Some people consoled me that I'm just being unlucky (again!) to meet an opponent who later turned out to be the champion in the badminton competition, so it's okay. But deep inside me I know my performance. I knew how badly I did. I knew I was 'owned' by him total. Pure and total ownage. One of the biggest
ego
pride-element in myself is that I don't like being treated by double standard. And yes, purposely making mistakes so that I could gain some points challenged my pride. But seriously, I performed badly. Consecutive of unforced errors really worried me and pissed me off. I'm really lousy to the maxxxxxxxx.
And well, my eye-sight is getting blurry and that alone made me to pay its heavy toll. Firstly, I was in new environment. Secondly, my reaction time increased due to 'lack of vision'. Thirdly, crowd pressure was something I've been learning, and failed to overcome it, especially when the crowd intervened during the decision making of the linesmen. And not to mention my own judgment. Certainly that shots were out of the line, but some people said them to be in the line and that really pissed me.
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Furthermore, I hate people abusing laws and rules. Yes alright I know that was a mixed-double match and female partners are usually weaker than the men so that's the weak-spot of a team. And also the blind-spot of the entire mixed-double game. If you use that kind of advantage to earn points I could understand, but if you're using that to win, I find it very ethically low. Even if you did perform 9 out of 10 smashes to my partner, I'm still satisfied. But if that's a 100% abuse, I seriously think that they're not worth of my opponents. What's the different then compare to 'spawn-kill' in a FPS-game? And then again, it was from the same guy who intentionally judge the wrong lines who told the opponent as we were winning.
In terms of skills, I seriously out-matched you. In terms of professionalism, I out-do you. In terms of ethics, you're low. And they did make it to final, by abusing that blind-spot. I hope they didn't win. Because this act doesn't worth a medal.
He felt proud. The ego when he won against me. I pity his partner. She was really sweet and I didn't want to abuse the weakness like he did. And if I really did aim only her, she'd most probably ran out crying. I can do body-smash if I want to, in case he didn't know.
For the record, he didn't break any rules. It was fairly just and there's nothing wrong with that. But if you're only following laws without being 'human', maybe you should know God. And I seriously mean it.
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In the end I lost. Yes that's a fact. If you ask me, I'm not ashamed to admit that. Just that I've played badminton for years so I know the act in a game too, not just swallowing the rule-book. I wonder why the Cardiff people, the players and the supporters, proud of it.
I'm not blaming anyone. It was entirely my mistakes for the lost in the Men Singles game, because I did lots of mistakes. But it was because I hold on to my principle that I lost in the Mixed Double. A part of me told me I should've just do the same thing as he is. In a way how I wished that time that I was cruel person. Then again, that isn't me and I don't want to add another new entry to my 'unforgettable bad memories'.
3 comments:
事情的发生，一定有原因，其中一个原因就是“帮助我们成长”；
感谢"敌人"的出现，因为他助长了您的力量！您是否发觉，现在的状况对您来说是可贵的，因为感觉到不舒服，就是成长最大的机会！
Single match is no doubt own's fault.
But in (mixed) double, its your job to ensure the win of the team. If the opponent is really unethical, you should even make sure he doesn't advance to the next round - by all means, attack the weaker pair, or just normal shots to the weaker pair and make sure the partner has no chance of getting shuttle.
Actually, to be frank, this is not unethical, its part of the attack strategy. Attack the weak until he/she collapse.
And defense, the strategy is to find a partner who is equally strong. Or, a weaker partner can withstand the attacks, by adapting fast enough and counter.
I've seen cases like this, most people failed to come back. But there are few rare cases where the weaker partner manage to turn the table around. IMO, this is first class match that everyone wish to watch.
So, same old rules apply, only the strong physically and mentally will survive and eventually win.
thanks mom. But why everything is only about the process? It's like all those matches that I looked forward to the opponents were all champion-to-be =S
binghan, it's not that I failed to come back. It's just... I find it not professional. There's only a best way: ask my partner to run out of the court but that's not gonna happen ;O
But oh well, guess I wanna be a coach to train someone else as well =)
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