20070422 The End - A flip in the memorybook untouched

That day, he cried again.

For the girl whom lost by him.

But this time, it's something special.

It's very funny to think how things are going around. When you want something soooo badly, it just won't come. And the irony part of life is that things come when you least expected it. That's what I experienced, just now.

To think that I used to find ways to talk to my ex-girlfriend about things that happened in the past that I think I should've given some explanation, it came always to even more bitterness. But when we all stop hating each other and let time heal both parties, I guess things are much easier after then.

It was a nice chat. A nice conversation. We started by she asking where to buy shuttlecocks.... and I wonder how we came to this topic... but I'm glad that we can talk with honesty and no lie lies in between. Now we knew the off-scene stories of the truths that hid behind those lies scattered on the stage that all of us had heard. Now I knew where things went wrong. And she knew it wasn't because of that girl-same-hometown.

Shh.. I cried for this relationship again. After long long while. But this time, it's not about crying for her, but a handkerchief (just my own metaphor, I don't use that thingy) of tears, for solving the misunderstandings that we had against each other. Something that we hold against each other for such a long, long time. This relationship surely had given me lots of thoughts and grew me up a lot. Now I could see things differently because of the break up. I learned to give and take, not to compromise (dig out to know what that word really means). I knew where I was and I know where I am now and I know where I want to go to. All thanks to her? Yea, I won't deny that fact. All thanks to her. But the real thing is this mastermind behind all these - Our God.

I am happy. We all had grown up. Each had our own lives to live. But what preserve, is the memory of all the things that we've been through. It doesn't matter if it's a happily-ever-after ending or dramatic chaos break up, the essence of every situation is what we should pick up in that period of 1 year 7 months and 4 days ( now go answer my facebook question). It doesn't matter if we kissed passionately in the park or quarreled just for a twisted fact accused by others. It's about the growth and the maturity that we have now through all these circumstances. The fact that we conquered the difficulties in life. Winning or losing, does it really that matters? What matters the most, is the fact that we-went-through-you. The deepest truth that lies inbetween two souls. Do you think you have been 100% true to the one you love? The real meaning of what we called a relationship. The real mature in thinking, in handling stuffs like BGR thingy. I've seen that in lots of people. And I know, I want to be prepared to be like them.

God, is surely amazing in His timing. And always amazed me through the way He move the pieces on the Chessboard. Surprise me again, LORD!

Vincent