Friday, May 04, 2012

你好嗎 - 周杰倫

时间啊时间...你好像越跑越快哦。

看看自己的 to-do-list, 真的觉得很没有时间。很多东西需要去做,很多东西也忘了去做。真的觉得有一本记录簿真好;这样才不会忘记许多东西。

很多问题...我真的很想知道答案。上帝啊上帝,什么原因让你觉得我还需要等待?

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其实应该感觉开心,因为她回答了我的简讯 =P

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Sunday, April 15, 2012

Need the motivation

I don't like playing catching up game.

You're too far ahead.

Too good for me.

Too bad if only there's this element in you...

it is not euphoria.

it's Euphorie.

The smartypants.

The sunshine.


I want to catch up! I want to be side-by-side with you! Should this be the motivation I need, to grow?

time will tell.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Solo Player - Jason Chen (Official Music Video) ft. Jen Frmheadtotoe



[Verse1]
From the moment you walked into my life,
Everything felt so right.
From the moment I looked into your eyes,
I knew I had to make you mine.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
You drove a stake right through to my heart,
and left me bleeding for your love.

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried everything to prove I loved you,
Gave my all to make all of your dreams come true.
But I'm no longer blinded by your lies,
I know your heart was never mine.

[Chorus]
Why am I the solo player (in this game for two)
I'm the solo player (my love was never true)
I want the solo player (in this game for two)
I can be the solo player (love is a game for two)

[Verse2]
I saw the look at your smile and it makes me feel,
Everything will be all right (Oh yeah)
It's like I'm still in love with you,
Or maybe I'm just a fool.
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you.
Oh you drove a stake right through to my heart,
But I will bleed for you no more.

[Bridge]
It doesn't matter how much I loved you,
Or how much I cared.
Even if you come crawling back girl,
Next time I won't be there.
I'm prepared to leave it all behind,
Oh no, you were never mine.
And even though it breaks my heart,
Girl I got to let you go.

[Outtro]
Why am I the solo player?
I can be the solo player...

Thursday, March 08, 2012

你不说?

不知不觉自己身在德国已四年了,很多东西都渐渐地改变。四年前感觉德国很生疏,现在反而觉得在德国生活也蛮不错的。

心中其实很羡慕那些已毕业的同辈们,但是脑里想的却是自责。我其实也是可以的,是自己选择放弃机会,就差那份爆发力、上进心。

我自己当然很不喜欢这种态度,但却没有那强硬的心去告诉自己;永远都无法狠下决心。老实说,我是真的真的很想改变——想学习自私一点、少犹豫自己、对自己有更大的信心。

就是有一天,当大家都在厨房里,人家就随便说说——说我不会弄饭、做菜。心中其实就是很不甘,却懒得去和他吵个死活。心里只是想,“莫非我做的一切并不清楚?”

默默地耕耘,程度是如何,我自己清楚,不必并报全世界,因为我就不是那种爱炫耀的人。
人家却把我当白痴。我叹。

来到这里,很庆幸的是:上帝赐给了我一群自信满满的伙儿们。有时候缺乏自信心的我,却是确实地被他们掩埋着。我真的很想向他们学习,但“自信”这种东西,应该是要靠自己去建筑吧?

到头来,我觉得我最大的缺点就是犹豫。来来去去都是“但是但是”这两个字。还记得当时在荷兰时,好友恩惠问了大家,“如果你能改变自己的一个缺点,那会是什么呢?” 我当然就说是“缺乏自信心” 的个性。其实我很想改掉这个坏习惯,但是真的是不知所措啊。

想做一个直率的人,却很顾及别人的感受。
想奋不顾身地追逐自己想要的梦想,却担心那想要的梦想不是自己真的很想要得到的心愿。
相对人凶一点,却担心得罪别人。


很多人都很想知道,那一次发生了什么事情——是不是发生了冷战。我不是要打冷战,而是为了保护自己。不是为了保护自己被再次受伤害,而是避免自己再次冲动。我选择避开、沉默、话不说。就是很想和她聊,却刻意的控制自己。那种辛苦,我自己懂得。心里不甘的是,自己也沉默,人家就越多问,甚至拿这个事情来开玩笑。心里被气的啼笑皆非,脸上却只能苦笑带过。所以到最后,只能在部落格发泄。


如果你问我:“你累了吗?” 我只能老实地说一句:“我是真的累坏了。”

好想搞个失踪,带着一本画画书,逃到无人的山上或葡萄园里去,画一幅日出、日落的绘画,毕竟自己也很久没有机会画画了。就像那一次激怒,买了一个白板发泄,然后把它抹个一干二净。^^


踮起腳尖愛 洪佩瑜



[Verse1]
舞鞋 穿了洞 裂了縫 預備迎接一個夢
OK繃 遮住痛 要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐 我要用哪一種
面對他 一百零一分笑容 

[Verse2]
等待 的時空 有點重 重得時針走不動
無影蹤 他始終 不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂 誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊 依然長長的人龍 

[Chorus]
想踮起腳尖找尋愛 遠遠的存在
我來不及 說聲嗨 影子就從人海暈開
才踮起腳尖的期待 只怕被虧待
我勾不著還微笑忍耐
woo~ 等你回過頭來 

[Verse3]
哪天 撲了空 折了衷 祈禱終於起作用
一陣風 吹來夢 卻又敗在難溝通
我終於懂 怎麼人們的臉孔
想到愛 寂寞眼眶就轉紅