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Today I went to Campus Alive again. And honestly, Joash, I thank you. You saved me again, twice. All of you will not know what I’m talking about here. Haha… it’s just between me and myself. But then again, thank you. You saved me again. I found the purpose of THAT INCIDENT. Just when I’m down and seem going towards the wrong path, you awaken me.
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Today was the first Campus Alive (CA) for this whole new semester. As usual we gathered up. But today’s message was very powerful and meaningful. As if it was all specially dedicated to me. For few times the tears formed within my eyes, and for a few times my vision became blurred, because of the tears. Although I managed to keep them from flowing out like a stream of rain, it was a great moment to me, I gained a lot.
And guess what, the speaker today was none other than Joash, a wonderful person from INTEC. Honestly from the very 1st day he came here, I had a very bad impression on him. I had the thought that he is LOUD and making noises. But after I came to CA (thanks to Helen for inviting) I found out that he is a nice person, who is 180° different than what I knew about him all these while. I discovered that he is such a great and caring friend, not to mention how faithful he is towards the God.
The topic of the day was about the new life, new journey at INTEC. It was supposed to be dedicated to all the super juniors and newcomers, but out of so many people, I think I benefited the most. It was like as if the Almighty sent someone to me, to light me, to show me the path, to guide me, the little lamb. It was the question that every newbie in INTEC will ask himself/herself: “What is the purpose of being in INTEC?”
He also talked about goals and visions. As he talked, I thought myself, what is my goal? And what is my vision? I can’t really answer that. As time goes I think I’ve found the shattered fragments of the answer, pieces by pieces. At least I’ve been exposed to the question, a question that I did not ask myself again since a long time ago. I don’t know the answer yet, but I’m trying my best to trace back these pieces, and I’ll find the answer. I know that myself, very well.
Whenever I face problems, what I know is only blame others. I blame my partners whenever I lose in a double-tag in badminton matches. I blame my partner for not being good enough. I’ve been very ego and proud of myself. I’m not satisfy with my partner whenever he/she make mistakes, where as when I make mistake, I’ll just reply with a word of apology. If there’s no one to be blamed on, I mop and whine of myself. That’s all. And these were wrong. But here is where Joash’s words came into me. Whenever we face problems, we can choose to be accepting and rejoice, or we can keep ourselves down and frustrate. We can choose to keep on, or we choose to give up. We can choose to be in the Light, or we can hide ourselves in the darkness. We can choose to pull through, or we can choose to pull out. But a thing we must realize is that the choices that we made, we’ll need to be responsible for them. For everything, for every result, for every effect, is it better? Or bitter? It makes me ask myself, have you done enough for them? Have you fight for the best? Have you been grateful and thanksgiving, no matter what the outcome is? Is that what you want? Is the harvest that you collect are within your expectation as you lay down the seeds? Ask yourself, ask yourself. ASK YOURSELF.
It was a meaningful session. It was wonderful. Thank you, for expose me to CA. Thank you Joash, you saved me twice. Thank you, for the wonderful speech. Thank you, for saving me before I drown myself in the darkness. Thank you everyone, for all the cares and understandings to make me a better person.
Live is good, once again. At least I feel better for my coming birthday.
With love,
vincent
