It is hard.. to lay out that one step, just to be different. People will regard you as deserter of the troop. And worst come to worst you might have been shot down, like how it was shown in those combat movies.
But still, we need to be tough. We need to stay strong. We need to focus on our goal. We need to move on. We need to carry forth our dreams. After all, those who succeed were the those who had dreams, right?
A not-very-close friend of mine put this quote on her MSN for very very long time : "Settle with the past, engage with the present, believe in the future". It sounded so sweet and nice. The essence behind the quote is the truth of how we should face this challenging world. But I know it is hard to do so. Not when you've put in your whole effort to make it wonderful. To make it your own paradise. To make it the memories that never leak away from you. To make you feel sweet and happy. And most importantly, to make it lasts eternally.
But then I realized, nothing will last forever. The sun will die out, according to the scientists, who managed to come out with evidence that support their theory. The leaves on a tree will fall down eventually, not just only when the fall comes. Human will die someday. Everything will end, someday.
But not this heart.
I don't know why. I just don't. I thought it can die out someday, but seems like so far it can't. Or maybe it won't. I don't know. Why am I have to be so indifferent? They all seem like already letting go. Some even found their new love ones. But why can't I do so? What's the different between me and them? Don't I human too?
I'm so depressed about his. Oh God, if You are not to let me be with her, why can't you give everything an end? Let my soul "rest". Let me get over with this.
But if You mean to have the opposite happens, tell me not to give up. Tell me to continue to stand in the rain, for if the rain goes, it is when the warm sunshine to come.
I need answers.
Sad. It's just a cry from the deepest of my heart. It's pain.
Vincent
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