Desire

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..

Last night I talked to a friend. A close one. I gave advices, and I pray to God, that what I have said would be the best for people involved.

Gambateh, my dear friend.

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I just came back from my class “Führen vons Team”. We met up with all the freshies, and our assignment for this subject is to guide the freshies to complete their first project in the semester, Konstruktion 1. We seniors were initially divided into 6 groups, and I was quite happy, because I desired to partner with Germans who had done “berufliche Ausbildung”, or job training. At first my desire was granted. My heart jumped with joy.

As I was satisfied with the situation, suddenly the lecturer decided to make another new team, and of 16 seniors I was being unlucky to be chosen as one of the person to be in the new team, partnered with a married German woman, who firstly didn’t do the Ausbildung, secondly quite noisy and thirdly, didn’t go for the briefing on Saturday and lastly, I think I’ll have headache with her. I was like “oh, God!”. My dancing heart skipped and fell. I know it’s my bad to have prejudices against her, but I guess now I have to “live with her style”.

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Speaking of desire, saw at Vorschau (preview) site at o2online.de and saw HTC Desire HD is listed there. I’m actually quite happy and surprised. Just that recent event has made my financial planning a little deviated from my original plan. But God is good, and Google decided to delay the green light for releasing Desire HD until late October. So, hehe, I guess wait JPA scholar enters then I can extend my current phone contract.

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*unrelated: why my ear starts bleeding now?*

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I think, I found out the reason why things that I wish seldom come true. I’m still young compare to other Christians friends that I have, I mean nearly 3 years of faith. But I want to start going into deeper and more mature level of faith. I think at this stage of faith, sayings like “God bless you”, “God loves you” and stuffs aren’t suitable for me anymore. I mean, by God’s grace we all received this Salvation that comes as a gift, and fortunately I have already opened this gift. Second stage after received the gift is to live out a godly life. Not just reading or knowing God’s word, but to live it out. Not just knowing what Jesus have done, but to be like Jesus. Not just knowing to memorize “’for I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’” (Jeremiah 29:11), but to really understand how Jeremiah felt that time and live out “’Then you will come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ declares the LORD, ‘and will bring you back from captivity.” (Jeremiah 29:12-14, bold is mine)

I want to be hunger to know God. I want to understand God’s desire in me, and live my life according to His desire. I want to “seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things (life, body, food) will be given to me as well” (Matthew 6:33, italics is mine).

I have been complaining like Germans about things around me. Even sometimes I complained about God, when things seem unfair to me. But today God really convey an important message to me:

“Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
Psalm 37:4

It’s not about my desire, but the desire given to my heart. I will delight myself in Him.

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Surprise Me, God!

..:: My Story ::..

It was Thursday. We had our usual 15:30h coffee break in between my two blocks of Regelungstechnik 2 (Automatic System Control 2) classes. I bought a paper cup of coffee and we chatted. The topic? It is, again, about studies, and about how Jon claimed that he can beat me. He was joking, of course.

10 minutes plus passed and we got ourselves up. On our way back to our Labor Digitaltechnik, I suddenly remembered that I have, again, forgotten to take out my Mensakarte (mensa debit card) out from the coffee machine. So I ran back to the caféteria, hoping to find it still left inserted in the coffee machine. But I guess a same good thing seldom happens twice, and nothing was seen in the machine. So I asked the caféteria lady. Not only she said she didn’t see it, I got myself extra lecture from her. Well yea, I mean I think I deserve to be lecture because of the mistake, but I wasn’t really in the mood, so I just let her finish her naggings and asked a group of people there who were getting themselves coffee too.
Something told me that my card was taken by of one of them. Of course, who didn’t want a free mensa card with some debit cash in it? But then again, I thank God somehow that I got myself a reality check, that I shouldn’t jump straight into conclusion that they took. And after asking some of them, I went back to my lecture class, feeling extremely down. I was down, and not even Prof. Wölfmüller’s loud voice could bring me back to focus in the class. It was bad bad day. That’s what I thought.
That night, I really couldn’t get myself to sleep. I even tried to play as many games of Solitaire as possible with my phone to get myself to sleep. And somehow, I slept – but for a while. zzz

I was awake then again around 04:30 am. I knew myself that I couldn’t sleep back again, so might as well just start-my-day. I took my Bible from my bed and continue my to-finish-reading-the-Bible-first-round project. I was reading Philippians. But well, I couldn’t really focus. My mind kept on thinking about the card. Not just about losing a card, but also €37 in it. With the deposit it means around €42 gone just like that. So I prayed.

