Slow keyboard response?

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Need to say sorry to a lot people. I suppose to come online to help you all and also to discuss about some matters/ trips... 

But my internet down. Whole (hostel) building down. So won't be online-ing often. See me around, do leave me a chat. =)

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So here it goes. Had been frustrated for.... Ermm, 5-6 days about slow response of my laptop keyboard. Tried reinstalling keyboard drivers, even tried REFORMAT laptop... (!@#!$#@$!)

But after digging in internet for hours, problem solved!

Just recalled I'm stupid not to look in the web.

So here's the solution for those who are facing this problem.

This only applies to those who are using Dell's products.

And it's very VERY simple:

Go "Start" --> "Programs" (or alternatively if you're using Windows Vista, just use the "search") --> MediaDirect

Inside MediaDirect, go to "Instant Office" under "Settings" and disable this function. You won't need it anyway. As if anyone will press the "MediaDirect" button in the first place.

And just a step, keyboard functions as normal. Horray~

Though, I still can't believe that DELL really comes out with this "bug". Problem was there since last year, as far from what I recall from blogs, websites in internet.

And oh yea, the response speed is directly proportional to the number of contacts stored in your "Contacts" folder in {user} folder. Since I backed up my phone's contacts there, so.. Haha... SWT!

=.="""

Dell Dell, fix this. 

ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... ( So happy to type this without suffering delays)

Evolution or change?

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..
Tensioned a whole night just for a lab report. But oh well, I'm working hard on it. That's part of life, I guess.

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Human... they changed, don't they?

Principles of someone will change according to various situations.
Giving up what we now holding on is indeed very much easier than struggling to grip on an ideal, a principle.
However, what is it that we get by giving up those principles, promises?
Is that what we want by just blindly following what others did?

Promises can be spoken lightly. Principles can be left uncarried.But doing it defines who you really are. Everyone can make promises, but whether it's a whole-hearted promise or false one, it depends on how you keep on it. The weight can be from a very small issue, say revising studies every night, to keeping yourself away from drugs, alcohols..., in bigger-scale and world-context not to invade other countries through lies and confusions for your own benefits.

Human changed, haven't they?

No. Those posts that I promised, I will fulfill them.

No. The bet between you and me, I will fulfill it.

No. The promise I made to You, I will fulfill it.

No. It won't be just a word 'talk'.

Human beings are weak. I am weak. You are weak. He is. She is. They are. However, will, or determination is one of the elements that defines a strong person, not forgetting the works of the One sitting high above of course =)

Are you holding on, or have you thinking to give up?
Is your principle changed because of surroundings, or are you keeping it?
Are you just following people around you, or have you yourself your own unique thoughts of something?

One ever wrote to me, winner of a race is not determined by how fast one can run, but the perseverance that one has.

Gambateh neh, Qi Hao.

And no, I will not giving in. Nor will I giving up.

What about you?

Sigh. Human... they changed...

p/s: I should rejoice more, eh?

Welche Richtung?

ARRRHHHH... stucked between two directions.

Which way to go?

Welche RICHTUNG?!

sobs.

In grip of His Grace and Rejoice

Tears flowed down from me again. And I guess it might be for you all as well.

But it's okie. It's okie to cry, because we are able to cry.

A small request from me: I would like to have 2 hours from your clock for this - And believe me, it's worth it:

http://www.cgntv.net/cgn_player/player.htm?pid=224&bit=high&vno=333

Thank you, Chelle, for the link.

Vincent

I blame you for not visiting my blog >.<

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..

Don't tempt me...

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Well, basically don't really know what to update. It's just that a lot of things crossed my mind. Well, I'll just pick out some to share.

I learned something new. This was not the exact conversation, but I'll just summarize:

It was a beautiful sunday we were talking about reading books. So Daniel said he so far still prefer fiction than non-fiction. Jia Jin agreed that people normally like fictions because they are easier to read. So I said, I prefer non-fiction than fiction. So that was the first part.

Then the following Tuesday when I had my one-to-one session with Jia Jin, we somehow talked about choosing words and expressing views.

We all know that words are powerful: They can make someone feels comfortable with you, or they can be at the other extend: Hurting someone, for simple example, lying. But on the other side, telling truth might also hurting someone. But we'll just skip this part for this time.

