Friday, January 23, 2009

You’re the MAN!

Often we hear people said, “You’re the MAN dude!” But ever wonder what’s the criteria that the man has? Or rather, what man are we talking about here? Are you a man? Is she a man? Am I a man? So who is this man here?
 
He is the warrior, who is strong, but at the same time is weak. A man who conquers all the difficulties in life, achieves outstanding performances in life, having no fear of any incoming enemies. He is strong, he is tough, and he overwhelms everything that comes in his way, but he bow down in front of LORD Almighty. He is strong, but he only do things upon receiving commands from the LORD. He never acts on his own, and the LORD is with him. He is the warrior that I want to be.
 
He is the father, who is strict at the same time lenient. He punishes his children for the bad deeds that they have done, but the forgiveness is always there. His ‘no’ will never mean ‘yes’, but in his tight pathway there’s always a way out. In his ‘darkness’ one will always see light. No, he traps not human life in a bottle. Neither does he compress the wild heart of his sons and daughters to the extend of suffocation. The oxygen is always there, but he takes it away, feeding them little by little, while guiding them to the source of oxygen in life. By that one will know the importance of oxygen. He throws them into the deep sea, but never will he let them drown, for his shadow can always be spotted at the corner. They shall have no fear, but to kick out at least a frog-style or a free-style to live, not to survive. He is the father that I want to be.
 
He is the genius, but never is he wiser than the LORD. He holds both knowledge and wisdom, but also acknowledge that He is the LORD. He hears not only the news of the world, but also GOD’s channel. He tells every truth of life, but all of those are come from GOD’s Words. He never act as if he is GOD who knows everything, but he is as if the moving library, an ultimate collection of portable books in brain –  You can just ask him about anything. Never will he sit on GOD’s Throne, nor will he rebel against the Almighty, for what he has in store is never enough to compare to what the Giver of Life has. He is the genius I want to be.
 
He is the most romantic lover to the one he loves. He can not only (read carefully!) be a sweetest boyfriend, but also the most loyal husband ever. He is understanding of what personality his love is, and also understandable to his love one. He hides no lies in the relationship bridge, and he sees the the way to make the bridge strong is through GOD Himself. The bridge is strong, and will never fall, for the bridge is not made of wood nor steel nor marble not even diamond, but the finest perfect jewel named GOD. GOD is the component in the bridge, in the relationship with the partner. GOD will be the centre and foundation of the relationship he and she have. Their ultimate true love is not on each other, but on the LORD who loves us without any conditions. He is the romantic lover that I want to be.
 
He is the finest strategist of life. His life is never out of control; yet his life seems to have everything. He seems to always in multi-tasking mode, but even the QuadCore can’t process tasks swifter than him. His finance never leads him to bankruptcy, yet he owns everything that one can imagine. His goals always seem to be very far-away and impossible, yet never does he fail to reach them. His wars never lead him to surrendering, yet the only one he surrenders to is the LORD. His only strategy is not depending on himself, but focusing on the GOD. All the strategies for the ‘wars’ in life is not signed and approved by himself, but by the One who has a plan in everyone of us. He is the strategist that I want to be.
 
He seems to constantly under stress and strain, yet his emotions never creep (solid material!). He keeps his mind and brain chill and cool, when everyone else has long lost his and hers. Never will he show colors to friends and family, although he might be at the end of the hill. He is as if carries around a contact bomb, but never will he ever loose his touch. The workload in his life seems to be pressurizing him, yet never will he give in to the difficult situation, nor will he strangle himself to death, for he know that perseverance is the unlocking key, and there’s always Someone to turn to, and that Someone will never let the load beyond what he can bear. He is the cool (but not that Ah Pau) guy I want to be.
 
Despite all the royalties he seems to carry, but he is more like a people servant. Although he is much gifted by LORD, but never will he mix in ego into life. He is someone who anyone can close to, not to worry that he might be betraying you. Not to worry that he might take advantages on you. Not to worry that he’ll backstab you. Not to worry that he’ll swallow the trust that you choose to bank-in to his account. He is the warm counselor who you can share your deepest hurts or wounds in life, without worrying that you will be the next top story in local or international media. You need not to check your account every hour, day, week, month, year, decade, century, millennium, life-time – you just trust in him. He is the friend that I want to be.
 
