bis heutige Zusammenfassung

Know where this is?

Most of the times we know what we should do and what we shouldn't. Same case goes for me. But after days of activities, it's time for me to settle down, and reopen this pensive to store some life's journey. Well. It's been quite a long long long long time since I last updated this blog with useful informations, let it be my thoughts, or daily activities. It was soooooo long, that I couldn't recall what was the thing that I last updated.

Heilbronn ice-cream is still the best.

No no, not because I'm getting tired of this blog. No no, it's not because I found something new to spend my time. Arh. Fine, let's go back to the point.

I think I'll just make a summary of what happened from the last time I updated my daily activities until today:

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1. European Leadership Conference (06082009-09092009)

errrrr.

I guess this was one of the 'refreshing' time for me, after all the exams and stuffs. Well. In this conference, I was reminded of how small I am compare to God. I think, I got proud of myself because of last semester. I think getting 1,0 for Mathematics 2 made me proud. I realized I have this ego, and like adding oil to a flame, people around me keep on talking about that so called achievements. Although in between I sensed the sacarsm, maybe resisted the first, second, third times... but in the end, I began to felt proud. As well as being tagged 'Oracle-to-be'. I know that's sorta joke but well, I fell for it. That's when I was in the conference, when Pastor Simon from Malaysia talked about being a leader, and I awaken from my disillusion. I felt like wanting to cry out loud, but the other half of me was laughing at me for being so childish. I held the feelings back in. Anyway, I learned a lot during the conference. And, although it was seriously direct after some humty-dumty-sit-on-the-wall-humty-dumty-had-a-great-fall feeling, I felt lifted up, once again. God is good, all the time.

Photo irrelevant to current topic.

Not to mention the great leaders whom I met throughout the Conference: People from all around Europe and special guests Pastor Simon and his family were also there in Berlin. Still missing his Malaysian-style preaching though. What touched me the most throughout the teaching was the topic 'how leaders fall'. I guessed I bingo-ed all the ingredient to fall. Lessons learned, and I just wish people around will still have the trust and give the chance for me to fix things up. Sigh.

Brandenburger Tor.

Things in between I forgot, the following was last week.

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2. Stuttgart/Heilbronn/Heidelberg/Mannheim/Bochum/Essen Trip

Heidelberg Alte Brücke view

hehe.

KaiChiat from ADFP.

Elo =D

Yea, being scolded for this funny unplanned trip. It's like... On Sunday after church we went for karaoke and because of that it was too late to go back to Heilbronn, so I overnighted at one of my friend's house. Then friends from Mannheim decided to pay me a visit, so after I reached back Heilbronn on Monday, we met up and I brought them around my town (or is it called 'city'?) and then back to my hostel. After some packings I was somehow dragged along with them to Heidelberg to walk around and then continued up to Mannheim. Please refer Google Map. This was where the funny part started. I thought I overnighted at Mannheim then Tuesday could go back, but in the end being invited to join the Mannheimers' journey to the north. So we went to Bochum with ICE using Jian Nong's Chibo ticket. We crashed at Eric's place. Well, I was sooo sure I've seen him before but oh well. Anyway, both he and his wife are great persons, not to mention great cook. Yes, they can cook very well. Professionals. Not just that, we also travelled to Essen, since we've been to Düsseldorf for quite some times already.

So why Essen? Well, as name stated, we went for food. Not just food, but Chinese Dim Sum. The last time I ate was like... VERY long time ago? Anyway, here's the Facebook link, and to tell some people that not only them can show off some nice nice food. Then we went to Ikea, which the funny thing is, my Garmin XT didn't have it on map. Weird. After came back from Essen, we cooked Rendang on the next day. Ok they cooked, not me. And some sour sour along with 水饺. Arhhhhhhh, at the first glance it might be a bad choice to go, but it turned out that I gained some experiences that I didn't expected. Not to mention some bond-building in friendships.

Cuppy cake-cup.

Kai Chiat was here. She came from UK. It was some great time spending with her, after some years didn't see her. LoL. We might met each other again later in Italy, and Yen Zhao, Etong, Jian Nong, Melina too!