What I don't know is that words have their own "condition". Refering to the statement "I like non-fiction than fiction", the assumption or condition here is that "I already read a lot of books" which in the truth, no, I did not read a lot. So how could I say I prefer non-fiction than fiction when I don't read a lot? So stating a statement is not simple as I think. No wonder a lot people often think a lot before they speak. No wonder don't-know-which-old-man ever said "一言既出，驷马难追". It emphasize the importance of thinking clearly before saying something.

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Another thing is about blames. Jia Jin asked me to look into my past to find what's wrong and why it happened, and how to deal with it. So I looked into my past and I found lots of blames for something bad to happen in my life:

Real life story: I remembered last time when I was entered secondary school, everything was kind of like stun bolts for me. I was placed in the best class and got the chances to get to know all sorts of smart students. Or rather put it, the geniuses. Well, the first semester was done and I had real bad results. Parents placed pressures on me about the academic achievement. I should give explanation. And I blamed a lot of sides: Classmates for being too smart; teachers for not being good to teach (well, it somehow true, but..); badminton that consumed my time (well, this certainly was a good excuse that time) etc etc. So, I dropped from badminton team, saying to myself that THAT caused me not to get good results in studies. 

What I think now: Thinking back, it was indeed a stupid noob decision. Yes, badminton no-doubt consumed my time a lot. But those were the night-times. What about the day? Thinking back again, part of my time was spent on sleeping. Yes, sleep until 10am in the morning (when I was in afternoon session) contributed a lot. Say I wake up on 8am, I could have studied and done my homeworks. Secondly, 10.30am I was already in school, while my class started only at 1pm. Why so early to school? Because I went to cybercafe for, ummm, a lot: Warcraft III, Starcraft, Counter-Strike, Red Alert 2, Diablo 2, and the list went on. Oh by the way, those "era" were the time when my nickname "ultimatepichu" was formed, in case you wondered. So, the time went to those games instead of study. I admit I have a token of "talent" in games, some of you might know that. In fact, my brother and I have this "gift". But the question is, how far can this "gift" brings us? The highest and furthest end is only the World Cyber Games champion, to boast it bigger. But quatsch. A question from my mentor, "will a girl marry to a guy who is only a gamer?" Not to say gamers are bad job, but, how many can be successful? Say WCG champion, one on the earth. So it's either hero or panda (英雄或狗熊). And I guess about the relative probability part, we can just skip it - everyone knows it.

So, I did as if a hero, giving up badminton for so-called study. It was merely an excuse. In the end, the act did not help my academic result to be better. So, find something else to blame on?

Everything bad has something to blame on. And to be honest, I ever blamed family, friends, badminton partners, studies, teachers, lecturers (oh no, those Chemistry lecturers from 1st, 2nd, semester in Shah Alam came to my mind)... A lot. I blamed him for his one and only best explanation of world of Chemistry: "this is the nature of Chemistry", or her ( the 2nd semester lecturer) for being the script reader, or badminton coach for being one-sided-pampering-other people, or parents for being demanding, or surrounding for being not-helping-me, or Prof. Rauschnabel for being mumbling during lessons (now I started to appreciate him =) ), or even God. Anything, everything, all of things, but not me. The ME is out of the list.

I'm too selfish. What I know is only to place the blames on other people. To point my finger at you. You You YOU. But little that I realize, of all the 5 fingers, only 1 is pointing at YOU, one (the thumb) is pointing somewhere else, but 3 are pointing back at me. I am to be blame for all the things to happen. No, I'm not to be blame. I am RESPONSIBLE for all the things that happened. Who was the one saying that if he quits badminton his studies will be good? Who was the one saying that if only he has good lecturers he will score perfect marks, "padahal" he himself actually can study himself too? Why must the coach pamper me only I will do well in badminton? Who was the one blaming her for dumping him, "padahal" he himself hurted her more than what he realized? 

Who was the one ____ ? #fill in the blank yourself# 

Wasn't everything just an evasion? Wasn't everything just another blame on others but not yourself? Wasn't it harder but better to pick up the responsibilities? We are responsibles for ourselves, our doings. Blaming racket for not being good enough, or you your own are not good enough to hit the ball to the target? Blaming Satan for tempting you, or you give in yourself to be tempted, and putting aside God's faithful promise? Blaming other people for hurting you, or you let your guard down?Blaming time for not being adequate for you, or is it because your time-management not good? Blaming surrounding for not providing you chances to make best friends with people, or you yourself not putting effort in fellowshiping? Blaming God for not there for you, or you yourself do not enable your antenna and set to the same frequency to sense His presence? (reminds me of "what is your relationship with God?")

