Rejoice!

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..

This post is specially dedicated to those of you out there, who seeks the answer of common questions. Special thanks to her for asking these questions to me. Very much thanks to Jia Jin for providing me the answers. And most highly thanks I give to my God, for giving me chance to know His words better.

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I guess some of you know that my grandfather was robbed and cruely beaten in Kuala Lumpur. For your information, he is still unconscious, lying in Cheras Hospital. Although situation had been better, but thinking of those who you cherish the most lying coma, tears fill your eyes, pain pierces your heart, cry speaks you voice, soul seeks for God's healing. This is a kind of suffer.

In another occasion, she told me: "I don't know why I have to suffer like this. This is not what I'm interested in. I don't really like this field. I wonder how's my life if I'm at other places. Maybe I'll be happy there."

Well, I have the answers for both of these issues. I still remembered, it was exactly a week ago, when I told my mentor in details about how sad I am over my beloved grandfather. I was really sad. It was really a suffering to see people who I love lying motionless on the white bed.

Then he gave me few verses in Bible that I think it most probably will help you too. It was also the topic that we wanted to discuss during our one-to-one session. So the first one is taken from Romans 5:3-5:

Not only so, but we (or "let us") also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Rejoice in our sufferings, it is written. Remember, God did not ask us to rejoice BECAUSE of our sufferings, but IN it. Why? Because it produces perseverance, then your personality and quality, then a hope, which does not let us down. Sounds abstract? Not really convinced? here's another one, taken from *James 1:2-4*:

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Thus believe me, my friends, as well as believe in Him. The sufferings that you are going through now are not just merely something that make mickey out of you. They will grow the determination in you, which will then shape out your quality, to make you mature and complete, not in short of anything. Therefore, remember this: Rejoice always!

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.

Philippians
4:4-5

And you might shout out now: Rejoice! Yes. Rejoice! But then again, how to show that you are rejoicing? How, in the first place, to differentiate between joy and happy? But worry not. Jia Jin gave me the solution for this complicated matter:

Joy:
1. Attitude of gratitude
2. By giving
3. Services
4. Sharing Christ with others

So rejoice always!

The second is about making choices. It's actually also a problem of mine. I hate making decisions. I care and concern about the consequences of each of the options so much, to the extend that I am always drawn back when the crossroad comes. But well, the senior told me not to dwell in the past. I talked to him about how I really feel about the Nice trip...

Yes, indeed I did went to so many places, met wonderful people, observed indescribable sceneries, gained valuable experiences of life. But deep in my heart, I was longing back on that day, when I was about to make the decision. I thought I should go to church instead. Thinking back, the Nice trip although fun, but left me a deep wound - I was then sick and am still sick now. I was thinking, if I chose to go church, I most probably am healthy now. Mixture of ooze and scarlet red blood would not be sneezed out from my nose nowadays. I could have even running around, happily, without all these tiredness weighing on me.

I was quite doubtful about my situation. Same goes to you. You might think stepping into INTEC and studying subjects that you don't like, is a bad choice. You might think that your talent in designing or public speaking or drawing is wasted. You might say getting JPA scholarship is a suffering journey. But be reminded of Romans 5:3-5, my friends. You might suffer now, but you know the perseverance, the character, and the hope ahead of you. So, rejoice in sufferings!

So I tell you my story, after hearing what he told me, I understand, every situation that we go through, it's a way of growing mature. Yes, sometimes we might made a wrong decision. But mourn not over it. Think it like this: It's a lesson for you, so that you will not repeat the same thing again. And you won't do it again. Isn't that trains you to be better? And if you apply it into some other situations, you will collect some valuable time.

Learning process is not easy. It is never meant to be easy. Therefore, be tough, be strong, be faithful, be loyal, and with the power of God, you can excel in your future. Remember 1 Corinthians 10:13:

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.


It's yet another long post. Sorry, these are my thoughts. And these are specially dedicated to you. You know who you are. Come to think of it, getting JPA scholarship wasn't a bad choice afterall, right? ;P


Vincent

给妈妈的一个问候

妳是否知道，我现在在哭泣？

妳知不知道，我现在很想妳？

今天，我和妈妈网上聊天。想来想去，原来我真的很少时间真正和她聊天。每一次我都不专心地草草与她谈过话。今天，我放一点心与时间与她聊聊，才发现原来眼泪会情不自禁的落了下来。今天，我发现，原来我只是外表不想家，其实，我真的很想回家看看大家。

