The lesson learned today is that it is a wisdom to know where to throw your rubbish so that it won't disturb other people.
Talks about life. What a threat.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Wings (updated)
just played badminton today.
I was so weak at first, the coordination and footsteps really off paced. In addition I didn't have proper warm up.
But in the end found back the on-fire me and to be really honest, it felt really great.
Really really great.
I played with the German guy who I always wanted to beat him head-on. But today we only played double. Although I lost both games, but it feltreally great awesome! Of all things, even me myself admire my own awesomeness in badminton. It's like doing things that you like love to do.
I enjoyed those much missed moments a lot. Sigh. I couldn't stop myself to think that I'm actually very talented in badminton. I mean, seriously, I really do like myself. We were leading the game.
My heart was really dancing, when I lost my pace for once when I started to think about my life. I really do want this kind of feeling in my life. I couldn't stop but to think that if every single piece of happenings in my life can be described as a stroke in badminton, it would be great. No, it would be AWESOME.
Life is tough when things aren't going our ways. But sometimes, it is the inner-dilemma that draw away our focus. I realized that I'm actually a good starter but because of the lack of perseverance I accomplished nothing significant. I realized that I'm actually worried a lot, that I couldn't be like a lot people out there, who can just 'put down' their forced destiny (which I don't believe anyway) but to go the path that they like, without even considering the consequences of their actions. Just that, one thing for sure, even their failed in their so-called force duty, but at least they accomplished something else. Don't get my picture? Well, think of Albert Einstein, or Newton - both weren't the top student in class, but both were the core of our physics study nowadays.
I wish sometimes I could be such an ignorance, that I can just like 'screw the exams' and then join a badminton club and play full-time for the club. Seriously, I really thought of this. Just that, I think my parents, relatives, friends etc would just look at me with 'that' kind of look. Which is the core problem of our society - the younger generations aren't guided in the right matter - how many of us weren't taught of the mindset that only a job like engineers and doctors and financial consultants could secure a future. And how many of us were given impression that art-side is only for those so-called 'second grade' students?
Never mind, I guess my mind driven too far away. I'm just thinking that, I don't know how I even to do with my exams, internship, and dealing with people. I mean, seriously, I really lack of that kind of faith, that believe and trust in God that He has His own plans for me; plans that prosper me and not to harm me, plans that give me future. I really do want to be like lots of brothers and sisters out there; those who gave me encouragements and advices. I mean, seriously, I'm lack of that kind of faith.
I just wanna jump and do all those moves in badminton. It really felt good. It really felt superb awesome to know that I actually can match that German guy's standard. On the other end, whenever I think of study, I know you lots have done great with all those achievements and reputations, and I know, I really know, I'm nothing like you lots.
It just... really stressed me out.
I really want to play badminton, THAT MUCH, after all these down feelings.
I know this is a childish post, but seriously, I'm just a human who has thoughts.
Aren't wings supposed to guide one to the destination?
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guess what I got today?
When you are a baby Christian, God gives you a lot of confirming emotions and often answers the most immature, self-centered prayers—so you'll know he exists. But as you grow in faith, he will wean you of these dependencies.
God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two different things. One is a fact; the other is often a feeling. God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion.
Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he's more concerned that you trust him than that you feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God.
The situations that will stretch your faith most will be those times when life falls apart and God is nowhere to be found. This happened to Job. On a single day he lost everything—his family, his business, his health, and everything he owned. Most discouraging—for thirty-seven chapters, God said nothing!
How do you praise God when you don't understand what's happening in your life and God is silent? How do you stay connected in a crisis without communication? How do you keep your eyes on Jesus when they're full of tears? You do what Job did: "Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.'" (Job 1:20-21, NIV)
Tell God exactly how you feel. Pour out your heart to God. Unload every emotion that you're feeling. Job did this when he said, "I can't be quiet! I'm angry and bitter. I have to speak!" (Job 7:11, TEV)
He cried out when God seemed distant: "Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship blessed my house." (Job 29:4, NIV)
God can handle your doubt, anger, fear, grief, confusion, and questions.
I was so weak at first, the coordination and footsteps really off paced. In addition I didn't have proper warm up.
But in the end found back the on-fire me and to be really honest, it felt really great.
Really really great.
I played with the German guy who I always wanted to beat him head-on. But today we only played double. Although I lost both games, but it felt
I enjoyed those much missed moments a lot. Sigh. I couldn't stop myself to think that I'm actually very talented in badminton. I mean, seriously, I really do like myself. We were leading the game.
My heart was really dancing, when I lost my pace for once when I started to think about my life. I really do want this kind of feeling in my life. I couldn't stop but to think that if every single piece of happenings in my life can be described as a stroke in badminton, it would be great. No, it would be AWESOME.
Life is tough when things aren't going our ways. But sometimes, it is the inner-dilemma that draw away our focus. I realized that I'm actually a good starter but because of the lack of perseverance I accomplished nothing significant. I realized that I'm actually worried a lot, that I couldn't be like a lot people out there, who can just 'put down' their forced destiny (which I don't believe anyway) but to go the path that they like, without even considering the consequences of their actions. Just that, one thing for sure, even their failed in their so-called force duty, but at least they accomplished something else. Don't get my picture? Well, think of Albert Einstein, or Newton - both weren't the top student in class, but both were the core of our physics study nowadays.
I wish sometimes I could be such an ignorance, that I can just like 'screw the exams' and then join a badminton club and play full-time for the club. Seriously, I really thought of this. Just that, I think my parents, relatives, friends etc would just look at me with 'that' kind of look. Which is the core problem of our society - the younger generations aren't guided in the right matter - how many of us weren't taught of the mindset that only a job like engineers and doctors and financial consultants could secure a future. And how many of us were given impression that art-side is only for those so-called 'second grade' students?
Never mind, I guess my mind driven too far away. I'm just thinking that, I don't know how I even to do with my exams, internship, and dealing with people. I mean, seriously, I really lack of that kind of faith, that believe and trust in God that He has His own plans for me; plans that prosper me and not to harm me, plans that give me future. I really do want to be like lots of brothers and sisters out there; those who gave me encouragements and advices. I mean, seriously, I'm lack of that kind of faith.
I just wanna jump and do all those moves in badminton. It really felt good. It really felt superb awesome to know that I actually can match that German guy's standard. On the other end, whenever I think of study, I know you lots have done great with all those achievements and reputations, and I know, I really know, I'm nothing like you lots.
It just... really stressed me out.
I really want to play badminton, THAT MUCH, after all these down feelings.
I know this is a childish post, but seriously, I'm just a human who has thoughts.
Aren't wings supposed to guide one to the destination?
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
guess what I got today?
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised. Job 1:20-21 (NIV)
| "God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion." |
God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two different things. One is a fact; the other is often a feeling. God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion.
Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he's more concerned that you trust him than that you feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God.
The situations that will stretch your faith most will be those times when life falls apart and God is nowhere to be found. This happened to Job. On a single day he lost everything—his family, his business, his health, and everything he owned. Most discouraging—for thirty-seven chapters, God said nothing!
How do you praise God when you don't understand what's happening in your life and God is silent? How do you stay connected in a crisis without communication? How do you keep your eyes on Jesus when they're full of tears? You do what Job did: "Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.'" (Job 1:20-21, NIV)
Tell God exactly how you feel. Pour out your heart to God. Unload every emotion that you're feeling. Job did this when he said, "I can't be quiet! I'm angry and bitter. I have to speak!" (Job 7:11, TEV)
He cried out when God seemed distant: "Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship blessed my house." (Job 29:4, NIV)
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
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