Father God, what do you want me to learn from this? Why it happened? If everything is in Your hands, why is this?

It was a struggle and around 06:15am I turned on my Digsby and found Gloria online. And since I haven’t really thank her yet for making my current candid-but-awesome new Facebook profile picture, I chatted with her. If you know me well enough, I would always tell someone about my problems, and Pat should understand that very well. But anyway, I told Gloria about the story and asked about her opinion of what she thinks God want to convey through the incident.

..:: Her Story ::..

She told me that she had the similar case as well. When she was in New York she accidentally dropped some cash from her pocket and didn’t know where it went. But instead of being like me, complaining sulking whatever, she told herself, that

maybe someone was praying, maybe someone was hungry, or somone really needed a miracle from God, and found the money on the floor..

and she felt better after that. But of course, one should learn from mistake as well. And honestly, that kind of thoughts never come in my mind. God put it in her head.

..:: What I learned ::..

And thus I was given answers of what I asked:

(1) it is not necessarily to be a bad day because of losing a mensa card, (2) and I am being selfish to just thinking only about I-lost-a-mensa-card, (3) when I should learn about giving to others, because someone else might needed that money more than I do, (4) and I should learn to think positively about what happened in my life.

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..:: Her “Surprise me, God” ::..

After that we updated each other about our current lives. And she talked about how she was inspired by a guy on the airplane about doing daily prayer and prayer for “surprise me, God” and God really gave her lots of surprises. Not necessarily the good ones all the time, but there are also bad surprises but with lots of things to learn from them. She gave a testimony about what happened recently, as in her latest surprise that day. And I felt encouraged.

..:: My “Surprise me, God” ::..

And time flew quite fast, it’s already 7 something in the morning. And I packed my stuffs and went school, which in the end found out that the class “Ethic” was cancelled. I was praying (ohhh it’s good to start rely on God no matter what :3 ) “God, how then shall I know when the classes would begin, since I missed the class last week?” And at that moment, I saw my Cameroon friend sitting near to the place where I was sitting. I got up and asked him if he is taking the same class. And thank God he is, and he gave me all the needed information about the class.

..:: Your “Surprise me, God” ::..

God can really surprise people :) And to think of it, chatting with Gloria which led to so much encounters is already a surprise from God Himself, in return of my prayer to hunger for Him more. Now it is your turn. When you wake up in the morning, pray to God to surprise you on that day. And be ready to be surprised by God! And I am soooooooo much blessed to have tons of godly angels around me.

God, You’re awesome!


He who is having a joyful heart,
Vincent :3

Co0kie Home Tab v2.0.0 + .sencity v0.5

It's been a while since I last blogged about my phone, HTC Blackstone. Well, she's been good serving me for almost 2 years. Although she might retire from being my first 'wife' when the new Desire HD rolls in (yes I'm planning to get one), so this might be one of the last moments I would have with her. But anyway, today I'm going to show some new stuffs since the last time I blogged about phone.

But first and foremost, for references, this is the whole-package ROM with everything mentioned cooked it:

Senior Moderator NRGZ28’s Energy BLACKSTONE 21681 Sense2.5 Cookie.2.0 sencity Oct.14.7z

Of course, if you prefer his other version of ROMs, follow this link.

Thanks to the developers at xda-developers, we are, at least I am, exposed to so-called "the biggest thing that could happen to Windows Mobile":

 

1. Co0kie Home Tab v2.0.0 Public Beta

Created by xda senior member Co0kieMonster, athough it's currently still in beta stage, and we are seeing lots of complaints about bugs and errors, but I find it very nice, because to me, it's like combination of both Android and Windows Mobile's user interface (UI). Let the pictures do the talking, shall we?