He is a responsible teammate. He never work in recklessness and in the end hanging all the blames and burden on his partner. In fact, he does all his parts nicely and neatly, then offers hands to make others straight. He holds his responsibility to family, to love ones, studies, work, to GOD and even to himself, and he knows it. He knows what he should know and should find out. He never leave things unorganized or not knowing anything. Expected surprises never surprise him. He manages his time well that he can cover all the responsibility without making another worse. He differentiates what is important and what is urgent and what is not. He knows what he is doing, without needing his teammates to worry about him. He is the teammate I want to be.
 
He is a hand, and his hands are helpful. He is willing to help others to solve things in life, without making any of them worse. He manages his resources well, and his brain for others never run out of ideas. He uses what he has to help others, to solve problems, to reconcile misunderstandings, to remove hatreds between each other, most importantly, a hand of heal for the hurts. He helps the weak and supports the strong, and he is the screw-driver for all the tightest nuts and bolts you can ever find. He helps to turn the complex into simplicity, without skipping any minor errors during the process. Sometimes will the hand turn into an ear, listen to the grunts and complaints of others in their lives. Then the ear turns into a tongue, speak the words of encouragements, words of hope, words of comfort, and ultimately, the Words of God. He is the hand I want to be, the hands I want to have.
 
He must not need to be a priest or a pastor, but his faith in the LORD is refined pure. His relationship with GOD is more than words, and be still he is because He is the LORD. His heart for the LORD is never only Sunday, an he follows Him all day. He feels not going to Church is a Christian’s duty, for he owns a relationship with God which is more than beauty. Bible is not a book on shelf, but the guide book for him in life to heaven. He tells his surrounding of how really great his GOD is, without “ermm… ermmm”-ing around finding words, when being asked about his very GOD. He reinforces his brothers’ and sisters’ faith in Him, he helps them with questionnaires about GOD, and he prays for everyone. His everyday devotion implies his fond and bond relationship with GOD. He has GOD in him. He is the servant of GOD I want to be.
 
His speaks are equal to his actions. Never will he vow a promise he cannot fulfill. Never will he procrastinate in his life. Never will he put everything to the very end, and let the stack of mountain-high runs over him in the end. Never will he say “I will…” but instead will he say “I want to…”, for the ‘will’ lies somewhere far in the future. No one will ever question about his promises, because they know he will always fulfill them. What he does will not be like most of the empty talks by what we can see in politics. Instead, you can see clearly the words he gives. You can have his words. You can keep his words. His promise definitely will not be hanging somewhere out there, or in there. He is the executor that I want to be.
 
He, is the man I want to be.
 
 
Vincent

Monday, January 19, 2009

German Open Grand Prix 2009

I'm real jealoused. AGAIN. Because some people got Lee Chong Wei's signature. Although I have Sidek's family's and Roslin Hashim (the Nusa Mahsuri) and some other players, but I got real jealous of those who went for Korea Open. In addition, I can't go All England Open Badminton Championship 2009 (March 3-8) at National Indoor Stadium, Birmingham, just few inches away from Germany. Ok, not inches, but it's considerably near, compare to World Championships 2009 at Hyderabad, India (Aug 10-16), Sudirman Cup 2009 at Guangzhou, China (May 10-17), or any other tournaments.

Jing Xin, you geng, went French Open 2008 and now going Birmingham.


Ok fine. I'll go for French Open 2009  on Oct 27 to Nov 1 at Paris (heck, Paris again?!)

Ok fine. I'll also go for German Open GP 2009 at Mülheim an der Ruhr (Feb 24 - March 1). At least I got Jia Uei's place for me to overnight. Muahahaha. I Miss Sally's curry Chicken. The pair came back from Japan already? 

Come come all come join me. Ticket-selling closing date is 31st Jan. Hurry. Swt, I'm promoting. Advance ticket, for all days, only €16.15. It's almost as same as Stuttgart One-Day ticket. So, instead of walking around in the big Stuttgart for ONE DAY ONLY with those Ess-lin-ger, why not come join me for FIVE DAYS? Plus, you might eventually on TV you know. And for people who likes to appear on tv, or that particular person who set herself a "TV channel", you can consider this lol.

The organizing committee is confident that the world´s best players, like olympic champion Lin Dan (China), will play in Mülheim.

See, Lin Dan is coming, ok. Lee Chong Wei I don't know. Maybe he got enough points to maintain his first-seed title. Then again, he just lost to Peter Gade at Korea Open Super Series 2009. Blame those Malaysians who are in Korea now. They forced asked him to sign so many autographs. Here is the proof.

