The last drop of tear

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Wow, Blogspot can post movie clips already. how fun, but sadly, I don't have a camera nor something similar. Haha... Saving money... So someday someday...

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Today will be the last day I shed my tears about my life.
Today will be the last day I ever look down on myself.
Today will be the last day I let my opportunities in everything walk past me.
Today will be the last day I ever tangle up myself.
Today will be the last day I screw my life.

Tomorrow will be the first day I have a proper and well-planned life.
Tomorrow will be the first day I manage my expends carefully and neatly.
Tomorrow will be the first day I will smile to my new life.
Tomorrow will be the first day I will draw out my life.
Tomorrow will be the first day that my blog ever mention about my sadness.

Actually I'm so sicked about my blog, everyday mentioning about sad stories and about my break up, after so many months. Yes, I'm still sad over it, but then I realized that if I keep on staying in this situation, nothing will be better. She'll not coming back for me, if I don't change to attract her, right?

XXX says (8:32 PM):
get over it la
if u keep on like this she'll hate u more
and im on her side this time
XXX says (8:33 PM):
u r annoying and u r stalking
i definitely resent that
and i will loathe seeing u
~~(*) *+γÏηÇξאţ+* (*)~~™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (8:33 PM):
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XXX (8:33 PM):
just let god decide lo
dun force her
XXX says (8:36 PM):
a hopeless guy whos too in love and dont the courage the let go and the only matters to him is love love and love
i know her
she never likes guys like u
with no ambition and only wans love
XXX says (8:37 PM):
these r useless and lame guys no girls would wan
XXX says (8:38 PM):
prove to her that u r worthy of her attention instead of wallowing in self pity
u must try
stop discouraging urself
sigh...im deprived energy to console u la
up to u la

I chatted with one of my friend. I told her about my stuffs, my feelings, my thoughts. This is the respond she gave me. Sour and bitter right? But that's the essence. I really need to learn from what people said about me. Not all, of course, but at least inhale some useful comments. I need to learn. I have lots of space to grow up. And seriously, I CAN'T STAY AT MY CURRENT SITUATION FOREVER.

XXX says (9:39 PM):
ur only prob is ur love life

And seriously I need to put it aside. I cannot afford myself to keep on drowning in love life. I've been living in a life where I spot for cute girls and claiming that I like them but i never ask to for them. It's sounded more like horny right? I need to stop this.

Well tomorrow, the beginning of the new chapter of my life. I'll let You to decide the path of my love life. But as for my future, I'll do it myself. I will do hard for the DSH exam.

Speaking of which, I only have a week's class before my DSH exam comes. Nervous of course. My last part of the ticket to Germany. Must do well.

Guys, pray for me. Tell me more about myself. Comments welcomed =)



vincent

Updates...

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错过，有时候也不是一件不好的事，
错过了的树叶，落在泥土上，自然会变成肥料，
错过了的果子，落在泥土上，自然会长成一棵会开花结果的树，

有时候因为错过，我们才懂得去珍惜，
有时候因为错过，我们才能得到某些东西，
最重要的是，我们应该从错过中吸取教训，
将来才不会再错过好的东西。

所以，千万别因为错过而感到永远的伤心与悲哀。

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Today I bought some white gauze swabs, yellow lotion and surgical tape from Guardian to treat my wounds on my knee. My wounds are getting better already, but just that some pale yellow gross liquid will form at the surface of the wounds. I think that's what the biology students called "plasma" or something. I have not study anything to do with biology since SPM. And I could not recall that I studied anything about it in the past. I'm such a person whose brain is one of the worst in this world. Haha.

Anyway, haven't heard anything from the coach about the match. I'm very sure now that we're out from the group. We might be the last in our group. Sad sad. This year actually is another perfect year to win SAF, since all the good good players all went to don't-know-where. Maybe they graduated. Especially Najib from Fakulti Sains Sukan. I was hoping to see him this year. Guess I don't even have the chance to go to main campus to see other great players playing, such as Tong (or Tom, I don't know) and another guy whose name I don't know. Sad. Well, it's my last year to play for INTEC. I hope INTEC someday will have players who are much much better than me. And I hope the next SAF will not be held during our break. NO BODY CAN PLAY, EVERYONE WANTS TO GO BACK. Sigh.

Come to think about my life again, the 3rd part of my ticket to Germany is coming: My DSH German Exam is not very far from now, and yet my essays are still fulled of red inks, almost everywhere. Gosh! Must work harder and harder and harder!


vincent

A fall in life, a sadness in heart

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Hmmph, what's with the feeling again? Sigh.. ▄█▀ █▬█ █ ▀█▀!!

我的情况又属于落潮了。。。。。。。。。。。

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Hahaha... just some update about myself.


So today (Monday, sorry, it's already 12am) I suppose to go for badminton competition to make INTEC qualify into the knock-out stage. But sadly, all the players (except me and Tee Tat) went back to hometown so after the coach scratched his head and pulled out his hairs, he decided to forfeit the match. Meaning, we're something like being "walked-over" (badminton language). So sad, especially when it is the last time that I'll play for INTEC. And I'm sure they won't give me a certificate for being one of the best players in INTEC. Kidding. Nah, I'm not hoping for that. What for? It's not that it is equivalent for another 1 point for my A-Level result. Haha. Lame.