This is the Main Home of Co0kie Home Tab (CHT). It looks the same like what I posted before because actually I like this alignment. But let’s go further:

 

1.1. Quick Links

Instead of just having Quick Links to have multiple pages in previous CHT where you swipe your screen left or right to access to more Quick Links pages, now we can actually have “Android” feel: Swiping left or right doesn’t give you only Quick Links, but extra (up to 7) pages so that you can put whatever you want. The feeling is exactly like in Android. And moreover, the Quick Links is resizable, which means you can drag the Quick Links  to be real wide or narrow according to your own preference.

 

       

The things that to be added to the Quick Links are also massively increased:

1.2 Softkeys

Co0kie introduced Softkeys function to replace the the old tab slider from HTC Sense. Of course, the old tab slider is still accessible, but with the Softkeys enabled, we can assign a wide range choices of stuffs to be added to the Softkeys. We can even adjust the height of the menus in CHT Editor.

By pressing the middle Softkeys (by default key-assign), we can access to our old tab slider.

1.3. Free Link

Free Links are just like normal Quick Links, just that it is one link-button where you can drag to wherever you want. It is useful if you have different alignment of your layout.

1.4 Music Player

Music Player has also changed since Co0kie 1.8.5 but I want to bring it out here because seriously, I think it is awesome. Now there’s no even the need to have the tab slider around, unless you want to access Settings, which is not something that one would often do.

1.5. Widgets

The widgets are now no longer center-aligned like in previous CHT. Now you can drag it to wherever you want.

1.6. others

There are lots of other functions as well but I am not going to make this post too long. Let’s go to the second change:

 

2. .sencity 0.5 (Beta) Theme

Developed by xda senior member _LeCiel_, it is the best HTC Sense Mod so far. The word “.sencity” comes from “Sense” and “Simplicity”, which, as the name itself, a HTC Sense Theme which focus on both eye-candy and simplicity. And who says both cannot co-exist? =)

   

As you can see from the example, .sencity simplify the UI to as simple but nice as possible. The owner has as of today done with his HTC Sense modification and he is planning to turn this into a big project by changing dialer skins, keyboards, xda-shutdown menus and more coming up. Currently this mod is applicable only to WM devices with WVGA screens, but porting-job has already started for other resolutions.  The only problem so far is that it doesn’t work on stock ROMs. More about this theme can refer to the original thread.

 

Well, I can’t agree anymore, this is the biggest thing that happened to Windows Mobile. Signing out.

 

Vincent

Death...

isn't it scary?

Ein Blink auf dem neuen Semester

New semester...

As much as I wished the fun Summer break will never end, but I guess it's better for me to have a reality check. Just settled my this-semester timetable and although it seems quite free, but a lot of works have to be done at the background.

I really thank God that I got this super deal from the professors. We have to do 3 labs (Laborarbeit) and one "Semester Work" (Semesterarbeit). Technically this should be done in 2 semesters. But I got this offer from two professors, that both of them combine their fields and come out with a project for me to do. I think I'm one of the rare person to have this deal, so really, I give thanks to God.

So far I've nearly done with one of the lab projects, so, yea that's one down, at the beginning of this new semester. I checked everything today, and all I can say is, what I'm seeing is just the surface, for I've heard from seniors how hard the subjects can be.

I know I'm going to be real busy, but somehow I'm enjoying it. Despite once a while looking at the grey sky and being emotionally affect by a little, I began to enjoy all these times as I'm approaching to the end of my bachelor studies here, mainly because I'm almost done with books and theories, and now practical steps, which is something I love.

I pray everyday to God, that He will give me the strength that I need to carry through the days. I pray that He will keep me motivated, even when facing hard times like writing reports, debugging and stuffs. I pray that He will keep me within Him, just like how I keep Him within me through daily devotions and quiet time. I pray that He will hear me, and help me whenever I feel weak.

I think things are quite clear for me now: Where I want to go, how I want to go, what I want to hold on to, what I choose to let go let God, what I should keep, how I should guard my heart. But the main problem I have about myself is that I doubt the things I've set my determinations. Maybe that's why I couldn't focus on doing things right. Maybe I need a little wild in heart. Maybe I need to be a little firm and cruel.

I'm doubting again. But yea, keep me in prayers :)

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars (Jayesslee Cover)

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars (Jayesslee Cover)

[Verse1]
Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

[Verse2]
Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

[Chorus]
When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

[Verse3]
Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

[Verse4]
Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

[Ref]
The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Hehe. Isn't this song nice?