But then I hope he comes. And drop his signature on my body so that I no need to bath for a month So that I can get his autograph too. At least might settle the intense jealousy I felt against YOU now. LoL.

Grr... still can't settle my jealousy. How? =P

Saturday, January 17, 2009

one-week

Although books are piling, someone suggested that blogging could be stress reliever. So, I'll just give it a shot.

Another week left.

I worried - not just studies, but some other things else.

I jealoused, cuz it's Disneyland instead of Lee Chong Wei, or Lindan. I'm real jealoused now okay. Nvm. I'll make sure you won't able to make me jealous again =P

haha.

About my progress, today finished last Kunststoffe tutorial with senior. Still much worried.
And for lots of subjects, I'm still having phobia. I still got Konstruktion Documentation to do.

Head, since yesterday is very dizzy.

Ankle, since last night, still feels not correct. Twisted I guess, during badminton. BADMINTON... I'm real jealoused of those who went for Korea Open. Ish. The pictures... signatures... very jealous can!? But nvm, to think that Heilbronn will organize MGSS Badminton Comp this year... I'll start to prepare to defend my title =)

Ouch. T,T ankle pains.

K la, study.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

AFK


:: Notice ::

What - Blog will not be updated until 13th Feb.
Why - 1. because exam is coming (tick tock tick tock)
2. because brain starting to jam (1 + 1 = 田 !!! )
3. because no more ideas (ask you don't ask me to contribute ideas liao!)
4. because hair starting to drop (!! when I sapu lantai)
5. because want to study ("Zwischenstufe" is "Bainit"!!!)
When - Today until 13th February ( Last day of exam)
Who - YOU! Puhlees pray for me.
How - 1. pray to God that I won't press the panic button. 
2. pray that I can score the result that I want.
Where - I'll still be in Heilbronn, appearing offline.
Which - Konstruktion Vortrag - 4th calender week (Guten Morgen, meine Damen und Herrn!)
Werkstoffkunde - 26.01 (CNY 年初一 weh fffffffffffs )
Physik 2 - 28.01 (too bad Prof Rauschnabel eventually didn't eaten by alligators)
Elektrotechnik 1 - 29.01 (7 questions 1 hour??)
Mathematik 2 - 30.01 (Herr Sell loves Maths)
Elektrotechnik 2 - 05.02 (Herr Schmidt, der Elektrotechniker: ,, ihr seid Mechatroniker!")
Mathematik 1 - 10.02 (Mathematik - Alles, was zählt @,@ )
Technische Mechanik 2 - 11.02 (Herr Schmolz still playing with grandsons.........)
Technische Informatik - 13.02 (more I will really die)

God.. help.. me. Hu hu. 我现在真的好怕...

:: Ende der Programmierung ::

//going crazy soon...

. Ferrit, Martensit, Austenit, Bainit, kfz, krz, Polyester, Morsche Spannungskreis, Teilkristalline..
.. Gauß FFG, harmonische Schwingungen, Imaginärteil, Gravitationskonstante 6,67E-11 m³ /kg s²...
... Kapazität, Kirchhoffsche Regeln, Maschen Regel, I = dQ/dt, Zeitkonstante R·C, F=B·I·L...
....Störfunktion, Hesse Matrix, totales DGL, Archimedische Spirale, y=r·sin(x), Satz von Green...
..... Induktivität, Z=j(omega)L, who-got-my-EL2-notes??? Smelly Horse In Tavern...
...... Newtonsche Verfahren, L' Hospital, Eulersche Zahl, e{i·pi} + 1 = 0 ist der schönste Formel der Mathematik.
....... Schubspannung, Resultierende, Summe der Moment, Biegemoment, Festigkeit...
...... Minimexle, Boole'sche, JK-Flipflops, 4bit Zähler, Schieberegister, KV-Diagramm, KNF, DNF...
..... No,
.... I'm
... not
.. crazy
. yet.

wts is taught bad by Chloe. Not my fault.
frog is what the.
Freshmeat + Wine = best is taught by Charles from ALG 5.
Cannot wear shorts to play in Futsal is taught by Daniel the great.
Life is a vacuum cleaner; it sucks is quoted from Pat.
De La Lunaku is a sentimental song taught by Koboi. I improvised the plucking part. Serious.
Playing piano is my ambition. I've downloaded A LOT of piano sheets. Who to teach me?
Qihao is noob is told by Daniel, Again. He told her somemore!!!! He claimed la.
And why the first comment was spammed by dunno who what why.

k la. Enough pretending to be crazy. =P (it's hard to acting...)

