Unhealthy lifestyle ='(

Days has passed since the last day I blogged. Basically not because I lazy to blog, but because I was at different places, being inconvenience to blog. I was at my home in Kuching from 26th June to 1st July. Then since then have been staying at my friend’s house. Both places were inconvenience to blog. I don’t want to install my “Sony Ericsson PC Suite” in EVERYONE’s computer. You would not, would you?

So I was mapling almost every time, every night. Waaaa… I slept around 4-5 am everyday. But mapling was fun, at least I can chat with my Multimedia University (MMU) friends. Yea, a lot of them do play Maple. And they are all very high-leveled and very skillful. And I got to know some more new friends. How fun. =D

But when think again, I really had a disorientated life. Everyday was like meaningless. I did not do my wiki stuff, I did not do my English Vocab. Sleep, play Defense of the Ancient (DotA) with brother, hang out with friends, and being 作摆. How boring…

What fun during these times was the time when I was on the airplane. I DID NOT SWITCH OFF MY PHONE DURING THE FLIGHT, both to and return journey. Laugh out loud. No no, the plane did not crash, nothing happen, and I managed to snap some photos of the clouds in the sky. But what fun was I realized that the airplanes take in fuel from their wing. Haha. Do you know that? I bet most of you do not know that.

So life in Kuching has been like that, meaningless. I took airplane (AirAsia again, of course) to Kuala Lumpur (KL) here on 1350 hours on 1st July. I stayed at my friend, Xiang Yu’s house. The next day we went to International Education Centre (INTEC) to “hunt” for juniors to sell off our books. I managed to get one, YAY! I heard there are around 20 people from Green Road Secondary School (GRSS) who got JPA scholarship. But I did not see any familiar face. Hmmm… Weird eh?

The next day we went to Star Hill (Bukit Bintang) to meet our first German lecturer, Vera. I can see she has gotten older, but still with the same characteristics. Those who talked the most with her were Ying Jo and Xiang Yu, but as expected, Vera did have a wide knowledge of everything. Yea, EVERYTHING. She has been teaching in India. It was great to see her. =D She’s going back today if not mistaken, and will miss her too.

What really distorts my personal feeling during these times at KL here is SHE. Yup, she was here, and before this I thought I can live my life without her, but my heart melted when I saw here. She has gone much much prettier, of course. And hotter too. When I first saw her I was like “wow, it’s her!” which made me recall all the sweet memories that we had went through during that 1 year 7 months and 4 days. Felt like crying, but luckily I managed to hold these almost-falling-out tears back. I realized something. Although I did not message her nor talk to her during my time at Kuching, I do miss her, very much. She’s different now. More matured. She walked besides me almost all the time, and I could smell the sweet smells of hers that I missed so much. Hey don’t think I’m crazy, but you will know this when you get along with someone that you care about for sometime. You will know that THAT person is her from the sound of her footsteps, her smell (even without fragrance, TRUE!!), her characteristics, and many many more. I missed the wonderful times that we went through together. If only time can rewind. If I can tell myself not to do THAT mistake on THAT day. Sigh. I can see she has gotten happier and acquired more freedom, obviously reflect how cruel I am last time, to cage her. I don’t know. Maybe I am that bad, after all. She deserves someone better than me, but it is my wish that we can be together forever. Yeap, I wish, that’s all I manage to do now. How sad.

Life has changed a lot since the break up. I still standing there, waiting, with the 6th sense that she’ll come back to me. She said she’ll never turn back to me again. But still, I hoped. I’ll still be here waiting for her. Naïve eh? Haha, maybe. I really loved her so much.

What would you do if you really love someone but she loves no longer you? If only someone can tell me. It’s painful. But still, the word “I love you”, will always be spoken to her. She's going back around this time. Back to her hometown. I'm at my friend's house now. We are so far apart now. Sigh. I missed her ='(

Well, that’s all for now I guess. Tomorrow I'll be heading up to Genting to play. But I have limited wealth on me now. Sigh.

Wishing for a better future and life, I pray.

vincent