Voon Satu Tong.

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3. Karlsruhe

I took the early train from Bochum back to Heilbronn to help my Mentor Jia Jin to shift his stuffs to Karlsruhe. Well, since that day, he's now officially Karlsruher. During the ride (yes he drove) we had our one-to-one plus half session, Daniel Tang as special guest, whom we called and talked during the car-ride. Oh well, he's as emo as ever. Ermm... not emo, but he's like 24/7 picking fights with everyone lol. That day I reached back Heilbronn around 10pm. Tired, exhausted, and marked the record that throughout the 7 days I had not even 6 hours in Heilbronn.

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4. Saturday, Heilbronn

Had a goooooood sleep until 12pm and woke up to start on my preparations for worship session on the next day. Googled some chords and skills and techniques and mp3s for the five worship songs:

1. Open The Eyes Of My Heart

2. Because He Lives

3. So You Would Come

4. Mein Jesus, Mein Retter ( My Jesus, My Saviour)

5. Your Love Makes Me Sing

And around 4pm took train to Stuttgart for the practice. Then we took out the 4th song and added in "The Reason That I Live". Went and overnight at Esslingen again.

5. Sunday, Hoffnung Stuttgart

Sunday went to church. Well, I'm still as nervous as ever, especially I wasn't performing well during the rehersal. But praise God, because I managed to play the guitar without mistakes.

To be honest, that was another confident boost in me. I felt more energitic, more confident in doing my stuffs now. Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.

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On a side note, during the one-to-one session, Jia Jin mentioned that my weakness is to blame on other things but myself. At first I wanted to argue, but then I hold it back, because that would be the proof that I'm blaming on other things again. Yes indeed, without knowing it, I built this bad habit inside of me; whenever something happened not as what I planned or expected, I would blame on other people, other things. Blame on classmates, on comrades, on the ICE train, on bus, on schedule... anything but myself. It was good to be tipped because personally I think this is seriously a dangerous habit. Although I heard lots of times that God let things happen for reasons, only we are the one should be aware enough to pick them up. And I recalled what Stephanie taught me long long time ago, that we are all like the radio receiver, and God is constantly broadcasting His Words and teachings, what He wants us to change, etc etc. The only thing that we are to tune in to His channel. It's pointless if God change his frequency to match our receiver but we change our receiver again and again. In other words, not sensitive enough to God and ignoring what He wants to teach us. Instead of blaming this and that, I was reminded to think back of the things that happened, and think why it happened, how it happened, and what God wants to teach me in the situations.

The question is, how to tune in to God's channel? It's simple because you can check if your receiver matches God's frequency by asking yourself, "how is your relationship with God?" It's another question that really poke my egoness. I found that, I'm not as close as I used to be with God anymore, comparing to last year. Which is why, I want to regain this relationship with God, once again. I don't want to wander away from His presence anymore. I want to live out His way, His Truth and in His Light. I am working on it.

Korean bear... Oh you know why.

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As I rehersed for the song "So You Would Come", I couldn't stop to praise God that He is indeed the mastermind behind everything that happened. Everything was done so you would come. During the house church meeting on last Sunday morning, Stefen asked us to think about our B.C., Cross, and A.D. What does that mean? It means life before knowing God, the journey knowing God, and after accepted the reward - eternal life. As for me, I find that God indeed prepared a lot so I would come to Him. I mentioned before last time, and yes, until now, I still find it amazing how God works. We might be someone successful, or someone at the gate of dying, but come to the Father, though your gift is small... Broken heart, broken lies, He would take them all...

I want to go back to that kind of feeling. After wandering away, I want to come back to God.

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Some song still ringing in my head:

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, Your love makes me sing~

Yes You make me sing~

Lord You make me sing sing sing~

Yes You make me sing~

How You make me sing sing sing sing sing.....

!HALLELUJAH!

Jesus, You are the reason I live woooohoooo o!

Jesus, You are the reason I live.. YEAH!

Jesus, You are the reason I live wooo hoooo o!

Jesus, You are the reason I live....

YEAH!

Sorry too excited. Hope this long post didn't take you too much time to read, and thank you for reading.