The world we to choose

I felt guilty. =S

we are the first generation forced to find a balance between letting technology improve our lives, or risk allowing it to dominate us. Whatever you choose, remember, in this game, you only get one life,

Busy busy busy busy busy

After some complaints by my brother, I decided to give Blogspot's Template Designer another try. The last time I tried and it wasn't so appealing like my previous designs, despite the control over the flexibility of the blog is easier. But it's not that I know zero about HTML-codes so oh well.

But this time I decided to give it another go, and well, you can rate it yourself, and don't forget to leave some comments on it. I'll find some day to improvise the layout but I've already officially ended my summer break.

Yesterday went to find 2 of my professors to discuss about the possibilities to start my "Laborarbeit" and "Semesterarbeit". Okay sorry if you don't understand those two terms and I don't really know how to translate them into english, but I guess the nearest words are "laboratory projects" and "Semester project"? It's not one-to-one translation though.

The discussion went great: We discussed about the possibilities of still getting an internship, and about the projects. Both professors had agreed to joint and supervise me, covering 2/3 (still undecided) Laborarbeit and my Semesterarbeit into one big project. So far I have only given the Semesterarbeit, which is about converting analogue voltage into digital and display on BASYS-Board and then convert back to analogue voltage and then as input for an automatic control system.

So my Semesterarbeit is the conversion parts;

Laborarbeit Digitaltechnik is the display on BASYS-Board;

and Laborarbeit Regelungstechnik, and possibly Laborarbeit Antriebe, is the automatic control system.

It means there'll be tons of works starting from today, not to mention some other new subjects that I have to take in this coming semester, but working with those two deep-experienced professors just make me smile :) 

Busy weeks ahead, or I should say busy semester ahead, but actually I'm quite looking forward to it. Mixing with smart/genius people just make me feel smarter/ more genius. 

Until then~ Oh, I'll upload some pictures (finally) of my Feldberg, Titisee in Freiburg trip soon. If you can't wait, go to my Facebook photos and view it yourself :)

Starcraft II best replay

因为时间可以冲淡一切。


不过，开心是由自己创建。

星际大战 II 焦点：TTOne vs. MasterAsia














慢慢观赏吧！

updates~

"You have changed!"

A line I heard from a deary friend.

It made me wonder though,

The sort of changes I have made,

Both actively and passively.

A stream of thoughts flooded me,

A little panic, a little worried,

"Am I... am I...?"

A little shower cleared the mist.

It's not because I do not see you as a friend,

but I no longer see you as a must-be-head-down-with-respect older people;

It's not because I see you all not competitive against me,

but I realize what I should be competing against/with;

It's not because I am egoistic,

but because I want to boost my confidence in doing stuffs;

But then again, I realized that life needs a purpose, a goal, a direction,

Chinese wise said that " 言必信，行必果 ", which means, words must be trust-able, act must be determined.

And I lack of that determination. Drastic changes might come along, but I want this determination; determination to do things, and persevere on whatever choices I have made. I have been always having the thoughts 'what if...', like;

"what if one day I were to find a better job?"

"what if I didn't get accepted for this scholarship?"

"what if I didn't break up with her?"

"what if I God wants to do something greater in me?"

"what if I gone into learning music, my talents would be in better use than studying engineering?"

But in the end, I find that I can start doing something, I can start up a hobby, an interest, a plan, or anything, I can do it well at the beginning, or having the so called beginners' luck. But in the end, after listed down of those that I've done, I find that I like things to have good start, good kick off. Else I would just restart the whole thing if can. And thus I'll be having a great beginning, but as things getting more complicated, and my luck starts to dry out, I would just give up and leaving things undone.

Because I lack the determination to push on. I'm still not knowing how to pump in the ignition fuel, but I want to find out the ingredients that will season my life with tastes.

Just some random update of my brain.

updates

well, it has been quiet for quite some times here.

Target for this new coming quarter:
1. cut down interests
2. sell away all the unnecessary
3. concentrate on studies, reduce hobbies to hobby
4. find a job.

Argh. Far-fetch'ed ain't unreachable. Have been telling myself that.

Talents vs. non-talents.

smart vs. stupid.

Yet, still finding. Still searching. It can't be. It must be.

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Have been talking to friends and they all are coming to Europe for visits. Hope to see those faces again. It has been long time since we all last met. I wonder how everyone has changed?

