He finally dares up himself to look at how the seniors do in their lives. He finally dares himself to ask. And he felt regret for getting such a bad result in the first semester. He really didn’t keep up with their steps.
More efforts, maybe?
He asked about how to apply for job. And he finally know there’s such result-slip call “Vorprüfung Bachelor” with Note. Maybe it’s not too late for him to realize that, he told himself. But.. this means he’ll be getting that result in the 4th semester while others getting it on the 3rd. That is also provided that he don’t fail anymore subjects this time. That result is important to apply for job.
God… why like this?
Tears filled his eyes. He wiped the rolling droplets away. And the only thing he can do now is to do what people call “damage controlling”.
Yes, definitely more effort. Yes, definitely have to be more serious about studies, no matter what. Have to reduce other stuffs and focus more on studies. Have to work harder. Work… no, have to study harder. And smarter. Yet he’s sitting here, blogging.
Things seem so far wide away. And he’s still there, not knowing what he should know. He felt so… useless. Unproductive. Noob. And, what’s the English word for “Unfähigkeit” again?
Tears filled his eyes again.
Oh. My. God. It’s hard.
