也许妳。。。

Solo Player - Jason Chen (Official Music Video) ft. Jen Frmheadtotoe

[Verse1]
From the moment you walked into my life,
Everything felt so right.
From the moment I looked into your eyes,
I knew I had to make you mine.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
You drove a stake right through to my heart,
and left me bleeding for your love.

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried everything to prove I loved you,
Gave my all to make all of your dreams come true.
But I'm no longer blinded by your lies,
I know your heart was never mine.

[Chorus]
Why am I the solo player (in this game for two)
I'm the solo player (my love was never true)
I want the solo player (in this game for two)
I can be the solo player (love is a game for two)

[Verse2]
I saw the look at your smile and it makes me feel,
Everything will be all right (Oh yeah)
It's like I'm still in love with you,
Or maybe I'm just a fool.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
Oh you drove a stake right through to my heart,
But I will bleed for you no more.

[Bridge]
It doesn't matter how much I loved you,
Or how much I cared.
Even if you come crawling back girl,
Next time I won't be there.
I'm prepared to leave it all behind,
Oh no, you were never mine.
And even though it breaks my heart,
Girl I got to let you go.

[Outtro]
Why am I the solo player?
I can be the solo player...

你不说?

不知不觉自己身在德国已四年了，很多东西都渐渐地改变。四年前感觉德国很生疏，现在反而觉得在德国生活也蛮不错的。

心中其实很羡慕那些已毕业的同辈们，但是脑里想的却是自责。我其实也是可以的，是自己选择放弃机会，就差那份爆发力、上进心。

我自己当然很不喜欢这种态度，但却没有那强硬的心去告诉自己；永远都无法狠下决心。老实说，我是真的真的很想改变——想学习自私一点、少犹豫自己、对自己有更大的信心。

就是有一天，当大家都在厨房里，人家就随便说说——说我不会弄饭、做菜。心中其实就是很不甘，却懒得去和他吵个死活。心里只是想，“莫非我做的一切并不清楚？”

默默地耕耘，程度是如何，我自己清楚，不必并报全世界，因为我就不是那种爱炫耀的人。
人家却把我当白痴。我叹。

来到这里，很庆幸的是：上帝赐给了我一群自信满满的伙儿们。有时候缺乏自信心的我，却是确实地被他们掩埋着。我真的很想向他们学习，但“自信”这种东西，应该是要靠自己去建筑吧？

到头来，我觉得我最大的缺点就是犹豫。来来去去都是“但是但是”这两个字。还记得当时在荷兰时，好友恩惠问了大家，“如果你能改变自己的一个缺点，那会是什么呢？” 我当然就说是“缺乏自信心” 的个性。其实我很想改掉这个坏习惯，但是真的是不知所措啊。

想做一个直率的人，却很顾及别人的感受。
想奋不顾身地追逐自己想要的梦想，却担心那想要的梦想不是自己真的很想要得到的心愿。
相对人凶一点，却担心得罪别人。


很多人都很想知道，那一次发生了什么事情——是不是发生了冷战。我不是要打冷战，而是为了保护自己。不是为了保护自己被再次受伤害，而是避免自己再次冲动。我选择避开、沉默、话不说。就是很想和她聊，却刻意的控制自己。那种辛苦，我自己懂得。心里不甘的是，自己也沉默，人家就越多问，甚至拿这个事情来开玩笑。心里被气的啼笑皆非，脸上却只能苦笑带过。所以到最后，只能在部落格发泄。


如果你问我：“你累了吗？” 我只能老实地说一句：“我是真的累坏了。”

好想搞个失踪，带着一本画画书，逃到无人的山上或葡萄园里去，画一幅日出、日落的绘画，毕竟自己也很久没有机会画画了。就像那一次激怒，买了一个白板发泄，然后把它抹个一干二净。^^

踮起腳尖愛 - 洪佩瑜

[Verse1]
舞鞋　穿了洞　裂了縫　預備迎接一個夢
OK繃　遮住痛　要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐　我要用哪一種
面對他　一百零一分笑容 

[Verse2]
等待　的時空　有點重　重得時針走不動
無影蹤　他始終　不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂　誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊　依然長長的人龍 

[Chorus]
想踮起腳尖找尋愛　遠遠的存在
我來不及　說聲嗨　影子就從人海暈開
才踮起腳尖的期待　只怕被虧待
我勾不著還微笑忍耐
woo~　等你回過頭來　

[Verse3]
哪天　撲了空　折了衷　祈禱終於起作用
一陣風　吹來夢　卻又敗在難溝通
我終於懂　怎麼人們的臉孔
想到愛　寂寞眼眶就轉紅

the past

:')

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gl & hf

being in church doesn't make you holy; not being in church doesn't make you the bad guy.

a dozen

Part of counting your blessings mindset:

My best friend and I have known each other for 12 years.

We just counted it together.. actually she counted it. But wow a dozen of years...

At least that's the happiest thing for today.

Thank you for being there for me on every moment of my life; let it be happy, sad, anger, jealousy, hatred, complaints, love, crush... everything! Even work! And Düsseldorf, Köln, etc. tour!

Happy 12th years of friendship, bff!

:)

The Beauty

其实呢，女人最漂亮的地方是眼神。❤

生活不完美，并不代表它不美。

拥有，就是失去的开始？

让你发光的不是钻石，而是你曾经哭过的眼睛。