When it (really) Counts - Ep 4

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
Lots of things are going on around me. Need a time-out this Wednesday.

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Today I wanted to give it a try - an unplanned, last-minute attempt. I told myself, this is the last thing that I would do. And fairly enough, it didn't turn out to be the way I wanted it to.

So here I am, blogging again about some thoughts. To be honest, I felt as if I'm Tammy, at the same time Matt, but trying to be Justin.



Sometimes it really feel unjust  sad to have awesome attractive  friends around you, and no matter how much you want that chosen one to look at you, she looks at him instead. Sometimes this awesome friend might be too busy to hope that another girl will notice him - the exact feeling that you have about your chosen one.

Then again, there's this (perhaps these) other girl(s) who shares this feeling that you have; just that that feeling is for you.

I'm not bla-ing about how I feel now (though it is true). I just think that,

we all should cherish those who love you, and it's a privilege to have someone whom you love who loves you back as well.

I just want her to notice me, at least. It's impossible, nevertheless, when the other person is better in everything that you're good at.

Comparison is like vacuum cleaner ('cause it sucks) but that's how certain elements are being noticed. They don't use the term "alpha male" in vain. I just feel sorry for those betas. Including myself.

But, as much as I feel as if I'm the victim, there should be someone else who becomes victims because of me.

p/s: Just for the record, it turned out to be a more constructive day despite this disappointment.