我，原来也只不过是那么软弱。
我，原来也蛮想念妈妈的。
我，原来很爱妈妈的。

好久不见了，妈妈。我八月回家了。机票也买了，哥哥、姐姐、弟弟，爸爸，大家，我要回家了。

只是讲了这么短的话，我已经哭了。


..:: *+ 我和妈妈的对白 +*::..
Poring (sighz)... says (2:54 PM):
oo
hao,
Poring (sighz)... says (2:55 PM):
u muz try ur best to save money
other than eating nutritious food
Poring (sighz)... says (2:57 PM):
save money for future use
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (2:57 PM):
ok ok
how's things in huz?
Poring (sighz)... says (2:58 PM):
as usual
everybody is getting older
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (2:58 PM):
lol
of cuz
but y say so?
Poring (sighz)... says (2:58 PM):
i felt it greatly these days
Poring (sighz)... says (2:59 PM):
n beginning to c that u children heading for ur own lifves
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (2:59 PM):
lol
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:00 PM):
mom, come on
without u we r nothing
we heading our ways because u did a lot for us to walk to the direction tat we wan
Poring (sighz)... says (3:01 PM):
thank you for being aware of that
Poring (sighz)... says (3:02 PM):
i really hope this time when u come back
v whole family can take a family photo
Poring (sighz)... says (3:03 PM):
that's why i need ur exact dates that u r at kch
so that can ask bing han to come back also
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:04 PM):
ok
Poring (sighz)... says (3:04 PM):
what u think?
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:04 PM):
i think i go back kch around 1st of sept?
not sure la
Poring (sighz)... says (3:04 PM):
u plan first
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:05 PM):
in the mean time, u check around c got when got cheap ticket
Poring (sighz)... says (3:05 PM):
once confirm baru tell me
k
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:05 PM):
ok
Poring (sighz)... says (3:06 PM):
put more times on ur studies lo if u can
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:06 PM):
ok
will do
haiz
Poring (sighz)... says (3:08 PM):
bing han coming back kch on 2may
Poring (sighz)... says (3:09 PM):
n wendy will b back to kl on 3may
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:09 PM):
they all come back until when?
Poring (sighz)... says (3:09 PM):
wendy is at kch now
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:09 PM):
september they got holiday meh?
Poring (sighz)... says (3:10 PM):
aug wendy got 1 week holiday
may be come back during weekend or what lo
Poring (sighz)... says (3:11 PM):
if no more holidays
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:11 PM):
binghan leh?
Poring (sighz)... says (3:11 PM):
bing han going back sing on 10 may, if not mistaken
he got duties to perform
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:11 PM):
ok
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:12 PM):
i mean he got come back on sept?
Poring (sighz)... says (3:12 PM):
i guess d float again
plan first
maybe during weekend
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:12 PM):
wow, u wan weekend they all come back?
Poring (sighz)... says (3:13 PM):
see how first
if can make it
if not also nvm
*+γÏηÇξאţ+*™- טιדῐМʎʈξρǏҫҤʊ says (3:13 PM):
ok
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就这么简单对白，也就这么简单得哭了。
我，好想回到从前，当我一直想留在你们身旁的感觉。



祈豪

MASAF 2008, Nice - Part 2 (End)

..:: *+Small Talk +*::..
As promised... 2nd part of Nice trip. Sorry for having to wait so long for this post because I've fallen asick for the whole week and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. Still can't believe that my nose can generate soooooooo many slimes. Good thing is, I finally have chance to use up some of the tissue papers that I bought 3 months ago. =.=
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So on the Saturday morning, 20080412, we woke up early and had breakfast. Bought this ticket again to travel to the badminton court.

1 Euro one way for 74 minutes. Haha, come my room and see my collections of these tickets.

Pont Michel. It's the end-station of the street-train. The direction that we travelled together.


The flowers. My current wallpaper. Still endulging in my photographic skill~

Another masterpiece of art of mine. Nice?

Some self-taking photos~

And after some dreadful and sleepy ride, we arrived at the "badminton court". Mark my writing technic. Well, there were some unpleasant unexpectations that I would not like to mention. But still, here were some of the pictures that I gathered.

Me in action... The photo was not stabilized before taking. Sigh.

Me in double... Partner with the best player from Ulm.

Not my racket. Roy's. But it helped me, a lot.

My worny pair of shoe. It also helped me a lot. Too bad, it's now stinky and would be replaced soon.

After great and tough matches, I won. Both single and double title, as promised, that I would do my best in the competition to make it a win. Then, Say Sean suddenly suggested to go Monaco. We made a quick thought. "Tomorrow is Sunday and no shop will open. Better go today, although it's already 3pm." This was our thought. So we dumped out badminton stuffs with a senior and went to bus terminal and paid for the €1 ticket to Monaco. The journey actually was not long, but due to traffic jam, walking by foot would take just a little longer than sitting in a bus.

Anyway, after the long ride in the hot bus, we arrived at Monaco. We walked around the coastal area. Then off we went to find the must-see landmark - The Monaco's Casino.

Cool right?

The four of us. From left - The so-called manager Wei Chung, Che Sohairy, Lay Sean, and me.

The fountain in a park in front of the Casino. We didn't go in. Good boys and good girl =)
Picture of me, in Monaco.
At the shipdock. Starting from my right side in the picture, there were lots and lots of big big ships, which owned by super-rich people.
Another photographic capture. I like it too!
Trying out new technic to snap photos.
Ferrari. Nice exhaust sound. Nice engine. Nice visual. Nice in Nice. Nice in price too! :P
Another fountain. Very nice~
The passage to the underground train station ( Should it be called subway?). Notice that the path was super-super long? You still need to get 2 floors above after reaching the end. @.@
Shape of love at the wall of the passage. Love love where are you? :P My God has prepared the most beautiful girl for me.
This was the proof that I went to Monaco. This was the signboard at the platform.

