Sometimes I wonder, what did I do wrong? Where did I do wrong? How did I do wrong?

To be honest, I'm quite tired. Tired of dwelling in this repetitive cycle.

Again and again and again. 

Different people. But same loop. Why?

Different subjects. But same loop. Why?

Different occasions. But same loop. Why?

那一个重复的话题。

What is the thing that I should learn but I missed it, again and again and again?

Nights like this are the time where I feel so stressed.

I feel so useless.

I feel so small.

I really want to say I refuse to bow down. I refuse to give in. But I don't know how much I can persevere in this.

Experience tells me I always gave up when I was just that close to victory. I really can't see that step though.

撑得很幸苦啊。