Lie lie lie

Sometimes you think you had run away with your lies.
Sometimes you think only you and God knows the truth.
Sometimes you think others will just believe your lies.

Most of the times I know it's your excuse.
Most of the times I know you are lying.
Most of the times I just keep silent.

A lot of times I told myself just to believe in you, although it sounds real fake.
A lot of times I told myself that you have your own reasons, although it sounds so unconvincing.
A lot of times I told myself that liars deserve another chance, although it's pointless.
A lot of times I told myself that I shouldn't feel disappointed on you, although the disappointment is heavy.

I don't know how many times should I trust the lies.
I don't know how many times should I act as if nothing happen.
I don't know how many times should I say to myself "it's okay".
I don't know how many times should I smile to myself because of your lies.

Little do you know I'm talking about you.
Little do you know to trust liars is something difficult.
Little do you know to continue like this is pointless.
Little do you know I hate liars.

p/s: No any hidden hints here. The first letter of each chapter forms S-M-A-I-L, sounds SMILE. I want to truly smile to you, can I? To lie means you does not love me him/her as a brother/sister. A sin?

Vincent