Recovery Mode

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
I just came back from a super tired trip. Super tired, but fun. And mom, if you are reading this, I'm alive and kicking and back working so do not worry about me okay ? ♥
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Lately things are in recovery mode:
physical health: recovery mode
personal life: recovery mode
HTC Ace: recovery mode
blogspot: recovery mode
thoughts: recovery mode
finance: recovery mode

I am still working on reconstructing the thoughts that I gained during this SummerAir'11 trip. A lot of things I have learned, and most of them are through the hard ways. A lot of new experiences, a lot of new findouts and of course, I know more about myself.

Despite all these, I couldn't help but to really be amazed by God and His love for me throughout this walk alongside with Him. When it seems like God is somewhere far far away from me, especially when I was in the hole (or holes), it really took me quite a long time to understand the thumb rule of digging: When you are in a hole, stop digging.

Below are some highlights of the thoughts I had during this trip. I will cover them in details when I done in linking the thoughts and ideas together.

1. 感谢主 (Berlin)
2. Desires (Amsterdam)
3. Blame
4. His Timing (Prague)
5. Heart (Paris)
*ignore the parenthesis because it is only for my references.

Until then I sincerely wish that my beloved friends to stop asking me questions regarding this trip. I am still fragile from, as I've said, the hard ways and still and will only deal the issues with God and God only.

ye enough of the introduction and the sad faces. I am actually quite excited to read these future posts as well.

Another thing though: my faithful readers would've known by now that the blog was under construction yesterday. The thing is, I decided to give up on enhancing the blog, mainly because it is time consuming and I don't have good experience nor knowledge regarding xml-editing and thus far all I've been doing was wolf-fencing and trial and error methods and it is really really tiring. Oh maybe I will add another post to explain the meaning of "wolf-fencing". It's a term used mainly in programming world. It is a way to do debugging in code clean up.

Until then, the world still spins, the mind still working, and my work in my company still on-going, although I'm actually kinda sad that I couldn't do my thesis there. And I haven't talk to my boss regarding this change in academic plan yet.

To leak out some darkened thoughts, I would use the parable:
"Humpty dumpty is already sitting pretty on the wall and shouldn't look over those spoiled eggs too seriously that can't even reach above the wall. The moment the humpty hump down and check if the eggs are in fact rotten is the moment humpty becomes a dumpty and loses the touch of faith and fall".

Enough of an advice, eh? But maybe that's why humpty dumpty had a great fall in the story after all. LoL.
and all the king's men, and all the king's horses, couldn't put humpty dumpty together again.

oh and p/s: I will honor my promise.
p/p/s: Pat, I in fact really love to use parables.
p/p/p/s: no no, those weren't misses and tears =P

okay, I'm not emo. Seriously speaking here. =)

Skyscraper - Demi Lovato (Megan Nicole Cover)

[Verse1]
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

[Chorus]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

[Verse2]
As the smoke clears I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet

[Bridge]

Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here

感谢主

感谢主，因为你把我们平安地送回到目的地。
感谢主，因为你在我很需要你的时候及时伸出你那舒服的双手，维护着我。
感谢主，因为你带给我们一个晴朗的天气。
感谢主，因为你让我在困扰、埋怨中学习如何相信你。
感谢主，因为你让我学习如何感恩。
感谢主，因为你我不缺少。
感谢主，因为你让我学习到要以不自私的态度去面对生活。
感谢主，因为你我要更加地相信你。
感谢主，因为你撑着那些会落下的眼泪。
感谢主，因为你教导我去学习放下。
感谢主，因为你教导我去学习依靠你。

感谢主，唯有为你我会勇敢地活下去。

马太福音第6章33节：你们要先求祂的国、和祂的义这些东西都要加给你们了。

阿门。