There are times when things just sounded to be great and fun when we looked back at what we achieved or at least, happened in the past. But there are also times when the sadness and regretness and shameness and anger and maybe, jealousy of something just came back to me. I promised a lot of people to keep strong and steady to face the challenges in life.
“Get over with it soon…”
“promise me to be cheerful and healthy…”
“you got a good brain, use it well, use it that you will always be true to your heart, in everything that you do…”
“路是人走出来的。笑一笑，问题不是问题。”
“… My best partner all these while!!!”
You all know who you are who said these words. You all are the one that keep my strength on and pushing my life forward. I really thank You, oh Lord, for providing me with these wonderful friends. People to cheer me up when I am down, to take my hand and walk me approach you.
Strength, is just what You always have given to me, just when I need it the most. Just when I pray to You. If anyone who wants a testimony of how great our God is, I would gladly raise up my hand and be His testimony. It just feel better when everyday I start my day with a wake-up prayer. Pray to His every morning and continue to let Him take full charge of my daily life. Things will then just go fine with me. It was, it is, and IT WILL!
But still, sometimes troubles, temptations and challenges come to me. Standing in the ground of foreigners, I really stand no chance against all these attacks that come straight at me all together: I need to learn to give up and get over with my past relationship. Everyday seeing her being with his new boyfriend is not a sweet feeling that I need to go through. Seeing those affections and sweetness of theirs make me sometimes really uncomfortable. But what else can I do? I just look away and pray to God, pray that I can stay strong without collapsing to overcome it. After all, no more those wonderful people around me that can provide me power. Well, God is giving me a simple test of my faithfulness I guess. It is not an easy thing to be done; it needs a lot of will and courages not to let the tears inside my eyes to fall out from the frame. Worse comes, sadly. I need to face her when I go to my next place this weekend: Heilbronn. Me and her are the only two Chinese in this batch that will be going there. God’s will. But what is the purpose? Only God knows. And I know He’ll reveal His plan to me, slowly. I just need to be patient, I guess.
Two weeks fly away so quickly, and I’m still alive in Germany. Germany is indeed fun, but I’m starting to miss Malaysia. Whenever I’m lonely, just looking at the sunset will also make me sad. Lot’s of things that I missed… Things that I did not appreciate… Sad.
Missing everyone from Malaysia,
Vincent
8 comments:
hey!~ man!~ cheer up =)
its definitely easier said than done but, u definitely can do it with His strength and His Holy Spirit=)
i'm happy so u are so passionate in pursuing the Lord!~
resist tempation because u love Him =)
and there's a phrase that has been passed own very often here lately. i think it will be useful
"forget the pass and strive for the future. for the pass is of glorious and painful yesterdays and that will stop you from fulfilling your destiny"
cheers man!~enjoy germany!
Yea. Sometimes when I'm close to temptations I'll ask myself: "Do you love Him? If you do, resist the evil one." Then everything will just go fine with me. His presence I really felt.
Past is hard to forget. But only look front can we not look back. Make sense, right?
vincent
I love You, LORD, my strength.
The LORD is my rock,
my fortress, and my deliverer,
my GOD, my mountain where i seek refuge,
my shield and the horn of my salvation,
my stronghold.
I called to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and i was saved from my enemies.
Ps 18:1-3
David, the servant of God spoke the words of this song to the Lord on the day the Lord had rescued him from the hand of his enemies and from the hand of Saul.
Keep this in your mind for the Lord will never abundant His faithful children, but will reveal the path of life to us! ^^
Amen.
Take care ^^ v all love u too!
Love,
Sis
It took me about a quarter (i.e. 13 weeks) to overcome homesickness. Haha. It's not easy, but you can do it! Face the foreign world with an open mind. Blend into their world =)
Hey yo..How are you??!!Hows Germany?It must be freaking cold there huh..=)
Well..Having read ur blog,i know you are in the process of getting over the feelings that you have right now..And i am in the same process as you..It is not easy..Its painful and we need God's strength..I am encouraged by today's devotion's title.."HEART OF WORSHIP"-Purpose Driven Life..Its about surrending yourself to God..Obeying God is one of the ways of surrending yourself..Obeying God is never easy as you want everything in your ways..God has better ones for us but at times we refuse to follow His better ways and stubbornly,we refuse to let go of what we are having right now..Learn to be obedient is the process of surrending yourself completely to God..So let's learn together,to obey and to surrender all to our Father..Everthing which is in His control is NEVER out of His control..=)Take heart ya..",
alicia, i've opened my mind. Kinda ady used to far-away cuz im from sarawak, i guess. Well, but still, missing friends and family very much.
Chelle, yup. He surely has planned everything for us. It's just the matter of fact if we can accept it or not. Surrendering myself to him is wad i did and will do. Thanks Chelle, ur words gave me strength =)
wat they said here r rite... muz jia you in ur life. it's hard to 4get but u have to try. God will lead u always
very true, daniel. :)
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