Dinner before going back. €14.

Reached back, and slept due to tiredness. The next day, Sunday morning, we took bus again. But this time to other place - Eze Village. Actually we were tracking down for a famous lavender field. But in the end we turned out to be at the wrong place. T,T

In the bus Wei Chung and me sat opposite of two girls. Opposite of mine was a sweet one. She was just a normal Chinese girl. But due to her cool sunglasses and 嘟嘟嘴 I can't stop myself from looking at her. She's the one that I meant in my previous-previous-previous post. Initially we didn't know she's a Chinese.I ask Wei Chung:"该不该偷拍她?" And we discussed a bit. Then after a while we heard her talking Mandarin to her friend. Sweat ran through our foreheads. We spoke in Malay:"Celaka. Tak tahu mereka orang China. Malunya~"

So after reaching there, we realized that Eze Village was also another tourist attraction. It has a hill. On top of the hill there is a Cactus garden. We climbed to the top. And €5 per head per entry was paid for the entrance fee.

Cactus cactus cactus~
Cactus and me.

I like this cactus' flower. =)
Another photographic attempt.

Yeps yeps. Another.
Yup yup yup! Another. Real rose, I keep, for my real valentine =)

Eze Village was not very fun, as in not having lots of attractions. And the bus service to the place was not frequent. After a long dreadful wait, we hopped into the finally-coming bus. We went to city centre in Nice after arriving for lunch.
My lunch. The fish was not really nice. So was the rice.

So after lunch we went for the prize giving ceremony at the football field. Apparently German team totally owned in the football field.

Then, here came the prize-giving ceremony~

Single Champion - my gold and me.

Double Champion - my gold, my badminton partner and me.

Germany Rocks! Saw the trophy? I contributed 33.33% for the trophy yet I didn't even have chance to lay a hand on it. They said in My_Heilbronners, who want to touch it, go to Hannover for Rentap'08.

This is me, and Lay Sean. Both conquered the badminton arena. Each contributed 33.33% for the trophies. Both didn't touch the trophy at all. Ahaha, she'll be my next MGSS 09 Mix double partner I guess. LoL.

Anyway, these were all the updates about the competition at Nice, France. If you interested in other pictures that I took, please go 88ultimatepichu88's picasaweb. It's my new google mail account that I use solely for storing pictures online so that you all can look around, give comments or download pictures that you think are nice. Thank you.




Vincent

当我不能使用互联网

DJ DJ DJ DJ~

..::*+ Small Talk +*::..

I just came back from church's Frühlingsparty (spring party). Tired, exhausted. Still, I want to post this entry. As for the 2nd part of the France trip, next post ya! Sorry

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Yes, if you want to find hapiness in this post, sorry guys I failed your wish, once again. I'm now actually really disturbed. Not because of you, but myself. I can't stop thinking, why am I so useless?

After all these while since someone commented me as a person who is useless, I tried to be somebody else. I tried to change, wearing glasses is one of it. I tried to learn to make decision, the wise one of course. I've tried so hard, and yet so far, but in the end it doesn't even matter. Because after tonight, despite all the encouragements and the support, I still felt the uselessness of me. I screwed event. The Spring Party. I ruined it. Everything was fine just before I took over. Sigh.

When he asked me to handle it, I said yes.
When he walked out that door, I thought I could do it.
When I started the music, I ruined it.

The spring party supposed to be a hype. When it came to the dancing sessions, everyone were supposed to dance all the way, unstoppable, intoxicatinating, enjoying, jumping, screaming. Yes, thanks to this DJ-to-be, these elements, alright, alright, were seen, but lasted not long. I brought in bassic (is there such word?) and fast tempo songs. Everyone started to dance. The atmosphere was building its way to the peak. 2nd song came in. And the 3rd. I was supposed to enchance the mood. Bring it to the top. Everything were supposed to be fine...

And I placed a song, slightly slower, lesser bass. The atmosphrere fell down, very very fast. Everyone was before dancing and singing, suddenly stopped.

My fault?
My fault.

I brought the wrong song in. She came, requesting fast-beat songs. He came, asking the same request - exactly the same words in German. Another she came, asking for hip-hop-genre songs. Sweat ran through my forehead. I was searching for the songs. I was digging through the whole playlist. He came, passed me some music discs, and I thought this was a great help for me. In the end, I didn't know which song to play, because the name of the songs were not written.

Panic was how I describe myself back then. Pressured. Compressed brain. He offered to help me. Great thanks. Working with two music playlists in 2 different computer was really a pain in the ass/brain/eyes/ear/wherever-part-you-name-it. Further more, dealing things in Winamp was a job that I never do. Why use Winamp instead of Windows Media Player? I'm not blaming. Just that, I'm noob in Winamp. Real noob. I didn't use Winamp anymore since primary six I think. Due to panic, I accidentally removed the playlist that he sorted for me. I called him, sought for help. "Reinforcements have arrived!" I found back the tracks. Dragged into Winamp. Pressed the play button. The player couldn't detect the songs, and skipped to the next, next and next, and next. What's your problem? Ggrrrhhh...

