Happy Chinese New Year...

This night the star was shining brightly. He looked up into the sky to take a look at the tiny twinkling stars. They were small, very small. Yet they shone very brightly, and lasted throughout the night. He liked the stars. He wanted to be just like them. He wanted to be parallel with them. He wanted, indeed join them up there, being outstanding.

That very night also the day when she, once again, walked further from him. But this time, she walked much much further away from him; near near towards another him. Thinking back again, he has tons of reasons to hate both him and her. He needs not much thinking to tell why he should hate them. He has proves that she cheated on him. He had dreadful memories that he could lodge her for unfaithfulness. He knew things about her that she hid from him. He knew, I know.

Yet he forgave her. When being asked, he said:

True love needs not any reason to love.

Indeed, the most outstanding love is that you love someone without any reason. Without wanting any reward. Without hoping that the person that you love will love you back. No conditions.

But then again, seriously, how many people can really do that? How many people can endure loving someone when he/she knows that the opponent do not even give a look at you? How many people can still love someone after he/she is being fouled and mudded with heart-piercing words?

“I hate seeing your face…”

“It’s a torture being with you…”

“You are useless…”

“You are hopeless…”

“You are STILL very childish…”

“You are very annoying…”

“I don’t want to see your face…”

“Say once more mention about how you feel towards me will make me disappear right in front of you…”

“I hate you very much…”

If you heard these kinds of words EVERYDAY, will you still continue to love him/her? Do you?

He did.

He does.

He was one of the few who went through this feeling. He loved the girl so much, that he gave up a lot of his dreams and wishes just to fulfill this little dream – to be with her eternally. He did win her heart. He tried very hard to remain his presence in her heart. He knew him and her need to suffer a lot before they can really be together. But he knew also, that she couldn’t endure the sufferings. Yet he never tells her what he knew, because deep in his heart he wanted so much to be with her forever. How childish he was, that he really believe in “the first and the last” as shown in those fairy tales.

He is ugly, but she is very gorgeous. She was born in wealth; he climbed through the hardest and stiffest mountains before he came to know her. He saw a lot of his future. He tried to stop this predictions and fortune telling stuffs. But he couldn’t resist predicting what would happen to him and her.

Yet he asked her to be his girlfriend.

She rejected at first, because she never wanted to glance even a single second on him. After many attempts, she accepted him, exactly on a day where it was full moon. The reason behind it, only she knows. She didn’t really like him at all. He was poor and childish, to her. What can he really give me, she doubted. She thus never put in any hope in the relationship.

He was loyal to her. He avoided mixing up with girls from all around the country; he scared that it will cause jealousy in her. He didn’t want the relationship to end so fast. The first one to be unfaithful was, of course, her. He found it out not long after. He was really angry at her, yet he forgave her, because he loved her so much.

Then she went abroad for vacation. Thus the relationship started to chill down. A month of separation did not make her to love him more, but it chilled away, along with the breeze of the sea in foreign country.

But somehow, the relationship got back on track, and she loved him very much again.

He was poor in his studies. Never is he the top in his class. But he was blessed with brainy friends around him. She was annoyed that he wasn’t the top. She wanted someone who is perfect. Her love for him thus leaked away, slowly. It was then the most important exam of their lives. She decided to give up on him.

“I insisted on giving up what we had said or promised in the past…”

How cruel – it showed the true self of her. He was hurt so much, that his brain went blank and broke down, unable to resist what came to him. He surrendered to the opponent. How dumb. How sad. If only he could just surrender to Him instead to others.

He is weak, not because he has no dreams; he broke his wings – the wings to qualify as a dream chaser – just to be with her. He gave up a lot because of her so much that it could be written into a booklet. Yet she didn’t know. She never wanted to know him, and he never wanted to tell out all of his heart – they were mostly hurtful. Not long later she found herself another partner. A partner that was once a friend of his. A friend that lied to him. Another person that hurt him. He was once a good friend, whom he always share feelings and though with. Yet in the end it was a betrayal that he never thought of. Justice flattened. Bully won.

Go on and blame him for his childiness.

Go on and correct him that he shouldn’t put in 100% in this relationship.

Go on and let her know how much he loved her.

Go on and tell him to let go.

Go on and comfort him for the injustice and cruelty of this real world.

Go on and let him know that he had tried his best.

Go on and preach to him that God has better plan for him.

But go to him,

Tell him that God hears the voices of cries from his tiny bleeding slow-beating heart.

Tell him that God never forget him.

Give him encouragement.

Give him a new hope.

Give him a new life.

Pray for him that he will stand strong against the challenges in 2008

Pray for the healing of God to heal his wounded heart.

Pray for him that he will not be tempted by evil ones anymore.

Pray for him to forgive his enemies – he couldn’t do so yet.

Stand by him, and tell him, he’ll never walk the road alone.

Inform him,

The Lord will lift up a standard against enemies that come to us.

Help him find in the Bible where this verse is taken from too.

So close, yet so far...

Vincent