The rubbish bin and I

The lesson learned today is that it is a wisdom to know where to throw your rubbish so that it won't disturb other people.

Talks about life. What a threat.

Wings (updated)

just played badminton today.

I was so weak at first, the coordination and footsteps really off paced. In addition I didn't have proper warm up.

But in the end found back the on-fire me and to be really honest, it felt really great.

Really really great.

I played with the German guy who I always wanted to beat him head-on. But today we only played double. Although I lost both games, but it felt really great awesome! Of all things, even me myself admire my own awesomeness in badminton. It's like doing things that you like love to do.

I enjoyed those much missed moments a lot. Sigh. I couldn't stop myself to think that I'm actually very talented in badminton. I mean, seriously, I really do like myself. We were leading the game.

My heart was really dancing, when I lost my pace for once when I started to think about my life. I really do want this kind of feeling in my life. I couldn't stop but to think that if every single piece of happenings in my life can be described as a stroke in badminton, it would be great. No, it would be AWESOME.

Life is tough when things aren't going our ways. But sometimes, it is the inner-dilemma that draw away our focus. I realized that I'm actually a good starter but because of the lack of perseverance I accomplished nothing significant. I realized that I'm actually worried a lot, that I couldn't be like a lot people out there, who can just 'put down' their forced destiny (which I don't believe anyway) but to go the path that they like, without even considering the consequences of their actions. Just that, one thing for sure, even their failed in their so-called force duty, but at least they accomplished something else. Don't get my picture? Well, think of Albert Einstein, or Newton - both weren't the top student in class, but both were the core of our physics study nowadays.

I wish sometimes I could be such an ignorance, that I can just like 'screw the exams' and then join a badminton club and play full-time for the club. Seriously, I really thought of this. Just that, I think my parents, relatives, friends etc would just look at me with 'that' kind of look. Which is the core problem of our society - the younger generations aren't guided in the right matter - how many of us weren't taught of the mindset that only a job like engineers and doctors and financial consultants could secure a future. And how many of us were given impression that art-side is only for those so-called 'second grade' students?

Never mind, I guess my mind driven too far away. I'm just thinking that, I don't know how I even to do with my exams, internship, and dealing with people. I mean, seriously, I really lack of that kind of faith, that believe and trust in God that He has His own plans for me; plans that prosper me and not to harm me, plans that give me future. I really do want to be like lots of brothers and sisters out there; those who gave me encouragements and advices. I mean, seriously, I'm lack of that kind of faith.

I just wanna jump and do all those moves in badminton. It really felt good. It really felt superb awesome to know that I actually can match that German guy's standard. On the other end, whenever I think of study, I know you lots have done great with all those achievements and reputations, and I know, I really know, I'm nothing like you lots.

It just... really stressed me out.

I really want to play badminton, THAT MUCH, after all these down feelings.

I know this is a childish post, but seriously, I'm just a human who has thoughts.

Aren't wings supposed to guide one to the destination?



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guess what I got today?

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Faith, not feelings, pleases God
by Rick Warren

Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised. Job 1:20-21 (NIV)

"God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion."

When you are a baby Christian, God gives you a lot of confirming emotions and often answers the most immature, self-centered prayers—so you'll know he exists. But as you grow in faith, he will wean you of these dependencies.

God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two different things. One is a fact; the other is often a feeling. God is always present, even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion.

Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he's more concerned that you trust him than that you feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God.

The situations that will stretch your faith most will be those times when life falls apart and God is nowhere to be found. This happened to Job. On a single day he lost everything—his family, his business, his health, and everything he owned. Most discouraging—for thirty-seven chapters, God said nothing!

How do you praise God when you don't understand what's happening in your life and God is silent? How do you stay connected in a crisis without communication? How do you keep your eyes on Jesus when they're full of tears? You do what Job did: "Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: 'Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.'" (Job 1:20-21, NIV)

Tell God exactly how you feel. Pour out your heart to God. Unload every emotion that you're feeling. Job did this when he said, "I can't be quiet! I'm angry and bitter. I have to speak!" (Job 7:11, TEV)

He cried out when God seemed distant: "Oh, for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship blessed my house." (Job 29:4, NIV)

God can handle your doubt, anger, fear, grief, confusion, and questions.