And in total, after Steffen and Tobi tried many times to bring the crowds to the dance floor, I brought down the atmosphrere twice while the one who helped me once.

I hate myself. Why like this? It was supposed to go on peacefully. I felt down, very very down. Tired, and exhausted, but I met no satisfaction. Tears rolling in my eyes. Kept telling myself guys should not drop tears if possible. I couldn't help it. I really felt like crying. Sigh. Really!

After today, I learnt that to be a DJ is not simple. I learnt that I'm really not good. When I thought of music, I play a little guitar. But it's not enough. He can play drum, piano, keyboard, guitar, saxaphone, GRSS band conductor, state representative in sports, studies result extraordinarily excellent, top runner, long jump, crazy footballer... and the list goes on. He is really an outstander in school. But me? What can I see in myself? Yes I saw something, but it's just a word - loser.

Tonight his bed will leave the essence from my eyes. I feel like crying. Lousy I am. I am really weak. Why didn't I pray to Him, to ask help? Only you understand, only you feel sad. What a gooood start to be a DJ. Long way, sigh.

*edited*: helpless hopeless. But still, I love my God. And God, the ever-loving God, still love us deeply and madly. And We love you too.



Vincent

MASAF 2008, Nice - Part 1

..::*+Small Talk +*::..
Being sick, is nothing fun at all. Can't even concentrate myself to hear what the lecturers said. Time just ticked pass me. I want back my healthy body. What's the point of winning gold medals but in the end destroy my physical body?
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On the 10th April 2008 18:00 GMT +1:00, a young guy was seen with a backpack, a pullable handluggage and a badminton bag running around in the midst of the Heilbronn city, place where bullets were made during the era of World War II. This young guy was seen chasing for a bus which was moving in the direction towards Heilbronn Hauptbahnhof (Heilbronn Main Train Station). As soon as he got into the bus, sweat was seen dipping down from his hairs, and his black Australia T-Shirt was halfly soaked the solution which contains Sodium Chloride.

He was so clumsy that he almost forgot to punch his 4-ier Karte, which, if caught, would have to pay €40,00 as punishment. He hopped into the train, had some rest, and took a photo of himself. His name is Vincent Goh.


The 45 minutes just flew passed and I stepped into the familiar Stuttgart Hauptbahnhof (Hbf). I saw none Malaysian. I began to worried. After some dreadful searches, finally, I found Lay Sean, Wei Chung and Che Sohairy. They came from Ulm. Anyway, not soon after that, the others joined in. We all actually were waiting for our bus from Köln. Due to some unforseen circumstances, they came exactly 2 hours late. It was worst than Malaysian time. Wonder where they´re from. After loading those heavy luggages into the bus, we all departed in this double-decker under the moonlight.

The journey was seriously unpleasant. 10 hours sitting in a bus, crossing Switzerland, Italy, and finally came back into France. By the time we reached Nice, I´m already a half-dead-fish. So it was friday afternoon by the time we got there. Driving a big bus inside a crowded city was not easy task at all. After stucking at lots of places, we reached our hotel, Hotel le Berne.

welcome, my brothers and sisters, to the ville de Nice.

Child: Mommy "rela" to carry a teddy bear than me T,T.

It's a "Jaein" answer, combination of "ja (yes)" and "nein (no)". She was indeed carrying a teddy bear, which inside hold another baby. LoL.

We unloaded stuffs from the bus and checked in in the hotel. After taking shower and had some rest, we decided to walk around Nice. First we went to KFC to have our lunch. The Malays were so happy because KFC here was halal.


KFC, that's where I want to be~

Then we went for the beach, since it should be very nice. And yes, it was really such a pleasant and nice scenery! Even the journey to the beach was great!

Nike Swoosh - just do it!

Nice fountain eh?

After some stroll, here we were at the beach!

Nice right? Seriously it was worth for visits... The breeze, the sea water, the saltiness, the cooling air, seriously, I enjoyed it very much. When were the last time I went to beach? Oh yea, at Pahang during Karisma '07.

So we walked around, visiting those souvenior shops, looking for interesting scenes. These were pictures that I took during the stroll in Nice.

Wonder why I took picture of the traffic lights? Look carefully, got mini traffic lights at the lower part of the post. You need not to be giraffe to check whether it's good to go.

A statue. Beside the casino.

The park...
Barisan National lost badly in Malaysia. They decided to make a change - "bertapak" at Nice.

This is the main train station in Nice. What a cool building.

Here came the most important part. I attent the opening ceremony dinner. So, around 1800 GMT +1, I prepared myself up - putting on my when-flying-to-Germany formal shirt. Gave my hair some gel that I didn't ask permission from the owner. Making myself look smart, and went to the venue along with other attendees with the public bus. =.=

This is me, salty after the breeze of salts..

The aeroplane is flying to the east... when will be my turn to be in it and go east? :'(

Just playing with some photography. Learning ok? =.= want to buy those DSL-R thingy when rich enough. Alright alright, this photo was taken in the hotel. Some open air space. After some breathe we went in for the dinner.

