有时候缺乏自信心的我，却是确实地被他们掩埋着。我真的很想向他们学习，但“自信”这种东西，应该是要靠自己去建筑吧？
到头来，我觉得我最大的缺点就是犹豫。来来去去都是“但是但是”这两个字。还记得当时在荷兰时，好友恩惠问了大家，“如果你能改变自己的一个缺点，那会是什么呢？” 我当然就说是“缺乏自信心” 的个性。其实我很想改掉这个坏习惯，但是真的是不知所措啊。
想做一个直率的人，却很顾及别人的感受。
想奋不顾身地追逐自己想要的梦想，却担心那想要的梦想不是自己真的很想要得到的心愿。
相对人凶一点，却担心得罪别人。
很多人都很想知道，那一次发生了什么事情——是不是发生了冷战。我不是要打冷战，而是为了保护自己。不是为了保护自己被再次受伤害，而是避免自己再次冲动。我选择避开、沉默、话不说。就是很想和她聊，却刻意的控制自己。那种辛苦，我自己懂得。心里不甘的是，自己也沉默，人家就越多问，甚至拿这个事情来开玩笑。心里被气的啼笑皆非，脸上却只能苦笑带过。所以到最后，只能在部落格发泄。
如果你问我：“你累了吗？” 我只能老实地说一句：“我是真的累坏了。”
好想搞个失踪，带着一本画画书，逃到无人的山上或葡萄园里去，画一幅日出、日落的绘画，毕竟自己也很久没有机会画画了。就像那一次激怒，买了一个白板发泄，然后把它抹个一干二净。^^
踮起腳尖愛 - 洪佩瑜
[Verse1]
舞鞋 穿了洞 裂了縫 預備迎接一個夢
OK繃 遮住痛 要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐 我要用哪一種
面對他 一百零一分笑容
[Verse2]
等待 的時空 有點重 重得時針走不動
無影蹤 他始終 不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂 誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊 依然長長的人龍
[Chorus]
想踮起腳尖找尋愛 遠遠的存在
我來不及 說聲嗨 影子就從人海暈開
才踮起腳尖的期待 只怕被虧待
我勾不著還微笑忍耐
woo~ 等你回過頭來
[Verse3]
哪天 撲了空 折了衷 祈禱終於起作用
一陣風 吹來夢 卻又敗在難溝通
我終於懂 怎麼人們的臉孔
想到愛 寂寞眼眶就轉紅
Tuesday, March 06, 2012
Friday, February 24, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
a dozen
Part of counting your blessings mindset:
My best friend and I have known each other for 12 years.
We just counted it together.. actually she counted it. But wow a dozen of years...
At least that's the happiest thing for today.
Thank you for being there for me on every moment of my life; let it be happy, sad, anger, jealousy, hatred, complaints, love, crush... everything! Even work! And Düsseldorf, Köln, etc. tour!
Happy 12th years of friendship, bff!
:)
My best friend and I have known each other for 12 years.
We just counted it together.. actually she counted it. But wow a dozen of years...
At least that's the happiest thing for today.
Thank you for being there for me on every moment of my life; let it be happy, sad, anger, jealousy, hatred, complaints, love, crush... everything! Even work! And Düsseldorf, Köln, etc. tour!
Happy 12th years of friendship, bff!
:)
Saturday, February 18, 2012
翅膀 - 林依晨
..::*+ 前言+*::..
爱上了这部台湾连续剧。林依晨好漂亮哦~
我可能不会爱你。
------------------------------------------------
[Verse1]
你终於 勇敢 牽起我的手
你說你愛了我 好久好久
我點了頭 緊握你的手
然後我們一起了
[Verse2]
你說會 帶我 遊整個地球
我們要在一起 直到最後
有你保護我 心都可放了
手已牽了 天更遼闊
[Prechorus]
因為有你陪 我的世界不再黑
我的天空 有你從此不再亂飛
[Chorus]
你就是我的翅膀 陪我到前方
讓我學會了雨和雷後 一定看見彩虹
你就是我的翅膀 帶著我飛翔
累了之後有你為我取暖
你讓我更勇敢 更堅強
[Bridge]
我只希望有你一直陪在我身旁
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Saturday, January 28, 2012
20120128 Blog Song
Added the song "Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are (Piano cover) ThePianoGuys" to blog as header.
Autoplay is, as usual, turned on. So if you don't like the song, you can stop the song from playing :)
enjoy :)
Autoplay is, as usual, turned on. So if you don't like the song, you can stop the song from playing :)
enjoy :)
Friday, January 27, 2012
Android - apk
I don't know why I start to learn to decompile and compile android apk's at this kind of exam period, but I must say I respect those who writes/tweaks/modifies android rom/apk/flashable-zip even more.