Until then.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Draw 1: Chloe

You see, exam is just at the corner of this month. To be precise, the first paper is on the first day of Chinese New Year. And it's very sickening and stressing and tiring to read books, notes, do past years... things got worse when you failed your first semester and have to write 8 papers this semester. The phobia, phobia!!

Nop, I'm not blaming anyone other than myself. Then, study hard.

At the mean time, I tried something that I have not been doing for quite some years - drawing.

As relaxation time, of course. So this is what you got, after 3 hours of dirtying your fingers...









Big thanks Chloe for providing the picture. But then hor, Christmas already over lar! *Malaysian slang, in case you don't understand the sentence.

At first I tried to scan it, but the scanned image was not that good, and the shading was not clear, so I captured this using my camera. This one is unedited ok? But of course, the real drawing looks much much much much nicer =)


My comment on it?
Ok, it was a bit out of shape (the santa head was a bit tooo big. Drew wrongly when sketching it. LoL) before I realized it. Haha, [A]nother [B]IG-HEAD [C]hloe ABC. Then again, it was already long time since I drew a nice picture. So, quite happy and satisfied.


Ok, you guys to comment on it also. Maybe some room for improvisation for me?

Feel like drawing more. But better FACE-BOOK already. Haha.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

不曾说的秘密

今天是2009年1月6日。对不起,本来打算了,今年不再写一些骚扰情绪的文篇,但是…

 

昨天晚上,有个朋友无意中让我挖起一些自己的记忆。

 

想起想起,事情也已足足有十年了吧?这一二三四五六七八九十年来,我都自己保守着这个秘密,从不告诉任何人,也从不应付有人的问起。说真的,我的确吭得非常辛苦,但却从不想让人与我分担,可能是我害怕;害怕大家之间会造成的那个隔离;害怕你们的眼光;害怕你们的嘲笑;害怕很多很多东西。

 

解决问题,说得简单,但从不容易。看过有些人,对方明明根本不爱他,他却拼命地为她死活。你说他傻不傻?他对她的爱,旁观者是不明白的,因为他们都不了解他的心情。同样的,很多东西,亲身经历了,你才能测地的明白它;双手体会了,你才能了解那种感受;深深流血了,才会知道跌倒的痛。

 

对不起,我很惭愧,因为至今,我还是不能对你百分百的坦白。对不起,我知道你也在寻找我那把自信心的钥匙,但是到现在,你都找不到,也不可能会找到,因为它一直以来都在我的口袋里;是我暂时还不能拿出来给你解开那个锁头。希望你了解我的心情。

 

我写在这里,不是想让大家知道,而是没勇气亲口告诉你。或许,有一天吧。但你可要准备很多卫生纸,因为我会哭得很惨、很惨、很惨、很惨。

 

 

祈豪

Friday, January 02, 2009

Scampen 2008

Yea yea, I'm back. Crossed 2008 to 2009 with people from my church and other churches =)

So yea. Let's draw a good 1st post in 2009:

On the 28th, I packed my stuffs, and went for Scampen 2008 organized by my church. Long story, I missed the train due to my "slow-slow-ness" and caused other 4 people to depart late with me, since we're using a Wonderful-Weekend-Ticket (SchöneWochenede Ticket). I think that was my last time of the year doing mistake. And I thought I was going to swallow the €37 all by myself. But luckily they found another schedule that was not too long away from the original one. Sorry and thank you.


So the 4 hours train ride was such a tiring journey. Nevertheless, I was very excited, because it was my first time crossing into Bavaria state. During the train our mentor gave us a "review and outlook" questions, can say "homework" during our stay at Scampen.

So we reached, got our stuffs unpacked and had our dinner. After that we had a small ice-breaking game hosted by Daniel Tang. It was a variation of the animal-acting game that we played in Campus Alive last time. After that it was worship session. That night was my first time doing Praise and Worship for my church with microphones. Was kind of nervous, since I never did anything so big like this before, although I was only a support-guitarist. Although I played some chords wrong and was kind of panic, but the first time was quite a nice memory and praise God for giving me this chance. And yes, worship is not about music, but the heart for God.

And we had our first preach by Pastor Markus Rose. Learned about the Trinity of God and their significants, especially about the Holy Spirit.