A drink. But guess what it is? Sprite? 7up? No, it's just gased mineral water with some carboxylic acid. Don't know which clever people telling the hotel people to provide mineral water.

Starter dish - Mesclun salad from Nice with vegetable flakes, large prawns with parsley and emulsion of citrus fruits and basil.

Main dish - Sea bream with spices, wok of crunchy vegetables with vermicelli.

Appetizer - Royal crunchy chocolate, cacao sirop.

That's all. Yes. Don't laugh. A dinner with 3 dishes. You know why? Because the main event is below.

Saw who this is already or not? He is Malaysia's Education Minister - YB Datuk Seri Hishammuddin Tun Hussein. I stood beside him.

Ho ho ho~ Who is this beautiful lady? She is Datuk Seri's wife =) What an honour :P

This is the nightview of Nice. I like the blue lights~

I reached back hotel around 0030 the next day. Others who did not go for the dinner already asleep. I was really really tired. The next day I still had badminton competition.

Well, the dinner although it's just very little dishes, but it took quite long time because there was an Question and Answering session. The first public QnA session after the general election. Well, of course, most of us who were in foreign countries were really curious about what really happened in Malaysia's General Election. The Government Barisan National (BN) suffered the worst defeat, losing 5 states to the Barisan Alternatif (BA), in which important states, such as Penang, Perak, Selangor and even Wilayah Persekutuan, BN failed to rule. Kuala Lumpur, Capital of Malaysia and also the Federal Government Centre is now under BA. Capital should shift to Sarawak or Johor, maybe?

But anyway, this defeat really brought BN some valuable lessons, at least. Judging from the way Datuk Seri responed the questions asked by students, I couldn't stop thinking that this time, BN would be the BN in 50 years ago. As in BN would learn to be humble and acceptive, learn to fight for the Rakyat and learn to be smarter. From the past until now, BN were like Melacca, ruling and conquering the whole country. Now, without the 2/3, both BN and BA must learn how to tolerate with each other, for the sake of the country. If not, Malaysia will hardly develop. Indeed, to most of the political analyzers, they looked at this as a sight of maturity of the country. The rakyat started to learn to think. Just that in my opinion, they voted BA because they don't want to vote for BN, not because they want BA to be the government.

Although there are still a long way to go, but I guess BN has enough time to check back it's paces, to think more critically and to adapt to the world of ICT. Television is not the only source to brainwash the citizens, therefore, setting limits in the publication of news is not a wise choice. A long way to go, and I don't think the next General Election will be a "clean-sweep" by BN, unless they manage to implant the assurance in the Rakyat's heart.

But funny thing is, why everyone blames others for the lost? Why even inside BN and UMNO cracks exist? There are rumours everywhere. And to me, Pak Lah is too soft in handling things. Some caricature was really funny:

Kami mahukan pemimpin, bukanya pemimpin, with graphics showing all the sleepy looks of Pak Lah.

Anyway, I see this result as a symbol of maturity of Malaysia politics. Rakyat will no longer follow blindly as how it happened in the past, with exceptions in Sabah and Sarawak. Well, BN in Sabah and Sarawak remain near-total unbeaten because of the lack of awareness of the people. Trust me, if things going on like this, the next city fall to DAP is Sibu.

Wow, went into politics too much. Alright, that's all for the Day1 report during the Nice trip. 2nd part coming soon. 3rd part? I don't think I want to make it that long =)

Vincent

中文版 - 我的丑陋10样

..::*+前言+*::..
最近大家都奇奇怪怪的，一位一位都用华文来写部落。再次又被大家的“疾病”感染上了，心血来潮，虽然事实上我是真的很累，但我也再次来个华语版部落吧！
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祈豪啊祈豪，有时候总觉得自己也是个大骗子，明明说好的东西，答应过的肯定，却到头来牛头不对马脚，还要找各种不同但新鲜的借口来欺骗别人。常常告诉自己，能做得到的事情才去接受，办不到的就让别人去干，或许效果会比较好。但固执的我却样样都吭起来，以为自己是超级英雄，到头来成事不足，败事有余。对着自己傻笑，装可爱，扮酷！冷...

1. 想起当时，答应了嘉进前辈要开始读 "The Purpose Driven Life" ，答应了40天无中断30分钟来研究书里的知识。到了现在，这诺言也应该有一个月了吧？但那本书还是摆在书架上没动过，盛灰尘。可笑不可笑？

2. 还记得当年，我对他说，我和她只是朋友罢了，我怎会喜欢她？结果，我反了口，和他惹来了不少的相煎，翻了几个小时的脸，吵了不少的架。虽然现在答应自己和主，只保持现有的感情，其他的让祂来决定，但这颗心，还是主最了解。叹...