I've been staying up like an owl and burn midnight oil just to get a proper battery percentage on my AOSP-ICS ROM with 1%-step. Was going through tons of problems...
but in the end I managed to create the apk (SystemUI.apk). I moved it into system/app folder to replace the default one and set the permission to rw-r--r--. But the notification bar just gone.
I've been following lots of tutorials about theme-ing and modding. Even asked those great themers in xda. And I got a good advice "apk's in ICS are a bit tricky."
Why is it always me? LoL.
Gahhh. Annoyance to the max. I really want to get this done. Help?
using:
1. apktool
2. Device: HTC Desire HD (Ace)
2. ROM: IceColdSandwich-1.1Beta1
I've been staying up like an owl and burn midnight oil just to get a proper battery percentage on my AOSP-ICS ROM with 1%-step. Was going through tons of problems...
but in the end I managed to create the apk (SystemUI.apk). I moved it into system/app folder to replace the default one and set the permission to rw-r--r--. But the notification bar just gone.
I've been following lots of tutorials about theme-ing and modding. Even asked those great themers in xda. And I got a good advice "apk's in ICS are a bit tricky."
Why is it always me? LoL.
Gahhh. Annoyance to the max. I really want to get this done. Help?
using:
1. apktool
2. Device: HTC Desire HD (Ace)
2. ROM: IceColdSandwich-1.1Beta1
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Next
The one thing that a lot of us always fail to answer:
What's the next step?
try apply this into your life. Or any situations. It requires more wisdom than you think.
WWJD?
What's the next step?
try apply this into your life. Or any situations. It requires more wisdom than you think.
WWJD?
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Guama
Life.. is ever so fragile.
You know we love you.
Gushes of memories flooded my brain.
Streams of tears drown my heart.
I know, that when all else fades,
we will definitely see each other again,
for you are now rest in peace inwait of the Christ Jesus.
I remember the best food that you cooked.
I remember how much you enjoyed the moments when tons of us came over to your house
for dinner, daily kids' reunion, teenagers' discussion, adult talk, even about relationships;
See, you were there in every and all of these times,
though purposes might differ,
the one thing that remained constant was that you and your delicious food was always there,
which were so awesome, that the table couldn't fit all of us together every after 3 batches.
Above all, I admire your hardworking-ness.
It is the super-god-given strength that no one else whom I know posses.
It is the attribute that had impacts in lives of people whom you knew.
And the funny thing was that the very last advice that you gave me was to "study hard".
I know, that now you're at better side of the place,
away from this fallen earthly world,
free from the pain of carrying a 4th stage cancer.
The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.
But I thank You Lord for giveth and blesseth me with such a wonderful grandmother.
I will miss her physical presence, Lord.
But I know, You are taking care of her as we pray.
Nevertheless, that tiniest light, when it is placed in the deepest dark,
and it's taken away, it feels sour.
I want to pray for healing, Lord.
Lord, if You are willing, you can make me healed.
I know that the next time I go back, I will:
miss her great food;
miss her strong character;
miss her presence;
and definitely miss her.
Whether how short or how long our lives on earth depends on how we take weigh of our lives.
You know we love you.
Gushes of memories flooded my brain.
Streams of tears drown my heart.
I know, that when all else fades,
we will definitely see each other again,
for you are now rest in peace inwait of the Christ Jesus.
I remember the best food that you cooked.
I remember how much you enjoyed the moments when tons of us came over to your house
for dinner, daily kids' reunion, teenagers' discussion, adult talk, even about relationships;
See, you were there in every and all of these times,
though purposes might differ,
the one thing that remained constant was that you and your delicious food was always there,
which were so awesome, that the table couldn't fit all of us together every after 3 batches.
Above all, I admire your hardworking-ness.
It is the super-god-given strength that no one else whom I know posses.
It is the attribute that had impacts in lives of people whom you knew.
And the funny thing was that the very last advice that you gave me was to "study hard".
I know, that now you're at better side of the place,
away from this fallen earthly world,
free from the pain of carrying a 4th stage cancer.
The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.
But I thank You Lord for giveth and blesseth me with such a wonderful grandmother.
I will miss her physical presence, Lord.
But I know, You are taking care of her as we pray.
Nevertheless, that tiniest light, when it is placed in the deepest dark,
and it's taken away, it feels sour.
I want to pray for healing, Lord.
Lord, if You are willing, you can make me healed.
I know that the next time I go back, I will:
miss her great food;
miss her strong character;
miss her presence;
and definitely miss her.
Whether how short or how long our lives on earth depends on how we take weigh of our lives.
teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.Psalm 90:12 NIV
Thursday, January 05, 2012
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