Tuesday, June 02, 2009

With Alll I Am

So it was happy, and sad.
Smiling and crying.
Believe but doubt.
clear but blurr.
Success but fail.
Champion but not a semi-finalist.
Friends but foe.
Proud but down.

I don't know. I know I am really fearful when my faith is challenged. I couldn't stop but to cry. I couldn't stop the warm flow across my cheek.

I am...
such a lier.
such a hypocrite.

I don't know. That night I really cried. I couldn't sing it out loud. That verse... "Jesus I believe in You.." It's not that I don't believe in Him. I do, I really really do. But, looking at my life, a year and half old Christian, that night I just couldn't sing out that verse. The way I live my life, it's not showing that I am a Christian.

It's my prayer that one day I can really sing out this song without any guilt.


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[Verse1]
Into Your hand
I commit again
With all I am
For You Lord

You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand
And I'm Yours forever

[Chorus]
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am

[Verse2]
I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Through tears and joy
I'll trust in You

And I will live
In all of Your ways
And Your promises forever

[Bridge]
I will worship
I will worship You forever

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starting now..

Thank you for the church camp.
*drown in tears...

10 comments:

Connie said...

I know which song you're talking about.

Feel like encouraging you. you SHOULD sing this song out without any guilt, in fact, u actually CAN, even now!

The reason is very simple. because it's by Jesus' FINISHED work on the cross, He has justify you. He had saved you by grace and does not require you to be fit for it. You are redeemed by His blood, therefore no works is required to come before Him without guilt. Your righteousness has already been given by Jesus the moment you believe.

Hope this helps ur understanding :)

Connie said...

hope you dun mind. coz it is such a revelation to me :)


u can go listen to a message by Ps. Joseph Prince entitled Holiness through Grace.

http://www.newcreation.org.sg/resources/audio/audiomessage.htm

God bless you, brother, the highly favored one by God Himself :D

Unknown said...

Hey Thanks!

I suppose your name is Connie, my brother's friend and also Annie's sister? Or I got the wrong person?

Thank you for your words of encouragement! And thank you for the link too! I'm hearing it now =)

God bless you too! =D

chailan said...

Jesus has died for us. So, when we accept Christ, His blood has cleaned our sins. We are new in Christ. All we need to do is to read His Word everyday. Believe in Him. Pray to Him. He will guide you. Don't need to feel bad about the past. Talk to Him before you sleep every night. =) That'll be fine!

Connie said...

yea, that's me!

just happened to pop by.

it's GRACE brother! n you have already chosen to believe in that very covenant of Grace :)

Unknown said...

ic... coool! To be honest, I never expect you to be here. But anyway, WELCOME WELCOME! =D

Oh yea, I looked across your profile and mind if I read your blog too? =)

ultimatepichu88@gmail.com

Connie said...

muahaha. sorry bro. right now, it is being privatized. coz it serves as a diary to me more. if i ever open it to public, i let u know?

God bless and hav a great day:)

Unknown said...

Aww... But thank you for all the encouragements =D really appreciated it. Hehe... Come back often haha.

Connie said...

haha i think u shud come back often. i m nearer to home. okiez, till then!

Unknown said...

i mean come back to my blog -,-

lol. anyway, where are you now? lol, perhaps gimme ur email we chat thru msn better? if not this gonna be a threaded chatbox lol.