3. 也还记得当年，我对他说，我是真的真的很爱她，她是我的唯一，还发什么誓的，说永远只会爱她一个，还对他说了什么像香港连续剧里的“你要好好照顾她”之类的对白。但现在不但忘了她是我的前女友，还互相吵了起来，搞到朋友都不知还是不是。朋友一块儿去巴黎游玩，她连约我一份都没有，你说好笑不好笑？

4. 第一天正式成为基督教徒，答应了自己，天天晚上睡觉之前要读经文、祷告、感恩主，结果现在把电脑和互联网当成是神之类的，天天对着它，甚至忘了主，想起想起都有不少惭愧。

5. 来了德国，答应自己，要好好读书，用心听课，不明白就请教老师，要抱着打破沙锅问到底的精神，努力向学，做好榜样，洁身自爱，不懒懒散散，天天进步。结果在班上，最成功的只不过是问身旁德国人一些简单的问题罢了。想当年还说什么不再看女子，别再犯同样的错误。结果不知谁昨天在法国还说有个中国女孩挺可爱一些的... =.= 真是的！3年前在INTEC当时好像也说过一模一样的话...

6. 当天，告诉妈妈我会好好照顾自己，省点钱，别让家人担心... 3年前也说了同样的话，结果不知打了几通电话回家求援助，现在我们华人银行里钱最少的是我，但房间里也没什么超级超贵的物品，钱去了哪儿？唯一的可能性只有肚子... 哦对了！还有19欧元还摸不着去了哪儿...

7. 说来说去有时候觉得自己其实已经蛮成熟一下的，是她不懂得珍惜我罢了，但有时候，自己做了一些傻的东西，还大骂自己该死！她是该离开我的 =.=

8. 更记得当年，我说我永远不会和他做好朋友的，结果现在关系还挺好的！永远恨他？突然间觉得我真是太温柔了...

9. 答应了嘉进前辈很多东西，我看到头来他真的会笑爆了肚子。

10. 最惨的是，答应了主许多东西，不再做一些不健康的活动，吃不健康的东西，但到头来，诱惑还是战胜了理性，想起来，今天又犯了这个规，真想哭...

叹~为什么我总是这样子的？20岁要到了，老了老了，但性格还向一个小孩的。救救我啊！
只希望自己会好一些...

不过说实在的，自从有了主，我的生活开始美妙起来了！安娜、昌顺说得对：

人在成长过程中，难免会遇到挫折，
懂得保护自己，也要懂得爱自己，
生命的乐章要看你自己如何去谱写！
躲避不一定躲得过，面对不一定最难受，
得到不一定能长久，失去不一定不再有，
转身不一定最软弱，别急着说别无选择，
别以为世界上只有对与错，许多事情的答案都不只一个，
所以我们永远都有路可以走，
你能找到理由难过，也一定能找到快乐，
懂得放心的人找到轻松，
懂得遗忘的人找到自由，
懂得关怀的人找到朋友！

很多人在我生命中最黑暗的阶段给了我不少的支持，鼓励，劝导，问候，温暖，安心... 我感激的心、回复都还没给他们，但我还是要说：“谢谢你们，我的朋友！”

每当我再度回我那本纪念册，唯一的遗憾是不知那群整天把事情搞得鸡犬不宁的小朋友们在里面写了些什么韩语，想找人来翻译又怕他们写我的坏话，真是的！不过，每一次读起那本书，眼泪都会自然而然的留了下来。感动...哭了一整晚，泪水也不知陪伴了我多少个晚上，模模糊糊的睡着在泪海里...

法国之旅，下一封部落再谈吧！现在该歇息几天，好好整理那300++张的照片！



祈豪

A crying heart

Talk about life... Why things have to be like this?
Malaysians, the so-called-to-be-well-known Malaysians... This is how you look like actually?

To walk this sort of path? To steal, to rob, to beat, to hit, to punch, to injure?
To talk with boast, to be impatient?
To say without meaning it, to do without thinking it?
To take life for granted? To look at life easily? To take other people's life easily?

Come on. I want to be proud of being a Malaysian. But born in the same country with the sorts like you, how can I call myself a truly Malaysian? Shame filled within me because of you people.

Where is your humanity, oh Malaysians? Similar incident happened in Germany, the political parties roared. In Malaysia, it is all normal. Peaceful and harmony. The fatique mask.

Malaysians. You name yourself. You think twice before you do things.

At last, he is still in hospital, laying unconcious. What actually had happened, I don't know. Condition might not be good. Life might at the gate between living and dead. If you hear me, guilty will you feel? If you did it, remorse will you have? If it happened to you, will you want it to be like this?

Generations overtake generations. When good replaced by bad. When bad replaced by worse. When worse replaced by worst. When worst replaced by evil. An evilutionary of human.

In less than 20 years celebrates him a century. Yet dare you did it. Where is your human sense?

Malaysians.
Tears leaking from my heart. Disappointment filled my mind.

Crying, is how I describe my heart.

Please, grow up.

Please, pray for my grandfather.

GET WELL SOON. Yahweh Rophe, the LORD who heals, hear the prayer of this crying heart, that You will heal him, oh LORD. Take away the pain, heal his wounds, recover his conciousness. In Jesus's most mighty name I pray.

Vincent

Wonderful weekend @ Konstanz

Chicken chicken chicken... Cute cute cute!