Think, and think, and think again (Reminds me of Mr. Ang, my Add-Math teacher).

Are they to be blamed, or should YOU be the one picking up the responsibility?

Punkt.

Stop empty talk; just do it,

Vincent

200 Fest Fest~

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Truth is in most of the time cruel. The trade for truth is pain and suffer. But the point is, to tell the truth it depends on who the listener is. For me, I demand truths than lies. It happened that time. And it would have been much better if I knew the truth than the imperfect lies. In the end, even if he/she/they was/were trying to protect me, they/he/she hurt me more. Than ever. It shall not have a repeat. And I hope I did not make wrong decision in that. Don't disappoint me. Again. Combine the Lego, Let go, let's go, and let God.

R slkv blf fmwvihgzmw, Nrxsvoov.
-puzzle a not-
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This is my 200th Post. So Today I want to make it a different than my other normal post.

Last Friday was a public holiday. So the Esslingen folks asked Jing Xin from Offenburg and me from Heilbronn to go Stuttgart for the Octoberfest, but not the one in Munich one. Well, the place was like a fun fair, but not just that - it has also something like houses, where people go in and drink beer, dance on the stools, tables etc. But don't give high hope, I didn't go in, because it was seriously packed. Here's the better picture.

Got tribe/clan /guild /whatever-you-name-it somemore... >.<

So basically it was like Genting, but with more challenging stuffs. Of course there were games for kids, such as these... I still remembered how I used to love it =) good childhood memories =)

Bumper car~

Puzzle house...

This is soooo Genting right? Played before? Just that this one is really more scary than the one in Genting. I didn't play this, luckily.

That thing surely can talk @,@

Remember how SnowWhite was poisoned? The apples looked alike, just these were coated in Chocolate Rice. Chocolates... Speaking of which:

Fruits coated with Chocs chocs~

Horse horse~

Then there were also killing thingy.

Those are pairs of people k...

Those were real legs k, and in case you haven't notice, they were turned 180°. Don't play play.

Warning: The following clip is 100% true, and oh, Dena, you should understand by now why I told you those things that day =P

The thing is like this: Before we came to this fun fair, we played BigTwo, and I (amazingly) lost and as the punishment, I was forced to play this thing. Luckily Pau volenteered to accompany me, because the game must be 2-3 person.

But let's have some intro:

This tripod looks nice.. Wait.. I think I saw something..

Was it a bird? A plane?

swt! Those were people... right? but why in the sky?

Hey! That's me, right? But what's with the apron thingy?

So this is the real thing: The apron is not apron, it was the support for me to fly.

Kobar-kobar.. Tak tahu mati.. Beh kia si.. Dunno death.. 不怕死.. Kenne Tod nicht.. Whatever.

€15,00 for this...

Ok, after that, rain started to fall down. So we decided to play one more game. It ended up was a wrong decision...

What can you imagine from this picture?

Alright, this is better view of what we played:


It's Mechanics class now. Look at the angle. It was raised more than 45°, I think it was around 60°-70° after the "full stretch". And each of the, ermm, let's name it shuttle, rotate itself. The plattform rotates too. So meaning, what we experienced were spinning, spinning, and spinning. And the funny thing was the guy beside me kept on shouting screaming her name. Haha. Come Germany, I bring you to this thing next time. It's a great experience - the almost-vomit experience. I wonder who was the one thought of this idea.

It costed only €3,00 but the aftermath was horrible. >.<

So after that, we had a group photo:

Victory! But don't look at us as if so happy, it's only for the sake of the camera. If you look carefully, our laughs were fake. Someone even "emergency exit" from the train on our way back. Burger King paper bags were the safety measurement. =.="

Eye of London Stuttgart - Haha.. Daniel don't know why sooo eager to ride that thing. Too bad ya?