Day two, woke up and had breakfast. Then we went for skiing. I did not play, but merely to take photographs. Ok, cause I scare to fall down. NOT . I was simply not in the mood, although seeing the big white snow all across the mountain. So some pictures here...

The view of the town at the bottom of the mountain. This picture was not edited. It looked super nice can!

Sepia.

This one was taken at the peak of the mountain, 2224m above sea level. Looking at the skiiers, they're more like ants. Saw Daniel? I didn't. LoL.

These daring professionals just skiied down from the mountain. There're not even a course, rather a black flag indicating extreme dangerous zone.

I learned the theory of snowboarding from Pastor Steffen. At around 3.30pm I went myself to the peak of the mountain, cause the rest seemed to be more interested in skiing rather sight-seeing. But it was worth a look at the top of the mountain =)

A bench at the peak.

From the top...

Dena, no need you to say, I like this picture too =P


Took quite some pictures, but lazy to edit them. Then I took the 4pm cable car to go down.

While waiting for cable car, the sunset view was a nice view also no?

I reached at the foot of the mountain at 4.30pm. Yea, 2 cable car transits. Oh yea, at 4pm there were Ski Jumping competition there. I was informed by a German who took the cable car went up before that.

Credits to the respective owner.

This wasn't the picture that I took, but you can get the idea from this picture: It's like the jumper slide down a track, at the end of the track he flew up in the sky, and the winner is judged by the landing at the distance traveled. Cool!! Watching it live inside a cable car. Haha.

So then went back for dinner and had a sermon by Pastor Prakich, a Thai who is now in charge of Hope London. He shared with us about moving in the Spirit in the Congregation. After that we went for bed.

Day 3, woke up at 6.30am and did the homework with Jia Jin. It was a very honest discussion and review with Daniel and Jia Jin. Learned a lot about what they see in me. After having breakfast we took rest while the others went for other activities. Then around 2pm Daniel and I walked to the town for some junk food. It was quite nice, not just the scenery, but I was able to have a nice and honest chat with him ^^


So we came back around 4.30pm and got some rest, and dinner on 6pm. After that we had another sermon by Pastor Prakich again, this time about the obstacles to moving in the Spirit. We were opened to the obstacles in spiritual life that hinders us from moving together with the Holy Spirit. Then we had a prayer session and I was given a word of encouragement by CK from Hope Rome. It was actually a verse given by Jia Jin some time ago:

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1. Timothy 4:12 NIV

Day 4, Silvestre. We had our homework session with our mentor, a continueal from the previous session. Then we had breakfast and a talk by Pastor Markus Rose again. We talked about church as our training ground for the outside world. After that we had a small workshop on God's calling. Had fun in changing the lyrics of common song while keeping the melody.

Then since we had nothing to do, we found some people to play monopoly together. It lasted 3 hours and there were deadly streets and ended thanks to Jia Jin the businessman-to-be with his good dealing skills. Haha. Monopoly 伤感情. LoL.

We had great time after dinner in doing review of the year 2008 and the outlook in 2009 together, as well as the focus of our church in 2009. We had Daniel Kopp playing side-flute with Sonata in F minor, if I remember the title correctly. 

It was really superb. Just close your eyes and enjoy the melody.

Then we went to outside for the countdown. I never thought of celebrating new year in snowing scene but it was like... I like it =)


Fireworks set by the Hausherrn. 

It was normal toasting and learned some other language in wish new year, eg in Korean, Thai, and okay, German.

Sehe bo "money"padeseiyo  xD or similar tone I guess.

Sawadi "be-my-club" xD for males in Thai. LoL

No offence to the language.

And soon someone started to act drunk. Everyone also already got excited.

Muacks by Polarbear.


Haha, the best actor with his super expression.

CK and his camera.

From just some snow throw, it soon turned into a snowball fight, although it was really cold to make the ball from bare hands.

Kyeong Ju, our Korean friend, got hit the most I guess. Haha.

I went back to sleep, while the rest continue on partying.

The last day, we had our breakfast at 9am. Then had a briefing and then packed our things and went back.

Yea, 4 hours train-ride again. Good to see you all again.

Some random + camho shots:




Someone had pimple finally on his face.

Photo by Angela.

Photo taken by Angela.



Paula

Sonika Rose
Snowman in 5 minutes. I made it =(

Conclusion, this trip was very fun. Not only I had time to relax down, but also had chance to chit chat and build up fellowship with others. =)

Luckily I came ^^

p/s: more pictures at my Picasa and Facebook too.



1st post in 2009,
Vincent.