I really like this design. See there're words on the wall? It's not projectiled, but it's what we call application of physic - Light absorbtion principle.

The steamboat...

Me playing guitar. Can consider to join the "Jiwang" group LoL.

I am still learning - learn how to take a nicer photo

It has been a tiring weekend. It has been yet another record week for me. It has been another weekend that I really felt exhausted. It has been another weekend that I very happy with. It was a weekend that was very relaxing, enjoying, being myself, my laughter, my life.

..Day 1..

A sum of last week gave me a sigh. Lectures that I didn't understand. I fell asleep unwilling in Grundlagen Technischen Zeichnen. I did not want to, I did not mean to. Sigh. Anyway, I spent a whole dreadful Thursday afternoon watching over my beloved watch, just to see the time seconds by seconds ticked away. At last, 1530pm! I picked up my bag, half-running back to my hostel. I couldn't wait. A weekend mini-trip!

I packed up my stuffs and ran to bus stop. Due to some unpunctuality of the bus, I missed my train. So need to wait at Train station. I bought a birthday car for Ah Pau. People were 21 years old. I'm still 19. Swt. Can't wait to taste the sensation of changing from 20-21. Will be very meaningful, aye?Anyway, Pau's birthday was celebrated at KFC. Yes, there is one at Untertürkheim. Heilbronn don't have, luckily. Anyway, it was a fun day.

..Day 2..

The next day I did nothing but starring in front of my laptop that I brought along. Hoping to chat to some of people. People who I care and appreciated, and love. Sadly, NONE of them replied. Anyway, thank you, Ah Yu, for accompaniying me throughout the lonely morning and afternoon. After that, we had brief dinner and went to church. We had small prayers and talked about FreundeKries. We had an evening service, and we overnighted once again in church. I like overnighting in church. A place where I can really lay down and rest.

..Day 3: Konstanz Missionary Trip..

We were supposed to depart at 6.30am, but thanks to me, we departed at 7.00am. Sigh. Reached Konstanz around 9.30am and were welcomed by "Andersen's brother". He' just a senior who currently doing Diplomarbeit (if not mistaken) at Friedrichshafen. His name is Zhang Zi, but I gave him that name because he really looked like Andersen of ALG11 =.= I really thought he is his brother. Anyway, went in the common kitchen room and were welcomed by Kie Yee, who was preparing breakfast for us. After our stomach was filled with food, we went to the hostel's special room, especially for Christianity activities. We sang some songs and played some musics with guitar. Then Steffen, our church leader, gave us talk about the vision of the church. It was supposed to be 4 2-hours sessions, but was summarized into 2 hours. Although it was just brief, but we, especially Daniel and me, got to know the vision of the church. Then we went for lunch and went to watch the aweful Arsenal vs limpy Liverpool. Sorry not to insult these both teams, but that match was quite tensed and didn't look nice at all.

Then we had football session. In the end, I think I scored only a goal. But the pain from the badminton competition in Ulm is still taking its toll on me. Pain. Tired. Then we went for a steamboat dinner! Home-made of course, and I really enjoyed the session. We learnt each other more, we understand others more. The food was simply amazing and nice to be in my mouth. I missed food in Malaysia. After dinner, we enjoyed playing musics. Not just Christian songs, but also some famous songs like those from Beyond, Jay Chou, Robbie Williams, Ronan Keating, etc. It was a great time there. I really enjoyed the night very much. After the tiring session, we all went to sleep. I slept on the floor, hid inside a sleeping bag, which made me look exactly like a caterpillar. :)

..Day 4: Church ..

We departed at 10.30am to come back to Stuttgart, after we had our breakfast. After we came back, had some rest and lunch, then we started our Sunday Service. It was, as usual, great and Steffen gave wonderful speech and discussed just a small quote from 1 Corinthians 16:19-24:

Final Greetings

The churches in the province of Asia send you greetings. Aquila and Priscilla greet you warmly in the Lord, and so does the church that meets at their house. All the brothershere send you greetings. Greet one another with a holy kiss.

I, Paul, write this greeting in my own hand.

If anyone does not love the Lord - a curse be on him. Marana tha (Come, O Lord!)

The grace of the Lord Jesus be with you.

My love to all of you in Christ Jesus. Amen.

Just this small part in the ending of 1 Corinthians Steffen talked a lot to us. Things that I never thought of, things that I've forgotten... He reminded me. After some refreshments we had Lobpreis and after that, we set our foot back to Heilbronn.

It was indeed a great time in Konstanz. It was the second place we came, if you insisting to count Frankfurt as the first place. Anyway, it was great to return to see the sceneries once again. It looked so nice. I wonder how will it look like during summer? Heard that it would be very very nice. i wish to pay another visit there some time in the future.

