A little worried about myself:
1. My nose still keep sneezing and running out fluid since I was in Malaysia. Sigh, I wonder what’s wrong with body’s functionalities. It just won’t get healed. Water, vitamins, medications… seems like none of these is doing its work. And just for the record, the amount of tissue I used last month is more than the amount I used in my whole entire life before that. I have to bring a pack of tissue wherever I go and need to get new ones after 2-4 days. Sneezing out all those yucky stuffs mixing with brown-red blood seems normal to me, already. I still remembered 2 years ago I almost freaked out because of that, but now, it doesn’t seem to give me any something-is-not-right feeling anymore.
2. I used to think (and proud) that I have stamina and my regeneration/recovery rate is high so I didn’t worry much about out-doing myself. But I have to think twice now. I’m still somewhat recovering physically from the Cardiff Games that day and get tired easily. So long I didn’t even think about to jog like I used to with Jia Jin at the park, because I know I couldn’t maintain our jogging-tempo anymore. Somehow I feel as if my joints are rebelling against me. I felt tiredness at my knee whenever I climb a 5 storey staircase. I even felt walking sometimes would cause me some pain. The only time I felt great is when I’m playing badminton. Maybe the method is correct, that I won’t feel tired at all.
3. I began to pick back up the procrastination side of myself. I must confess that until now, I still haven’t really planned for cell group in Heilbronn, mainly because I am lazy. And I felt very embarrassed whenever Helen asked me about CG. And in a way I realized how God wants to use me as His tool to draw some people to come to Him, but me myself just not doing it. Last week I went into class without doing Digitaltechnik homework, because I forgot the assignment, but mainly because I pushed it aside when I was free and thought about it. I told my lecturer I forgot to bring, but I felt guilty inside. What a lie. Well, I guess I learned my lesson: Spent whole night doing report for my Labor Technische Optik. The due date is next week, but I don’t dare to procrastinate anymore. =S
4. This semester I seemed to be quite free, or rather, too free. I began to worry that I’ve done too much of pushing subjects to next semester. But at the same time, I worried if things might be too heavy for me. Just like last semester, although the subjects weren’t much, but mostly were heavy. History will not repeat itself, I told myself, and I don’t want to make the same mistakes again. But as contrary, maybe I took too less subjects this time? Sigh. Nevertheless, I’ve decided to go for another subject tomorrow. =3
5. The temporal excitement of myself is still there. Somehow, I need the motivation to finish up whatever I’m doing now. I wanted to learn cooking rom, but until now I’m still stuck at the understanding part. I said I wanted to learn finger-style to play guitar. But until now I couldn’t even play a song. I said I wanted to be champion at Cardiff Game, but I didn’t put in much effort, and it’s like EVERY TIME I play a major competition with competitive atmosphere, I’ll meet the champion-to-be at the very first round. It really de-motivated me a lot can. It’s like, every single time. Why? :( It seriously can make me cry every time I think about it.
6. I became forgetful. I can seriously ask same question twice in like 15 minutes in a conversation. And it’s like exactly the SAME way I asked. I noticed this quite a number of times already. If you’re one of the victim, I’m terribly sorry about that. It’s just that, I don’t know how, but I JUST forget? I still remembered back in Primary school times I used to be very very not-happy with people who forgets stuffs. Guess I’m in the party too =S
Just some rantings, but also some good news to share with you all.
1. I was so happy that day during our programming class in Digitaltechnik. The lecturer just gave us an assignment, and asked us to write the condition table, compile VHDL, create schematic symbols, assign pins and download the data into the chipboard. Basically we had to do all ourselves. And I was the first one in class to finish it =) so so so happy, got praised by lecturer, for once in my whole life. =)
2. Sadly there’ll be no badminton in MASAF in France this year, but there’ll still be RENTAP and it’ll probably host by people in Regensburg, not confirmed yet though. I’m looking forward to it. The competition is not that tight and chances of winning is high. I want to get back the “Europe Champion” title. But that is, of course, will happen if I win Cardiff Games next year. But I’ll make my way to there. ROAR.
3. Finally got chance to go Offenburg after 2 years in Germany. Friends have been inviting me to go but I guess this time is really the chance for me to go and have fun. So yeah! I’m going. So be there.
4. Finished my assembly of Gundam. Love it lots =)
5. The fact is that because of you, I smiled. ;)
2 comments:
I think you should plan and do things timely. AND have enough hours of sleep / rest.
ya. needa reorganize my life. =S
things are pretty out of shape. But thank God i've recovered from my illness, finally.
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