When it comes..

The time ticks,
so comes it finally,
when I bid the temporal goodbye to Germany,
back to the land where I came from,
to the soil where the dreams were formed.

To the place where I once smiled, I'll go.
To the place where I once had my biggest laugh, I'll go.
To the place where I once felt joyful, I'll go.
To the place where I once fall, I'll go.
To the place where I first met you, I'll go.
It's just that, it, you and me are not the same anymore.

You are no longer there.
It is no longer present.
I am no longer to see them.

It's a pain to think,
when things just when pass by myself,
when our shoulder slice through each other,
when we once had the same dream,
when we once had the same interest,
when you once told me I'm your best friend ever.
It's also when I really said, I'm honored to have a best and wonderful friend like you.
Jacky, all the best in your future undertakings.

It's also pain to recall,
the sweets I had there,
the pains I had there,
the scars I had there,
the memories I had there,
the roses I had blossomed there,
the seeds I had sown there,
yet, there will be the place where I will go, back.
I want to see them to grow.
I want to forget the impossible-to-happen of the rotting flower petals.

I'm going back. But I know the feeling is no longer as how I felt in the past. I know that most of the people that I met last time is no longer there. I know that it, you and me are no longer the same. I know, in my mind, I start to think of me and myself after I come back to this battlefield.

It's hard, ok. It's hard.

But I know he will always be there for me. I know everything is what he want to learn from. I know I have a great savior in me. I know all I need is faith in him. I know he has made me perfect.

4 slings and 5 stones used by David to defeat the Goliath. I will remember.

But until then, it is a worry after this. I'll not let it bothers me. For I have this faith that God is living in me.

Medication complete, time to strive hard, time to move on, but most importantly, time to say "YES LORD!"

"I am ready to do your purpose for me."


Vincent

p/s: Mixed up, random thoughts.