I smile

1 down. And I thank God because I was able to do it correctly.

Today I helped a granny up into the bus. She smiled to me. And I gave her one also as return.

Today is somehow kind of different. Because today is also the day when I try to be cheerful. And it works. In a weird way.

There's this someone, as I was eating in the Mensa, he just came over, look around and gave me a smile and said, 'gute Appetit!' which means, err... 'have a nice meal' or something like that.

I smiled back, of course. It's just that, it's weird.

Light is my heart now.
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Settled nearly 40% of my plans when I'm back in Malaysia. Kind of happy of it. First time I'll be doing something like this... like, traveling the south Peninsula myself. Not really myself, but.. yea you get my point.

Germany --> KL --> Kuching --> Singapore --> Johor Bahru --> Negeri Sembilan --> Shah Alam --> KL --> Kuching --> KL --> Germany --> Cardiff --> Germany, for good.

And hopefully 3 gold medals. =) I still need my double partner. Anyone...?

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Just received my new accommodation contract. I'm moving!!!!!!!!!!! to next entrance. LoL. Need to pay €40 more per month. But it's definitely a chance to form a ministry home, with James, for now. Maybe Billy too. We'll see. But it's definitely a dream that I have since last time Jia Jin and I hunted around to make this dream a reality.

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If only there's always someone who whisper in my ear that, "It's okay. It's okay to cry. Because we are able to," perhaps then I need not to run away and hide. I'm hiding no more, nor I'm running away and blaming. 2010 is the year when I pick up my messes, stop blaming other people, stop avoiding them, and take responsibility of them.

It's my fault alright, but I'm not gonna blame you.

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Maybe those religious leaders in Malaysia can ask themselves, "what are we fighting for?" Maybe they'll understand what my feeling is. Continue to pray for our country.