So we went back, with much difficulty >.<


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New topic: me Spotted? hehe =p
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Oh in case you can't read German, it's my school's "Magazine Book". Don't relate it to your what secondary school graduation book. This one just thin one. Just a report on what happened last year etc.




come back, and grow,

Vincent

199 Returning to God

Post-number-seratus-九-und-neunzig =)

Looking back, I felt much glad for today. For the unfortunates and accidents and mistakes in the past, I grew a better today. God really blessed me with lots of people around me to give me supports, just when I need it the most. God really blessed me with lots of people around me to give me opportunity to become better. God really blessed me in different ways to teach me to grow. The question is, am I fully using them?

Come back from everything, I started with  nearly nothing again. New subjects, old subjects, 8am-to-7pm-non-stop-classes, never-free-Wednesdays-Thursdays-and-Fridays, badminton hours, lab assignments, German to improve, new (and very pretty) roommates, plans, uncertainties... it never ends. What's more, I will have harder lifespan here.

But then again, with the increasingly busy life, my spiritual life somehow decreased. Something not there. Talked to my mentor, and the only question he asked me is:

What is your relationship with God?

It stucked me hard hard hard. Yeah, somehow, the fear for my future displaced God from me.

When I told "my faith decreased", I was asked"what is your relationship with God?"

When I told "I admire those who can say 'praise God' in every good and bad situation'", I was asked "what is your relationship with God?"

When I revealed my timetable for wintersemester, I was asked "what your relationship with God?"

As Barbatov scored, I was asked "what is your relationship with God?"

As Barbatov scored again, I was asked "what is your relationship with God?"

So, what is my relationship with God? Or rather, how would I describe my relationship with God? Somehow, along the same question that was asked several times, I couldn't give an answer. What is my relationship with God?

Is He a friend?

Or is He rather a religion?

A belief?

A ceremony?

A person who I can blame on for all the sins that I've made, even just now?

A person who I find, when I have difficulties, like banker when I'm running out of cash?

I want Him to be my best friend ever, but quite some times the selfish side of me took place. Being indecisive, I not responding, just like computer.

Being sinner, I continue to sin, just like most of us.

Being blinded, I see not the eternal rewards, but the earthly ones, just like treasure hunters.

Being confident, I realize not that all these while He was, He is, and He will in control of things, but I depended on my own self-claimed-smartass brain, just like hedonists.

No, I was stupid to not look far. I was stupid to wanting to aim the 1,0 result. I was stupid to depend only on myself. I was stupid not even to learn from mistakes, failures. I was stupid to too on my own. I was too stupid not to think of ways to improve my relationship with God.

A relationship depends from both sides. A truth that speaks in every circumstances. As well as in friendship, love, everything. It is never one-sided effort. So, God has already put in so much effort to build this relationship. He sent His begotten Son and was put to death, bearing not His own sins (for He is sinless), but mine. He has promised the eternal life and eternal rewards for me. Whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but receive eternal life. He has a place for me in His kingdom in heaven. He had me in His mind, even before I know myself. He drew out a unique plan for me. He done a lot of sacrifices to me. It's not that He need me at all to be complete.

He want me.

He want me to be with Him.

Why can't I see this? Why can't I trust in Him? It's not that He failed me. It's because I did not seek him.

Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Matthew 6:33

This quote was pinned on my wall. Yet I never really understand. Or rather believe. Just find Him, and He will guide me throughout my life? My skeptical heart grinned. Sounds of disbelief.

But hey, He will. He will, Qi Hao, He will.

But why with all those negatives? It's because my relationship with Him is not a firmly-bonded friendship. It's because I did not put in effort to come to Him. My faith was down-sliding. During my one-to-one session with my mentor, we sang "Heart of Worship". As we sang the song, I felt like crying. I chose to be disobedient. I chose to wander off. I chose to isolate myself from You.I chose earthly wealth. I chose to indulge myself on earth. I chose to say I love xxx. I chose to hurt people. I chose extreme and hurted myself. I chose talk-crap tongue to speak foul, meaningless words. I've made lots of choices that harmed myself. But now, I chose to come back to You. Nothing but You. Nowhere but You. In your arms. In You.

I've wandered very far away since the day I accepted You.

But now I'm coming back to the heart of worship, when all is about only you.

Once again I look upon the cross where You died, I'm touched by Your mercy. I'm touched by Your grace.

Once again I thank You,

Thank You for the cross, my Lord.

I really want to be Your friend.

This is my God.

This is our God.

This is my friend.

This is our friend.

What is your relationship with God then?

Vincent