I'm so excited over guitar. Can't stop myself from strumming it. Want to learn more about guitar. Started to gather some guitar chords and scores for Christians songs. Hope one day I can serve in church. A longtime planning :)

Actually I want to thank Steffen a lot too. Awhile ago I prayed to God to help me find back the reasons of my life. This and that emo posts told you I was bugged by problems, if you got follow up my blog. And God just answered my prayers by sending brother Steffen to show me the way. Now I'm really cheered up again. I found again the "Uhmm~~~" to go on my life again. Thank you, both Steffen and God. You are very magnificent. God is real, all the time :)

Well, if you are someone who care about me, love me, think of me, consider me as a friend, or whatever, if you have free time, please include me in your prayer. I am currently not fully recovered, and the badminton competition in Nice, France will take place in this coming weekend. I need to have faith in Him. I need strength. I need His strength again. I know clearly, without His help, I cannot do this alone. Me myself is not enough. Therefore, please pray for me so that I can win this competition. Dato' Seri Hishammudin Tun Hussein Onn will be there. I will have dinner with him too. I need to wear back the formal shirt that I left behind in the closet. It will surely be another wonderful memory in Germany. But ultimately, I will pray really hard and faithfully this week. I just wish that I can win this time too. Help me ya! Thank you in advance.

Pray truely for me, and I'll treat you all, like what I did last time. Haha. Just kidding. If so I'll go broke. But anyway, pray for me. It is really something that will be very meaningful in my life. Okie?

Vincent

Testimony 1: MGSS Badminton Competition 2008

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Well, I guess I want to keep a known records of His works and miracles in my life. I want to tell everyone that He's alive in me.
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I felt so grateful now. It was indeed a great time during my stay at Ulm. I had wonderful time there. I knew more and better about the seniors. I enjoyed touring around. I had my first sweetest memory in Germany.

After winter, spring will come eventually. After hiding in trees for a period of time, the squirrels come out to enjoy the sunshine. After being dead for such a long time, the flowers and grasses grow again. After being such a sad winter time, the surprising spring comes.

Yes. I had lots of people to thank for the gold medal that I earned. First and foremost, I’m very grateful to Amir, for all the troubles to snap photos for me. I thank my fellow friends, for giving me supports and cheers, especially during the final. I thank the audience, for watching my game. I thank Teong Hee, for giving me advices and supports and being my last-minute temporary coach. He was the one that reminded me about aiming future, but walking to the reality. About gaining points by points instead of reaching out far. I really felt thankful, because the whole day I was aiming for the gold medals only, without looking even at my own.

However, the One who I really thankful from the bottom of my heart is no one else other than my beloved God. It was another moment where I really shout out loud: “God is REAL, ALL THE TIME!” Without Him, I could not even win this defeating-to-be match. The final match.

I started my games with just simple prayers, and not really seriously asking God to lead me, to be honest. And so my first match began – Men Single against my course mate a.k.a ex-classmate. I won, not quite easily. And then came my first Men Double. It’s alright. Not much problems, except some minor grunts. I started to get tired. Then my 2nd Men Double came. We drew the match. I was quite frustrated, as it was a match that we should have won. Sigh. Then my 2nd Men Single. The matches just went on, until semi-finals, where I met last year’s champion. He played too many games and was tired, so I won against him quite easily. But the pain, tiredness started to show their effects. I lost my semi-final Men Double.


Then my Men Single final came. I was really really tired, as played non-stop from before quarter-final until final. My opponent was Sashi, a super senior of mine. I played with him quite some times and I understand his playing styles, that’s why I knew, with my situation that time, there was no way for me to win at all. But still I continued to play. The first set was quite fast and I could hardly catch up his pace, as always. He is good in controlling shuttles, especially his unique cross-court netting. It is a technique that able to change direction of the shuttle in the last minute, so you will never know which way it will go. So, basically I looked foolish chasing the ball around. In advance, his shots were perfectly executed, so I lost my first set.

I was quite depressed that time, not to mention about how loud the crowds cheering for him. But I couldn’t blame them. I told myself, I need to analyze my first set. I put down my racket, looking at the court. My mind was spinning for ideas and my previous mistakes. Then, I closed my eyes. I placed the cross into my palm and talked to God in heart. Oh Father God, please give me strength. You know how much I wish to win this game. Please give me strength, just a little more, to finish this game. Whether it will be a win or a lose, it’s never mind. Take full charge of this game Lord, I surrender everything into Your hand. YOU PLAY THE GAME.

I opened my eyes, picked up my half-dying weapon, reloading myself with His power and continued. Everything started to go by my way. Strength flowed into me, not to mention the increment in accuracy of my shots. His work is very mysterious. I never see Him in real, but I felt His presence. With His reinforcement, I won the 2nd set.

The 3rd set went on. I was filled with supplies from the heaven – I felt tired too, but compare to before, I was stronger. Everything was going fine with me. I gained points by points. Victory approached. I could not believe that I won in the end. I won.


I won.


I won.


My tiredness, my fight.
His strength, His glory.

Yes. I praised Him for granting me this wish. A dream that I found back, finally. Although I didn’t win double-title, it was a great moment for me. A wonderful experience with God. I never know I will win. I was very tired. Imagine playing an important match after 12 matches. I cannot do it without Him. That’s why I felt thankful for Him. Our wonderful God had yet showed another miracle in my life. When I was weak, because of him, I was stronger.

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be open to you.

Matthew 7:7

Believe in Him. Trust in Him. He is the LORD our God.


Vincent