Sigh, so Lin Dan won the Championship. Good for him. Just did not feel easy with his pose in the Star after he won the match. And it makes me think of that that day when I defeated the guy from Fakulti Undang-undang, I did the same ( ok, similar =.=) pose and I think their fans were not really happy with me. I think only, don't know the truth.

MAYBE I REALLY DON'T LOOK LIKE A PROFESSIONAL PLAYER.

Sigh. Maybe someday I'll be shot death just like that young MCA youth leader. Just that I'm not driving a Mercedes (in future, maybe got =D) and I don't even have a girlfriend (not to mention a wife??!) to go out and have breakfast.

Never mind. Skip that stupid imagination. Yesterday I was so excited to play football and guess what? I fell down and had a slice of skin out from my knee. If not mistaken I think I "drifted" a bit after I fell. It looks like only minor scratches, but mind you, it's really pain in the leg when I'm taking shower after that.

And after I came out from the bathroom I felt like my left leg was paralyzed. So the next day in school I was like limping the whole way and yes I know, lot's of people giving me that kind of look. =.=¨

Tadaa~ This is how it looks like..

And then after school we went to gym again. And my ex urged me to go to the office to get treated. We found ourselves a first-aid kit and she started to "play" with the stuffs in it on my leg. She commanded me to sit down and stop moving around. As she was treating me I can't help myself from staring on her, thinking back of all the memories. But yes I know, I understand the difference in our status so I did not say much except " Your future boyfriend must be very fortunated".

In that moment I tested the sensation of the mixture of sweet and sour. She insisted that she treated me because she want to play will the tools in the kit. I don't know what to say nor to think. I scared if I take another step towards her she might flee off from my sight from that instant. Sad.

She was not from St. John nor Red Cresent, but her techniques was not bad at all. I just like the look on her face when she's seriously handling a task. One of thousand reasons why I loved and still love her. And my friends said for that I'm crazy. *rolling eyes* maybe I am...

I AM!

My hope to see INTEC went into knock-out stage shattered. My wish to play a proper badminton match before I leave Malaysia remained unfulfilled. I'm sad. I just hope my injured knee will recover soon. It's really hard to be mobile =.=¨



vincent

PROTON-BWF World Championships 2007

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Sigh.. I'm so frustrated about Monday's match. Everyone already went back. Who'll play for INTEC on Monday? Sigh... =.=!


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Talking about badminton, it's so sad to see Malaysia players all fell down. The PROTON-BWF World Championships 2007 is surely shocking. Taufik Hidayat was silenced by India's Anup Sridhar, who later beat Hafiz. Peter Gade, Chong Wei were beaten by Sony. What the heck man?! See the score between Chong Wei and Sony.

21-7, 21-11

Explanation? At first he blamed the coach for pressuring him, later took back the comment and blame back himself. What I don't understand is that, why 7 and 11?? Maybe he's helping 7-11 to do advertisement. Heck!? Never mind. Maybe this will give him a good lesson.

Speaking about double, Kean Kiet- Boon Heong failed to show that they're on-form. Sigh. There's still plenty of room for both of them to improve, but still, they better train hard. Tan Fook-Wan Wah, I guess they did their best. 20-22, 26-28. They really fought to win.

Women single I like Mew Choo. She's the one that have been doing well, among all the Malaysian players. She beat Xie Xing Fang!! Don't play play! Xin Fang is world 2nd seeded. I hope Mew Choo can keep up with her outstanding performance.

Sigh... Mixed doubles. Actually I was expecting something from Malaysia, but sigh..

For those of you who're interested to know the scoreline, you can check here (Thanks to Boon for giving me this link!)

Mens Singles
Womens Singles
Mens Doubles
Womens Doubles
Mixed Doubles

Seriously, Malaysian players need to train harder in order to win the next tournament.



Vincent

2nd of 3 parts to Germany + SAF 2007 (part 2)

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Yu Sian, sorry ya! Haha... But that day you were kind of surprise that I got C for my English. Haha... Okie okie. Sorry, don't angry me!

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~SAF 2007~
Yesterday I got badminton competition too. Yes, at main campus. For SAF competition. Well, yesterday was a great moment for me, and I'm sure all the other players too. We glorified INTEC's name. Yeah!

So, our 1st single, Zulfadli from A-Level Medic (ALM) won his single game against Fakulti Undang-undang (FUU)'s 1st single. Well, I was so scared that he might lose to opponent, since he was making quite a number of mistakes and he looked so panicked. But luckily he won, which allowed INTEC to draw our First Blood.

Next, double pair Zhang Ve (Korean Program) and Tee Tat (ALM) played against them in a breath-taking match. I'm sure it was a great moment for them. The opponents were strong and they two never partnered before. And they were so panicked. All we could do was to cheer them and "planted" the will to win in them. And they chased back the score from the edge of losing, and won by 30-29. Sweat sweat sweat!

Next came my turn. If not mistaken I played against their top-seeded. Wow! At first I was kind of nervous, you know, playing with someone that you never see before. Haha... Anyway, after 6 points I started to settle into the game and played on-form. I don't know what happened, it's like, I suddenly can do skills and own the speed that I never had before. I managed to do some faking. So fun. And after a serious game, I won. It was significant because with this victory, INTEC won against FUU. YES! And it felt great.

So finally we claimed our first overall victory. Yea! Next game will be on Monday. Sad sad... Everyone will be on holiday and I don't know who will play for the game next week. Pray hard for me!

~A-Level Result~
OMG! OMG! Yes, today result came out and I got pity pity 14/15. My friends back in Kuching and some other juniors congratulated me, saying that it was very very good. But deep in my heart, I felt sour, if they know how easy it is to get 15/15. Sad sad.

Very sad...

And guess what? I just short of 6 marks for Chemistry to get an "A". Argghhh... Well, but what to do? A fact is a fact, just that I'm not happy over it. My gang here all got 15/15, except me.

Why is it always like this?! Why I always short of a tiny little bit to be perfect? Sigh.. I don't know. From UPSR, PMR, SPM, and now A-Level, all were like nearly perfect. Sob sob...

What to do? What to do?

Haha, I still remember this quote from Mr. Ang back in Kuching during our Add-math classes. It is as if his "registered quote" or something like that. Haha...

Well, 14/15, I cannot go Esslingen, most probably. Sad sad... Now it's time to choose the Fachhochschule that I want to go. Which should I choose?

It' sad... What the heck with B for Chemistry? Err... 480/600 to get "A"

vincent

SAF 2007 part 1

SAF SAF!!

Last night I went to Kompleks Sukan Delima at Main Campus to play Sukan Antara Fakulti (SAF) 2007. Wow... I really missed those times since my first visit. They were surely unforgettable moments. Hahah...


This year we're not in luck in our group. We got FSSR team in our group, and it was a huge "road-block" to qualify ourselves to play in the knock-out stage. T,T Compare to last and last last time, this year is the worst. Haha... but luckily we still got better players compare to last year..

Last night we played against the great FSSR where there's a UiTM seeded ( is "seeded" spelled like this? ) player with nickname "Tong" STILL in their team. Woosh... He played the 1st single and Fadli (the ALM senior, I forgot what name already =P) from our team played against him. And he lost terribly, of course. Haha... But actually I thought he can win that Tong, since both of them have the same playing style. But, haih... never mind. I knew he tried for his best already. =D

As for me, I won my match. It was so scary, since most of the staffs (I knew them all~) watching at my game. Haha... At first I was quite nervous and could not play well. But after 15 points I got back my nerve and courage and played well. I won splendidly. 30-18 if not mistaken. Yay!

But sad thing, both of INTEC's double also lost. Overall only me and Jacky won our match. I'm quite disappointed with the result, since all of our players nearly win their game. Sad sad... But I don't blame them, since they did not play many matches compare to me and Jacky so maybe they're nervous about it. But I do respect all of them, they've tried their very best and they're all worthy of a praise.

Tonight we'll have another game. A game that we must win in order to qualify for the Knock-out Stage. I'll do my best. And I believe my comrades will do their best too! Pray for me, pray for INTEC.

And pray for my A-Level result tomorrow. Haha... I'm starting to get nervous about it. I'm wondering what kind of result I will get. God knows. =)


Gambatteh, Qi Hao!




vincent

Secret 不能说的秘密

Heiya~! Just finished watching Jay Chou (周杰伦)'s Secret, 不能说的秘密. I thought it would be like last time when he filmed Initial D, where everyone said Jay acted very lousy and low quality. I thought this time he's like that again - Always keep his mouth as small as possible.

But this time different.

He speak a lot and his mouth opened much bigger compare to the Initial D.

Storyline... It's about a girl who somehow traveled further 20 years. Everyone cannot see her except Jay (The character that Jay Chou plays also called Jay). They fell in love with each other. Basically is something like that. But if you want to know the whole story, I suggest you go watch the movie. This time is worth to watch, especially those scenes when he plays piano. I enjoy the music more than the story line. LoL.

Err.. Overall I give this movie 7.5/10. The 2.5 deduction is because of the following reasons:
1. The storyline is kind of immature. You'll feel like you're watching shows like the stupid Meteor Garden (流星花园), where those F4 people filmed the show.

2. Not very logical and some part of the movie I still don't understand. Need to watch it again.


Guessed that's all. But I can't give comment about the sounds and effect stuffs. I downloaded from internet (illegally) so it's sort of like pirate recording inside the cinema. Yes, the CAM thingy. So I'll wait till the DvdRip comes out.

Will go to Cinema to watch if got time. =D Not like the Initial D. I watched just to see they drift, although nothing much compare to Too Fast Too Furious: Tokyo Drift. Haha...

Surprise is that Jay Chou himself is the director of the movie. His first time if not mistaken. Anyway, 加油 Jay Chou! New album when will come out? Haha... Can't wait. Can I find it in Germany? LoL.



Vincent